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Well, no joke, I've been plagued with bulimiarexia for eleven years and counting. I have two daughters and I stay at home with them. I sometimes have good days and sometimes not..I started out like most of the girls in this forum...young and wanting to loose weight..wanting some control of my life and what went on in it..I had no family to turn to. I still don't. Hey, at least I don't get high anymore! I just want to be normal again, like when I was pregnant. Some of those months were ok because I didn't mind when I ate, it was about the baby... Now I have to worry about loosing the baby weight!! I just am so tired of worrying about every little thing I put in my mouth...Any advice??Oh, and I tried pretty much anything you can think of..come on now, eleven years!! Time to quit this shit. ↓
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| Name: vjw | Date: Jan 17th, 2008 5:58 PM |
| hey chick jst read your bit, man you sound so much like me in ways, i've never had family and any support and i dont think people really understand anyway, they all go the wrong way bout it dont they! havent bin wiv the same bloke all this time, i've had a few partners (not a slag or anythin jst spose i couldnt settle and chose my eatin over havin a relationship) are you still wiv your baby's dad? dont think i had periods cause i kept my weight at about 53lbs sometimes less for patches. i've met someone that makes me feel complete and thats why i feel the need to get better, i've always wanted children and since my abortion i jst want to crawl into a hole and die, i gave up a chance that im beggin for now, think yourself lucky sweetheart you have 2 beautifull girls and you no what that makes you? it makes you a mum, someone that two little people look up to no matter what you weigh and will love you regardless, i no wot its like to be on your own though, makes you well intrevert, dont no where your from but if ever you want a friend im here x ↑ |
| Name: rayna | Date: Jan 17th, 2008 6:23 PM |
| Hey there, how much did you say you weigh?? looks like 53, maybe it was a typo..anyways, I can tell right off the bat that you're from somewhere in England or at least on the other side of the Atlantic..am I right?? Well, I live here in Phoenix, Arizona..or as I'd like to refer to it as Hellhole..It's not a place for any normal human being to live, unless they are part reptile!! I can't wait to move out of this bleeding state some day.. Well, I am happy in the relationship department..I found someone- I never thought I'd be with another person after my first boyfriend...I was what you'd call a late-bloomer...Didn't have a boyfriend till I was about to turn 18...I got with the worst kind of person on the planet-An abusive, self-centered pig...literally the guy was like 300 pounds!! I didn't have anyone or anywhere else to go, so I lived with him for five long years. I thank God I never got pregnant by that guy!! Another reason why is cause he smoked way too much weed, his swimmers were no good..Plus I was smart and took birthcontrol..I think if you and your man are truly happy, you'll one day be blessed with children. If you aren't sure, I heard that if you are in a relationship with someone and it isn't going so well, a baby can make everything much worse....BUT if you are doing good with your significant other, a baby brings much joy and warmth to the relationship...I hope you are happy where you are in life and there's a few tricks to getting pregnant i can let you in on if you're interested...Writeya laters!! ↑ |
| Name: rayna | Date: Jan 18th, 2008 1:18 PM |
| Dear vjw, I forgot to answer your question about my current man...Well, I was with the Arsehole for the five years,then along comes my man...He was friends with my ex, didn't have anywhere to stay, so he and I became friends first..Another thing is that he's 20 years older than I am..But we're happy and in love and have been together for three years, we're married and when we first came together, we had nothing in our apartment-I mean nothing!! Now we own our own vehicle, have a bank-account, and soo much crap we need a storage!! We were blessed to find one another..He'd never been married, no kids, He's a hard working guy..Anyways, enough about me.I don't even know your name!! My real name is Rayna..It's cool talking to someone who can relate to me. Thanks for listening.later! ↑ |
| Name: vjw | Date: Jan 18th, 2008 2:39 PM |
| hey girl you ok? my name is vikki, i live in Essex in England, hope your day is goin ok, it must only be about half twelve there, its half seven at night here, my days been a bit pooh, ive sort lof fell off the eating waggon in the last week or so you no wen sometimes no matter how hard you try everything you eat turns into a binge and then you have to throw up[god i wish to god i could jst get over it, i used to weigh 53 pounds i now weigh bout 115, a big fat fatty! me and scott are very happy thankyou darlin, he does so much for me and trys his hardest to help with the eating, he never judges me, we live together also, scott earns really good money but i recently quit my job, workin with food isnt such a good idea wen your like you and me hey chick, to much temptation,so we're a little skint, oh well money isn't everything is it, glad your happy sweetheart, and who cares about age its nothing but a number, how is he about your eating? oh and how old are you? oh and another thing have you ever heard of ovulex ↑ |
| Name: rayna | Date: Jan 21st, 2008 3:06 PM |
| Dear Vikki, Hey there, sorry I haven't written in a day or so, the weekend was fun, got to drink some wine. Anywho, no, i haven't heard of ovulex, but it does sound familiar.. I bet it's really cold over there. It is sunny over here. Sorry you had a hard time with the food thing. You are thin- THIN!!!! WoW!! 115!! I don't think I could ever weigh that much in all my lifetime!! How tall are you? Do you work out? I am 5 feet 6 inches and I weigh 190 pounds. I am 26 yrs old- Just had a birthday on the nineth of this month. My husband doesnt know that I still throw up. He knows that I used to, but he thinks I quit when I got pregnant with my first baby. I sometimes think he knows, but just looks the other way..I mean, I don't do it every day, sometimes I could go for one,two and even three weeks without the purging, but that's really rare. last week I think I did it on Mon, then again on thurs. I also did it Sat nite, when I was drunk, but that was because I was drunk and had to! I didn't even binge that nite, just drank one too many glasses of wine! Well, I think it would be easier if I just gave you my email address,so we don't have to keep going in here and checking this site out, what do you think?? My email address is rjones272@cox.net. Right now it's one in the afternoon..I guess it's probably the evening over there, hope your weekend went ok. Thanks for listening!! laters ↑ |
| Name: rayna | Date: Jan 23rd, 2008 3:48 PM |
| Hey Vikki, havent heard from you in a few...You alright?? hope all is well with you!! ↑ |
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