logically 10 more weeks... However, technically, Ive only got another 9 weeks. I can't believe I am already at 30 weeks... Seems just like yesterday I was sitting at the halfway point. Its been an interesting time obviously.... with all the ups and downs of baby Talon. What will the next few weeks bring? Will Talon be delivered on July 13 or will he need to be born earlier due to more complications... only time will tell.
Speaking of which, I will be going to my second drs. appt today at 10. Another ultrasound is being done PLUS I have more blood work to get done. Ive done that stupid urinalysis yesterday and early this morning. I am SO READY to be over this pregnancy so I can STOP going these many days a week appointments. I am so tired of going to these appts so much. Every other day its either good news or bad news.. why cant it just stay consistent? From Tuesday's news.. I just cant deal with more bad news..
Talon hasnt been moving as often... I keep reading that by this time its normal for him not to be felt as much.. at least I hope thats the real case... I still feel him from time to time... As we were driving yesterday, Gary placed his hand on my belly and felt Talon push him off a little... it was so amazing seeing Gary's face light up and him go WAS THAT HIM? He wasnt expecting Talon to push him off like that. It was cute. Talon has been putting his butt up towards my stomach and when he rolls.. he hurts me a little. I guess I will miss this when he is born but I seriously hope thats atleast another month away. The drs all told me the earliest I could give birth would be today. I seriously hope not! I dont want to leave him in an incubator at the Jackson Hospital.
I hope that the news I get from the dr today will be much better than Tuesdays...Protein and sugars are back down and that my Bp is still down.. I dont want to deliver Talon early at any point. Atleast not before 36 weeks.
2006-05-09 (29 weeks)
I knew something was off.... I had my NST done this morning. In fact, I am just getting back from it. My feelings of laziness and sleepiness was right on target on how I FELT something was off in my body. The urinalysis confirmed what I had been feeling all along. Apparently I have +2 urine again along with a +2 sugar level... not good. I overdid it this weekend. My BP was good.. it was 130something over 68 so we werent concerned there. However, Dr. Nobles is concerened about everything else and is putting me BACK on a 24hour urinalysis. I will start that Thursday morning and take it with me on Friday when I have the scan done. He measured my belly at 32 weeks as well, which is 2 and half weeks where I should be. BLAH! The other bad news is even though I had been losing weight... I gained 3.5 pounds in 5 days... My in-laws came up and everything I achieved went out the window. My friend Barbara says this isnt my fault.. but somehow, someway.. I am responsible for everything I do. I should have known better than to do what I did! Im so depressed about the weight gain and sugar/protein levels... DAMN IT! Sorry.. Im just frustrated..
I asked Dr. Nobles if he thought I would make it to July 13 and he said he just wasnt totally sure.. I asked him what about June 22,23 and he said.. this was definetely a wait and see game now. If the 24-urine comes back bad.. I just dont know what they are going to do.. Im so scared and nervous. I just hope Talon is healthy enough if we do have to deliver early. They say he is an active baby and I feel it... but im just worried that being born 2 months ahead of schedule.. is going to cause irreptiable damage to him and to my family... Im so scared im gonna lose him! Even though he isnt born yet, I love him as if he was here in my arms already. Please God.... please protect me and my son as well as my husband and older son. Let us see through this horrific time and give me strength to hold on to what I achieved in the past. Let me make sure that the protein and sugars are gone and that we will make it through another crisis!
2006-05-09 (29 weeks)
None.. no motivation at all! Gosh.. all I want to do is sleep. I have a drs appt with Nobles at 10 a.m. and I am far from wanting to go to it. I am so tired and want to crawl back into bed. I still need a shower for this appt. All it is is the NST test but I am so tired of dealing with it.. I hope that next week will end them all. I am so blah on them. I do want them to check my urine and BP though because I feel a little off from the weekend. Its my own stupid fault but I have to check it out.
Yesterday, I went down to Katrina's place and washed a buttload of baby clothes. I didnt think there was that many but WOW! I stil have more I can do. I am getting the baby's bag ready in case someting were to happen in the next 9 weeks.. you just never know... While we were washing the clothes, we kicked back and played Jargon, tis pretty cool and also Phase 10. My son was outside at the water park/playground. He had a blast but is NOW sunburned on his face and arms. He isnt complaining too much but its kinda funny to hear him say wow.. I look like a lobster. yeah, no kidding shrimp! I still have the baby's clothes to put away. Katrina said we still needed to wash the sheets and baby bottles.. ARGH! She's right! I forgot about all that... tis okay though. My washer is still in Jonesboro with the in-laws until we get another place of our OWN... we are MOVING OUT OF THIS PLACE as soon as our lease is up. I cant WAIT! Katrina is letting us use hers which is very nice. I may suggest to her that I wash the baby's clothes at her place away from the rest of the family... saving us money at the laundromat PLUS.. I can do it whenever and she can see the baby more often. She was keen on the idea of babysitting once I got another job and went back to work. dunno when that'll be but we will see...
Well, I guess I need to go..Perhaps if I took a hot shower it would wake my happy butt up! YEAH RIGHT! BLAH.. tired.. bed.. is.. calling.. sleep.. go to sleep Susan.. I WISH!
2006-05-07 (29 weeks)
c-section rapidly approaches... Even though my due date says July 21 from the date of my LMP, the scheduled c-section is July 13. God, I sincerely hope I make it to that. I gave birth to David 5 weeks early because of toxemia. Heck, if we read the journal we already know this.. but Im just sitting here getting everything ready for Talon's birth which is rapidly approaching. This includes his baby book which we have yet to include his name on JUST in case we are completely wrong. However, having ultrasounds every week.. I dont think we can be in this case.. considering we KNOW where his hands are nine times out of ten. But just on the safe side of caution. I am also getting the diaper bag ready which will include the baby book so the nurse can put Talon's feet into the book. I cant WAIT! technically I only have 10 weeks from now before I have my second son in my arms. It is so amazing the miracle of life. It really is!
I dont know what else I need to bring. Last time I didnt have a diaper bag ready because I was put in so quick. This time I aint playing... I am getting everything ready NOW!
Inlaws are already back at home! It was such a nice visit. Barbara said she loved the room. I showed her how everything was pretty much gonna look. I even showed her the drawer FULL of diapers wanting for Talon's little booty. Plus all the clothes... we are so ready.. and from what I understand... Granny Wortham is itching to buy baby clothes for him to wear.. more of them.. LOTS more.. I told Barbara I am not surprised. Gary joked with his mother that he was able to give her a grandchild/son before she died. She, according to him, as longed for a grandbaby for some time. She didnt think itd ever happen because of the way Gary can be. He airs on the side of caution before leaping into any kind of relationship. Howd I get so lucky?
He called me earlier to let me know he already has my mother's day card. How he can think about it which its next week! Oh good lord! I didnt even think about that! BLAH!
MIL also brought the car seat up.. The car seat believe it or not, is actually a 2 in 1.. goes from an infant seat to intermediate seater.. I cant believe it. Why couldnt they make those when David was younger? ARGH! She also said shed rather buy the baby a new playpen and I showed her which one Id rather have. She said shed do her best. My mother said she is gonna get the mattress to the crib so that's a load off. Technically after getting that and the changing table pad plus bassinett sheet.. we dont need much else. Oh yeah.. she also brought more diapers to us.. 3 packs of 1's.. totaling 274 diapers. I dont think I need anymore ones for the near future.. time to stock up on the 2's and 3's...
Next week, Im gonna wash the baby's clothes at my friend's house if she will still let me... although I dont see why not. She offered. Also going to wash the baby bottles while I am at it... I am so ready for Talon to be here. Some days when he is just going to town kicking me.. its an amazing site.. He can literally take my breath away. Especially if I get done eating something very sweeet since I dont have it often anymore, he just goes NUTS. I love it but he can really pack a whoolap!
Lets see.. I dont think there is much else to say.. Im just pretty much rambling today because I think I took in way too much Salt for my body to handle. Not having it all the time can really kick your butt later when you do take in TOO MUCH! No more for me, not after this weekend.
Even though he isnt born yet, I love him as if he was here in my arms already. Please God.... please protect me and my son as well as my husband and older son. Let us see through this horrific time and give me strength to hold on to what I achieved in the past. Let me make sure that the protein and sugars are gone and that we will make it through another crisis! 