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Name: death2mia [ Original Post ] I'm probably the millionth person on here to post about bulimia and it's effects on me, but I honestly don't know where else to go. My friends have enough to deal with or just don't understand, my mom is completely gullible to it all, and my boyfriend, as sweet as he's been through it all, can't really relate and understand how difficult it is to stop, even though i want to. I know I'm not the only one here that's suffering from bulimia, but i also know im not the only one that knows just how hard it is to stop. to actually taste food instead of scarfing it down just so you can purge it later. ive been battling mia since 8th grade off and on, trying as hard as possible to stop, but mia always wins, i always give in. for a year i stopped purging then a small trigger came from one of my guy "friends" (who is not a friend anymore) and put me right back in that dark corner. the worst feeling is that you know you started it on your own, but you cant stop yourself, like turning yourself into a mental ward: you checked yourself in, but you cant check yourself out, they own you. so i ask if there's anyone out there who knows what it feels like to have an ed ANY kind, please contact me. I want serious people not assholes who think it's funny to poke fun at life-threatening illnesses like this. yes i know i started it, but it's no different than alcohol or drugs or ciggarettes, just as hard to quit. Also, if anyone needs to talk, I'll be here for you, hell, we'll be there for each other. and to let everyone know (just for the hell of it) im 19, in college, and im not a toothpick. (though i wish i were) take care all. ↓

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Name: cherisalorraine | Date: Sep 23rd, 2007 9:16 PM

this is not my email but she is anorexic and very involved in getting help. please contact her. email me at starangelz_lea@hotmail.com or add me to msn ashlea88 = this is mine cherisalorraine@horizonview.net ↑

Name: cherisalorraine | Date: Sep 25th, 2007 7:53 PM

im here if you need me ↑

Name: jennypenny | Date: Sep 26th, 2007 12:40 AM

I think i've been bulimic for the last eight or nine months......it is the worst thing I've ever been through in my life.....and though I'm surrounded by people....I am alone in this struggle. I have been married for seven years and he knows I've been binging and purging at least twice a day for the last seven months and it's like he doesn't care......in the least........i feel horrible........I can barely think straight anymore......I seriously feel like my entire life is falling apart........I was always very thin and following the birth of one of my children...ibecame huge....at 5'6 i weighed 220......then i lost weight dieting "the right way" and dropped to 135.......only then did the bulimia start in an effort to keep the weight from coming back.......i am terrified......sometimes I feel like it's a death sentence....i just desperately need a friend to talk to that knows what i'm going through and that it's no joke......i feel so helpless and alone..... ↑

Name: starving 4 perfection.. | Date: Sep 26th, 2007 12:51 PM

hey please email me..... i have ana and i am trying to get help and i wanna help you i know how hard it is i was up too a 100 pounds and dropped down to 94 please email me it is hard but i think i can help you... it is starangelz_lea@hotmail.com or my other one is starving_4_perfection@hotmail.com lea ↑

Name: LadyRed | Date: Sep 26th, 2007 9:24 PM

Hey... I know exactly how you feel, I'm a 24 yo who just had to have a cardiac pacemaker put in to prevent my heart from stopping when I purge or dropping my pulse into the mid 20's from restricting. :-/ Do you have a xanga account? There is a lot of good support (both pro and recovery). ↑