WOW! It seems like yesterday when Gary and I found out we were pregnant! On a Friday afternoon no less.... I knew it beforehand but just needed confirmation but he thought I was nuts. WRONG! Anyways, the hormonal ride as been a trip and a half. Poor Gary! I can't stand when I get upset with him but it seems like my hormones take over and there isnt much I can do. Saturday by far as been the worst... trying to put that dang crib together while he was at work, I was frustrated.. to say the least. So I called Gary ranting.. poor guy! He felt so bad because he knew there wasnt much I was getting done and I hate leaving things unfinished like him. So I hung up on him and decided I am turning off the cell phone... I decided then I needed another nap perhaps to get my hormones back in check... well , he decides to call my best friend Barbara... HELP Susan! She is freaking out and her hormones are going crazy. Well, she tried and he tried again... no such luck! Well, to make a long story short.. I ended up apologizing, which he said was fine.. he understood that being housebound, I was bound to be a little cranky!
Barbara called me yesterday to ask me if we knew what was going on with the baby. I told her I wasn't sure but that so far everything was on trek for a later delivery and not a sooner one. Everything seems to be quieting down and the preeclampsia is in check so HOPEFULLY.. I said.. it'll be July when he is born but I suspect late June. About 5 weeks early like David. She told me to let her know when we thought wed have the baby so she could spend a couple of days down here helping us out after Talon was born. YEAH!!!!!!! I havnet seen her since March, the baby shower. I miss Barbara, she is no doubt one of Talon's godmother for a reason. She has no kids of her own but thinks of most of her friends' kids like their hers. She treats David the same way! Its totally amazing. I told her she was welcomed to camp out at the house other than staying in a stuffy hotel room. I told her that we didnt have much room but I figured instead of wasting money, she could be here and really help out. She agreed and David said.. WHOO HOO! Barbara is coming! He loves her to death. Then, Gary said.. Good, she'll keep you out of my hair, teasingly ofcourse. I have no idea what my folks plan on doing.. since they are now two hours away instead of the dreaded 8 like it was when I was preggos with David. Hopefully, they decide to come for the birth as well. With everything going on, I doubt it!
Anyways, I know Gary's mom plans on taking off a week to be here to help out. She always helps out though and for that I am very grateful. She is no doubt a great mother in law. I love her to death. She treats me like a regular daughter instead of a daughter in law, its nice. She and her husband Hugh plan on coming up this weekend... yeah! David is so excited to see them as are the rest of us. Then, maybe my folks will be up the next weekend... thats what Dad said anyways. But we shall see on that! I never count on them for coming up because something always goes wrong with their plans. Its not intentional but its just their lives. Sometimes... as close as I feel to my dad and mom, I almost feel as far away as I do with them as I do with my real mother.. who I never speak to anymore! Being pregnant kinda brings that emotion out more. Heck, with gas prices the way they are going, I cant get down their any better either.
I have a drs appt today for the thyroid issue. I hope and dont see why I would have to go back after this one. It seems as though everything is working out for the best. I dont feel any different than before even with the medication. Not that I noticed it anytime before too. Oh well! Hopefully Dr Aycock, who is a very nice doctor, will see me and that'll be it! I dont WANT anything else to be wrong with me. I cant take much more issues without having a total nervous breakdown! BLAH!
One more thing, on Friday... I ran into two people I used to work with. Both talked to me but you could tell they were uncomfortable talking to me. I suspect because of what happened. But also, I cant go into Wal-mart and walk around like a normal person. Because of the high blood pressure, the high risk doctor and even mine want me riding on them dang carts.. You know the ones! Well, I was sitting in one of those when I ran into them. I dont care if they think I was joking or not but its a serious issue and even Gary wont let me off the hook! David ofcourse was being the good samaritain and helping me get the groceries.. By God, did we have a ton. But no doubt, these guys that I was just faking. I am sure when they go to work today, I'll be mentioned at least once. That place can never keep a secret. Believe me, its one major reason I am GLAD to be gone! I am an open book, I dont mind what people typically know of me, as long as "I" am the one telling it. Talk about me behind my back, yep we have an issue! But to be honest, I dont think Ill ever get to work for a paper again. Heck, thats okay. I dont care anymore. I have MORE important things in my life besides a career. I should have known that having a family would impede on having this kind of career. Its just not really heard of typically. I dont care though.. I love my sons and my husband and rather be a housewife than a huge big star reporter. Heck, when the ambulances and sirens go by, I barely pay them any mind anymore. It cant be helped!
As for David, the munchkin boy is doing good. As I said on Friday, he helped out tremendously.. He showed me that day how good of a helper he could be. I really think he is ready to be a big brother like he said. Yesterday, after Gary got the crib and everything put together all the way, David came in and said. I cant wait for Talon to get here so I can be a big brother finally. I want to teach him everything I know! To be honest, I think its the first time it actually dawned on me, how much David has grown up. I think Im losing my baby! :( He is such a good kid. He helped me get diapers into the changing table so I could reach for them better.. we looked at the diapers and he goes,, DANG, these are tiny! He laughed but I knew what he was thinking.. I was this small? Yes, David even you were this small.
2006-04-22 (27 weeks)
For Talon.... Hey son... since it will be a long time until you can read this.. maybe I can tell you one day how your father and I met in person but still I felt like I needed to write it down because even though people think we are nuts, we are so much in love with each other, despite the many faults we may have together as well! Your daddy is a wonderful man.
Oddly enough, your daddy's version of it will vary from mine because he remembers more. But I will say we met each other through your brother's biolgoical daddy. His name is William. Like your brother's first name. Anyways, your daddy and I in the very beginnning never liked each other. I hated it when he came over because he dipped, yes even then he did it! ARGH! He would leave his spit jars everywhere in the computer room and that was the only reason he was there. TO USE THE COMPUTER! It drove me nuts. ME? He didnt like me because well.. I am (was) a mean person... that's saying it nicely... We just did NOT get along. Well, after my divorce from David's father, I learned from your daddy why it fell apart for David's daddy and I. In anger, I threw a remote towards ur daddy, although not aiming for him and he knows this.. as we talked about it the other day. He said he could understand my frustration!
Anyways, we were talking about it for a while and he left. Sometime during the next month, Will and his "new" wife Mary told Gary that they knew he was the one that told me.. that was NEVER true. I never told, they assumed and Gary was mad at me for saying something! WHICH I NEVER DID! I guess that was okay at the time! He didnt like me and I didnt like him! That was in 2000.
In 2003, I remet two members of Will's old gang... Will has already been gone from David's life since 2001 and pretty much gone from them since 2000. He gave up all his friends including Gary. C'est la vie! Well, I remet Doug and saw Lonnie and then met Gary in a very odd way!
Back in 2001 I signed up on this dating service, never ask me why I did, but I did. I hadnt used it in 2 years and never thought twice about it. However, I received a message in late March from this guy named Gary. Never ONCE putting two and two together. We started talkikng and emailing pretty regularly.. it wasnt until he told me about an accident he had in 2002 during hapkiedo that I thought OH NO! I KNOW HIM! ARGH! After asking me if we wanted to meet, I knew it was time to come clean. So doing what I thought was best, I called another mutual friend of ours JT for your daddy's number. I called him and told him the situation, all the while dreading the outcome. Your daddy was very sexy on the phone, even while very tired. We talked for two hours and he agreed to come over that evening. So he did and we talked and listened to Rodney Carrington. I still say Rodney is the reason we are together. Your daddy also noticed bumps on my arms which were embarressing. I told him, which is true, that I got them because of some clothes I ended up being allergic to., mixed in by the heat.
After he left, I assumed he'd never come back.. BUT HE DID! YEAH!
Well, time goes on, we are hanging out, he startes dating someone, I start dating someone and we both are seeing each other. It wasnt until late that summer , I realized I was falling head over heals in love with Gary. I knew I had to tell him before my ex boyfriend Paul did or any one of other friends.. although Doug DID try to tell him even after I asked him NOT TO! BUTTHEAD! Anyways, in September your daddy took me to Cash to visit his family's graves. It was very romantic although I dont know why it had such a profound effect on me to this day. Maybe it was because I saw a different Gary for the first time.
In October, after going to a concert with your father, Trapt and Seether, I almost told him how I felt.. Well, a week later, I blurted it out after getting out of his car. I cried and told him I was in love with him. and ran into my house waiting for David to get home! Well, he said his first reaction was HOLY COW! NOW WHAT? I thought for sure that was the end of friendship. How wrong I was!!!! Paul said it would be okay.. and I guess he was right!
On the night I graduated from college December 2003, Gary asked me to give him a chance and here we are. After moving back from Benton in 2004, Gary and I decided to only date each other and in 2005, we married. Now, here it is 2006.. and we are expecting your our first child together. David cant wait, I cant wait and most of all Gary cant wait! Because of not having any blood relatives of his own anywhere near by, he is adopted, you are the love of his life and he cant WAIT to see you! My dear Talon you are a blessing in disguise!
Your daddy always says I am the one who found him but I dont think so.. sometimes I think he held all the cards but he says I did! He tells me all the time how I am the love of his life and he has been waiting for me to rope him in. Who would have thought that in 2000 we would end up together in 2003. Heck, I certainly didnt! When my friends think about it, it was always meant to be. Maybe it was! Sometimes I wonder what would have happened if I never told him but then I cant think like that.. because we are together and thats all that matters.
Oh yeah... your daddy mentioned once that he went to New Orleans *before it was under water* and was told by a street psychic that if he stopped looking for love, love would find him. Well, he certainly never thought it would be me! WELL, THATS TRUE ON MY END TOO!
I love your daddy and David very much. There isnt anything I wouldnt do for them and the same holds true for you my baby!
2006-04-19 (26 weeks)
just a nother reason why.... ... I love my doctor's office! I had to take my son to his peds doctor to get a check up on his meds. While waiting at the pharmacy, I decided to take a quick run to my doctor's office and find out about my liver function results and see if we could switch times on my appt next Friday. Well, the receptionist there knows me by name and I explained why I wanted to switch times. With Gary working until typically noon now, if we had a later appt, he could come to the ultrasound. So, we pulled it off! She said she would leave my regular appt alone for the NST to be done and set up another appt up the same day at 2:30 p.m. for Gary and David to attend the ultrasound. The only issue I have with getting David to the appt is his checkout time with penalties is 2:30.. I need to be there by 2:15 myself.. So Gary woudl HAVE to get David for me! Gary will finally get to meet MY doctor... after how mnay times of my going. Course hes never able to get off in time so this would probbaly be his first nad last until the birth. He is about to have a bigger route and it will take more time than this one now.
Well, the liver function results did come back.. They are BACK to normal. However, Dr. Nobles told his nurse that I needed to increase my protein again but lay off the sugar. When I explained what happened earlier with regards to eating, the nurse said it was possible I was becoming hypoglycemic. (sp) She asked if I had a lot of sugar lately, which of course I HAD.. so now I have to lay off the sugar! *sigh* Oh well! My husband is rather happy about that too! Grrrrr!
Other than that, I am happy to report I am doing well. David is being very good as of lately. I was able to buy a brand new Ocean Wonders Crib mobile for only $22.50 on Ebay.. saving myself $13. I only hope the person doesnt rip me off and we shall see! So far so good! The crib will be put together by this weekend. I would have done it today but I just didnt feel that hot! Gary is just amazed we only have 93 days left officially for the pregnancy. I'm a little amazed myself... WOW! Where has the time went? oh yeah, alot of it was spent in the drs office! LOL
2006-04-16 (26 weeks)
got one item together
Gary decided this morning to apease me so he put together the changing table. This table as Talon gets older can be used as a dresser which is very nice, I must say. I was able to set up all his items in the dresser including but not limited to his clothes, burp rags, blankets, washrags and hand slipper with matching hats. I was also able to put in my books I received from Julie. I must say.. I wish this was out for David when he was a baby. It's a wonderful wonderful thing indeed. I love it. Gary said the changing table part was all wood. WHOO HOO! I asked him what he thought and he goes, it's a little late now.. but I like it! I bought what you wanted because I KNEW you had already looked around and knew what you wanted for Talon. I dont think he's that unimpressed with my furniture choosing abilities!!!! As much as he moans about it! Now, he's gone for a bit and he MIGHT put together the crib for me when he gets back. It doesnt matter if its done right away or not. But I must say I wouldnt mind it if he didnt today! That way I can get the dresser under the crib done too! Wow! Two pics of the changing table are in the album!
I have noticed lately... that David is having a hard time with the prospect now. He's been beside me nearly all the time which is driving me nuts. He's beginning to throw more fits which I have expected for a long time now. I cant do much more other than tell him I love him but he is driving me absolutely insane. At 11, he's beginning to act more like a 5 year old instead. Oh well! I knew it was coming, I just figured we had another month or so to go before Talon's birth for it to start! ARGH!
