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Name: enzovinceboy
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Literally. My dad is a completely unresponsive apathetic lazy slob. My mom left around two months ago and I've only seen her twice since. It seems as if I'm always the one calling HER instead of the otherway around.

Anyways I have bulimia and my dad has not done ANYTHING about it. I was supposed to follow up with an outpatient program but my dad never confirmed so i'm stuck by myself. He hears me purging multiple times a night but all he does it make fun of me for it. Then he acts concerned in front of the doctor, what the ****.

Anyways, I don't mean to sound like one of those spoiled brats...but I have no clothes. I go to a uniformed school and that is the only set of good conditioned clothes I have. I lost a lot of weight and so the only pairs of jeans I have were my brothers from grade eight. I'm in grade 11 now, 16, not 13. I'm wearing the same shoes I bought two and a half years ago, and i'm wearing a flimsy jacket I bought in september in the harsh canadian winter. I go to school two and a half hours away from my house, and i'm bussing so WARM clothes would be nice!

God, he doesn't even work. My parents both don't work. All he does is sit around watching illegal movies online all goddam day. Like what the ****, how about getting off of your *** and looking around once in a blue moon? All three of your kids are ****** up. My older brother (22) is completely lost, working part time at A&W and mooching all of our food. My twin brother is an agressive soon-to-be felon. And i'm the bulimic straight a over-achieving who nobody gives a **** about.

Theres a party tomorrow and I need clothes. I haven't been to a party in a while because i've become completely isolated and lonely (one of the side affects to an eating disorder). He's not willing to give me enough money to actually buy a new pair of jeans and a nice jacket.

I just want to kill him. Help?

It sucks not having any close friends who care about you, but knowing your parents don't give a **** is like the cherry on top. Depression City just beckons me.

NOT to mention I earned around 150 bucks working for Young Liberals of Canada. They mailed my check around two months ago...and guess what!? I NEVER received it! I wonder where that went. Hmmmmm....

The best answer my dad could give me was "It got lost in the mail". Bullshit, you took my money asshole.

Sorry i'm kind of rambling. But he's just so unresponsive. My high school guidance counsellor was even pissed at him and views him in disgust. He doesn't give a ****. Whenever I want to talk to him he's always making me repeat myself with a series of "whats" and "huh"'s, not to mention kicking me out of his office (sactuary) or bedroom.
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Name: hmmm | Date: Apr 21st, 2009 7:44 PM
I'm so sorry this is happening to you, but if your home has an office/sanctuary, I'm sure your family has some money 

Name: EDH | Date: May 28th, 2009 8:43 PM
take control of your life. Stop depending on your father. I may not know how it feels like, but if someone who can see that they are bulimic should be able to stop it. If you are an over-achiever then you can achieve this. Do your best to go through all the pain and bullshit your dad and life itself gives you. Get a job for your own money, find a hobby, maybe you might meet some other people with the same interest, keep yourself healthy. You'll be proud of yourself in the end. 

Name: deven | Date: Jul 2nd, 2009 6:35 AM
hiiiiiiiiiiii 

Name: kay | Date: Jul 6th, 2009 5:00 PM
Have you tried concentrating all of your energy on something else? You mentioned you're a straight-A student, and you're 16. You should be off to college soon. I would suggest that you throw yourself into a whole lot of extracurricular activities (you don't need money to do some activities, like ones offered at school, or community service). Also, take up hobbies and skills that you can hone (there are also plenty of hobbies that don't require money). Just do stuff you're passionate about, and when it's time to apply to college, you'll have plenty of stuff for your application... and you can write an AWESOME essay about how you overcame hardships! And I promise you, with top tier colleges (ivies, liberal arts, etc.) all you need to do is get in, and then you'll get need-based financial aid, no problemo! Also, try to stay positive (I know it must be difficult) and just look after yourself. 

Name: penis | Date: Aug 28th, 2009 4:35 PM
shit that sucks 

Name: Jake | Date: Nov 12th, 2009 9:14 AM
HI, lets compare our lives eh ?

1.your dad and mom split up
2.noone gives a shit about you
3.your broke..
4.your bulimic

now lets move on to me

1.mom and dad split (too young to remember when).
2.dad dosent speak to me
3.got epilepsy ( seizures )
4.broke
5 cracked my head 2wice ( front forehead and back of head,healed now but scar is on my forehead).
6.hardly have any clothes.. cant seem to find job *(god knows ive tried).
7.fked my gcse's up ( dont know if thts what their called were you come from but im uk).
8.had no friends throughout high school (worst years of my life..lonely+pathetic).
9.insulted almost daily about my appearance
10.bullied ( started about 2yrs after i came to the school).
11.i know im not ugly but there are some days i look in the mirror and actually wish i was someone else, i know it seems minor but me wanting to be someone else is prbly the worst thing on this lame list...

anyway im not trying to compare or ask for sympathy. I just wanted to share with others.
thnx for reading 


Name: BabyLovin | Date: Nov 12th, 2009 7:41 PM
enzovinceboy ::::
where do we start, well if you have bulimia and you know it, you should start working on that on your own, the first step to recovery is recognizing what your problem is. and it seems like you have already done that, since you're admitting you're throwing up.

-Bout your paycheck, all you have to do is get in contact with your job, and let them know you never received that paycheck, and they will do a research with their bank and find out if that check was ever cashed, and if it was they can get a copy of it and see who endorsed the check, and if it was never cashed, they can write you a new one.

Bout your dad not working... well how does he pay for bills? He sits in his office and watches movies, obviously you guys have electric, which cost money, and internet which also cost money.

Do you get allowance from your dad? Save it all up and go buy yourself some nice clothes, sitting down and venting all your anger and emotions isn't helping you at all. You need to actually do something about it. I'm pretty sure its not that bad. But you are a teenager and you are expecting to have everything handed to you.

But I hope that it all works out for you. & get better with that bulimia. 

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