My child my child aka baby LOVE ,

Yesterday I was a mess!  I mean a poor D’ mess!  My body was aching sooo much I had to leave work.  Then I took some med’s that the doctor said was okay to take and just laid in the bed.  I prayed the whole time!  I finally went to sleep after three hours of this.  Woke up and finish eating my lunch and drunk some milk. I also got a call from my aunt telling me she loved me.  I'm like I need to hear that!  God knew I need to hear that!  I went to bed early and around 9ish or 10pm I felt this violent movement in my stomach.  I’m like Lord what is he doing in there.  I prayed that he wasn’t having a seizure and that every thing was okay.  Well I woke up and the little guy has dropped.  I was carrying him high you know right under my breast and now I’m carrying him low.  I’m like okay with all that they say I have two to four weeks before he comes.  Even though I want him out I hope he gives mama and daddy four more weeks!  And FYI  you go to the bathroom 50 more times on top of the normal 50 million potty breaks!

My coworkers ask me how I was feeling last week.  I said I’m ready to have this baby. Well she kept saying he isn’t finish building the ark yet.  Meaning he can’t come out yet until he is finish cooking!  Well I had a dream that this man was building the ark and he had already finish the skeleton of the ark.  When I got closer he was on top of it sanding it down!  Now if that’s not a sign tell me what is?!

One LOVE… 

P.S. I'm having More contractions those doctors where soooo wrong!  And the LORD was right.  He is coming in AUGUST!  And soon! 

My sweet baby love ,

How are you doing in the womb?  Me O I’m just holding on baby!  Even though we woke up a million times you are the only one that can go back to sleep.  Mama and daddy had to go to work.  Well it starts off with the normal stuff you know getting up to go to the bathroom.  Then your you daddy scared us both when he hit the bed in his sleep.  I’m like what was that?  He was like O it was me!  I’m like he needs to stop with this mosquitoes thing!  I believe he was dreaming about killing them!  LOL Then two more time getting up to pee.  I finally get comfortable and fall asleep and the smoke alarm battery goes bad and that thing starts to chirp!  I’m like D get up and take them thing out!  He does and then goes right back to sleep but not you!  You started moving that head on mommies bladder.  I feel that you are getting bigger because it starting to hurt.  So off the potty again.  Then I’m just up!  So finally I must have fallen asleep but then I have to pee three hour later and by then it’s time to get up!   Okay that was mommy’s night.

But I’m glad that you are getting your rest now because I’m going to be a bugga and keep you up around six weeks to get you on a sleep schedule.  And I have no idea why but I’m in love with your little butt.  It is so cute even when you poke up in my ribs.  I just pat it softly so you can put it down.  But I’m just ready to hold you.  I guess it's been that way for awhile but now I can just smell you.  I also had another dream about you.  They had you in that glass bed in the hospital and everybody was saying how handsome and cute you are.  I’m like yep that's my little man!  You were in the soft blue outfit mama has for you!  And boy did you have a head full of hair.  But that wouldn’t surprise me much because you father had a huge afro when he was growing up.  I just had a lot of hair.   Pony tails , ribbons , and barrettes every where.  If it wasn’t for my glass I would have taken my eye out.  I’ll show you the pictures later.  Don’t laugh to hard.  Mommy was a diva in training!  LOL  We love you so much and missing you also.  I’m like how can you miss someone you never knew. 

BUT NOW I KNOW!

One love…

I can't stop playing this song!   Jesus this is deciated to us!  I’m lin ove with Him they try to pull me away from him but I keep coming to him.  The scars I have show how deep my love for the Lord!  If you only knew my story.  Of How I made it through.  How I'm so gratful of where I am now!  The things I had to dig threw to see the LIGHT.  Do you understand what I'm say?  I was so broken in this world and hurting for LOVE.  The only real love I found was from the LORD.  The ONE LOVE I got from him was amazing.  It showed me how to love myself, my husband, and now my child.  This so so rEal because this is coming from a woman that never knew how to LOVE>>>>>>>>>>>>.................................

Bleeding Love by Leona Lewis

Closed off from love I didn’t need the pain
Once or twice was enough and it was all in vain
Time starts to pass before you know it you’re frozen
But something happened for the very first time with you
My heart melted to the ground found something true
And everyone’s looking round thinking I’m going crazy

But I don’t care what they say I’m in love with you
They try to pull me away but they don’t know the truth
My heart’s crippled by the vein that I keep on closing
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding keep keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding I keep keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding keep keep bleeding love
You cut me open

Trying hard not to hear but they talk so loud
Their piercing sounds fill my ears try to fill me with doubt
Yet I know that their goal is to keep me from falling
But nothing’s greater than the risk that comes with your embrace
And in this world of loneliness I see your face
Yet everyone around me thinks that I’m going crazy
Maybe maybe

Chorus

And it’s draining all of me
Though they find it hard to believe
I’ll be wearing these scars for everyone to see

Chorus

And I keep bleeding, keep keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding, keep keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding, keep keep bleeding love
You cut me open and I
Keep bleeding, keep keep bleeding love

One LOVE...

Baby love is coming ,

 I was Braxton hick’in again all day Friday.  I finally left work an hour early and went home because my body was drained.  I ate and went to bed and stay there.  I’m like if this is false labor how I’m I going to hold up for the real thing?  Sunday morning I woke D up because I was having pelvic pain again.  After I had been up for like an hour I needed him!  He prayed over me then went and got my hamburger and beans! (Don’t ask)   I am thankful for him even though I blow up yesterday.  I’m still in nesting mode and clean up the house as much as I could.  I got baby loves clothes wash and my sister in law stops by to get the measurements for the soon to be nursery.   We are trying to make sure the bed , changing table , and dresser will fit.  I also bought you some glass bottles. (Hey you’re my first child I can spoil you a little)  I need to do more research on which plastic ones are safe. 

 My body hurts and I was having a major hot flash this morning.  If I could get a way with it I would have showed up in nothing!  I was meaning to get my pop sickles this morning they are soooo good!  The Strawberry kind from HEB…  REAL STAWBERRIES HMMM...  My uterus is still contracting and I’ve been feeling nauseated!  I’m like where is that coming from.  I didn’t have that in the first trimester.  I did have the body ache.  It feels like the flu!  I’m like okay Lord I feel like I’m going back wards.  Crazy mood swings , body ache , fatigue , with a twist contractions and nausea!?  Grrreat! 

 On to other news.  We have our first and last birthing class this Saturday.  Next doctors appointment is on the 29^th.  My baby shower has been moved to August 9!  My child is in the right position to give birth!   And I'm too tired to work. I was up last night... That’s it in a nutshell!