Staying out of the heat.... Despite the fact that the Iron Horse Festival is going on just a few feet from my front door... I cant enjoy the show because its way too hot outside. Just picking my husband up from his workplace, I started having mild BH contractions. I can be outside walking and five minutes later, Im in some serious pain! I dont know WHAT the deal is but its ridiculous. It's 1 p.m. and already 92 degrees outside. I know Im gonna have to take it easy with what I do. My phone, a cell phone none the less, will not work inside the house.. So unless I have my hubby's I cannot talk on the phone! It sux but thats what happens when you move to a new place and cant get out of a contract despite the company's best telling you its okay in the area you are moving into.
We are about to look into getting a house to buy here shortly. Gary is appeasing me I think but then again, maybe he realizes how much we do need a three bedroom place. I cant see, no matter HOW MUCH David said he doesnt mind, a newborn and 11 year old sharing a bedroom. Thats too much of an age difference. Heck HUD will tell you that! This place we are looking at is actually a 2 bedroom but the den can and will be made into a third bedroom. I HOPE we can get it! This rental place we have moved into was not even nice when we first got it but with all the Katrina victims from the Gulf Coast and New Orleans, there was no way you could be choosy and we had to get something fast. What I am really hoping for.. this place to have central heat and air with NO GAS.. just electric.. I can deal with that! If not, then we will see how much gas it has and go from there.. Winters can be slightly cruel down here near the Gulf.. but we just have to see if we can even get something like this.. I HOPE SO! I REALLY DO! For all of our sakes! With Gary just working, I just dont know if we can pull it off. I cant put myself on the contract.. my credit is too far from perfect thanks to the ex-hubby. However, Gary only has ONE negative on his so that should help. He has PLENTY of good credit though so we shall see! Wish we could really do a rent to own.. that would be sweet! Wish us luck!
2006-06-09 (34 weeks)
34 week checkup! Wow! 34 days left until July 13. This is so unbelievable.... had my checkup with the dr and the BPP ultrasound. Tech said as soon as she saw Talon's diaphram, he was mimicking breathing already. It didnt take long. My fluid is measuring above 20 which is very good according to her. This time I didnt even need help getting off the table. I kinda rolled and was able to sit myself up. God, Im getting good at that! I didnt find out his heartrate but consideirng she wasnt concerned neither will I be! Doctor checked my cervix today and oddly enough, the stupid thing is actually softening. WOW! Softening up for delivery. He said he doesnt suspect I will make it to July 13. However, I could surprise them all and make it. As for getting off the meds, he said not to right at the moment, he said if anything it could cause a placenta abruption and I could bleed out. He said the medication is typically out of my system within 24 to 48 hours after the last dose! WHOOO HOO! So I will be able to breastfeed after all! Lets see what else.. oh yeah.. BP measured at 128/70. It is so good to hear that.. I dont know about the protein levels.. no one told me today but thats okay!
Wow! I just cant believe how soon Talon will be here.. I am so happy! YIIPPEE!
I did gain three pounds which I suspected anyways because I had been eating sweets like crazy. PB&J sandwiches because there wasnt much else. I had Orange sweet rolls on Wednesday night and those french toast sticks for breakfast on Wednesday morning. Im not overwhelmingly crazy about the gain but... Im not gonna get in an uproar already. Im already overweight so whats a few more pounds I have to take off after he gets here! I cant WAIT to have you here Talon.. Anytime now.. you want to make ur presence known.. let us know! We are waiting to hold you my love... my child!
2006-06-09 (34 weeks)
cheddar peppers only good.... GOING DOWN AND NOT UP! OMFG I hurt so bad right now. I feel like my chest is on fire and my throat is as raw as ever. Because I was in so much pain, I stomped my foot on the ground which caused hubby to wake up... Groggily he is asking what in the world was that? I yelled from the bathroom your wife throwing up! Course he starts in there and wonders where. Typically I make it to the toliet but this time... there was no way. Because of where I had been standing, rinsing out my mouth thinking maybe I wont throw up, I puked in the sink about 6 times. Ooohhh yuck! Even now I feel like there is something there waiting to come up.. yucky yucky! No doubt! My son, who typically rushes to the bathroom with me when I vomit to assist me in any help I need to rinse off.. basically be moral support when Gary is sleeping, fell back to sleep himself in my bed! WHY MY BED????? He was watching a movie with me and fell asleep watching it! Course he was nearly on the edge of the bed and when I woke up being able to hardly breathe, I nearly pushed him off because of the panic I felt. I really felt like i was choking.. Even now I wonder if it was completely an asthma attack that started it or if I knew I would throw up and threw myself into a panic because of it. I just dont know!
Ugh! I bet now I wont be going back to sleep anytime soon... I guess Ill be up until after I take Gary to work and even then I will only get 2 hours of sleep because of my appt at 9 a.m. Wow! 34 weeks.. more than ever.. am I ready to have my body back so I can get back to eating and not worrying about blech.. throwing up! YUCK!
2006-06-08 (33 weeks)
Countdown 35 days.. quiet times I hate it when Talon gets awfully quiet for too long. To make sure he is doing okay.. I play some music. Most people say play soft music like Enigma or Enya.. not this litle one! He is gonna be like his big brother.. Techno music all the way! He loves the song "Temperature" by Sean Paul especially. He also loves the group Kansas.. yes a very totally different genre but he loves the song "Dust in the Wind" and "Carry on Wayward Son". Those two songs I grew up on myself so feeling him rock back and forth.. its cute. And a generation continues it... David never did like them two so knowing Talon is "dancing?" in my belly to them makes me feel pretty good! Usually I have to sing the Kansas songs to him but he seems to love them even though I cant carry a tune. There is one song.. although it slips my mind that hubby said I sound just like the lead singer when i sing it. Its by Journey that much I remember. Before he is born, I think I am gonna make a mixed cd for him to listen to. Not that I couldnt do it on my computer since the computer and he will be in the same room and make a playlist for him but atleast this way.. I can have the cd in the hospital with me if need be. I dunno its just a thought!
Hubby says when Talon gets older.. he is gonna get him hooked onto Nine Inch Nails... its my hubby's favorite group.. and I can see it happening. Talon will have a very wide range of music offered to him minus country.. unless Charee' Chouamon gets her career going and sends me a cd for him. Charee' better send me a cd of her music. Julie's daughter is so talented musically. I think if she went on American Idol she would stand a snowballs chance in hell of winning! She is that good! She sang for the baby shower and my wedding both. She sang you "light up my life" without the words in the background.. She is just that talented.. and I have been blessed to know her and the rest of her family.
I hope that we can travel with our children to Europe or even the Orient like I was able to. I got to live in Japan, Guam, and visit Korea. Back then, I may not have had much of an appreciation for it. But looking back now... I realized I wouldnt change the experience for nothing. When my son asks me how to say Thank u in Japanese or even Korean.. I can actually tell him.
What I miss about Japan... hmm.. there are so many things.. one is the Water Park called Toshia-en Pool... another is walking in downtown Tokyo. Heck, I even miss just getting on the train there. I also remember walking off the base to go to the Japanese candy store and getting sugary things to eat. I miss my Pockys. (Breaded candy with chocolate or strawberry coating).. I actually found them in Jonesboro but i cant find them here in McComb. Kinda sucks too.. because I was like whoo hooo!! I found them!
What I miss about Guam.. well.. not much to be honest.. it was too much like the United States other than being an island and surrounded by water. I do miss the beach. Other than that.. I dont care for it. Now I do miss the fact that I learned how to drive there... Talon ur grandfather Martin about drove your mother nuts teaching her to drive his truck. I didnt think Id pass my driver's tests when it came time to do parallel parking. I never could do it with him in the car.. However, I got to the test site.. and passed on the first try. Your grandfather was like great she passed her test.. ofcourse meaning that sarcastically.
Korea- well considering I never lived there but visited several times.. I know what I miss and dont miss. My stepmother.. who I call my mother.. because she is the one who always took care of me... is a native born Korean. We got to visit Osan Air Base in South Korea and normally stayed right off the base at a hotel. Mom let me know that Koreans dont like the number 4 so the hotel went from 1, 2, 3, 5 for rooms. I thought it was a little weird but its true. I miss being able to go shopping for CHEAP! I mean cheap. My mother bought us all mink blankets for a good price. I still have mine too. I bought clothes for real cheap. You can walk into a store, bargain with the retailers and bring them down in price... atleast thats how it was. I remember going into one store and buying 3 outfits, shirts and pants for less than $20 bucks.. I still have two of the shirts too. Pants.. I think are long gone! I was able to get away with a buttload of earrings for less than $10. I loved it. The one thing I DONT miss.. and this is said with a extreme passion.. McDonalds... back then.. Im not sure if its still like that now.. back then.. mom wasnt kidding either. it wasnt like her to joke! I was eating a hamburger one day.. and mom said you do realize they dont have cows here right.. duh! Import meat in right.. not off the base they dont.. Mom said Koreans typically ate Dogmeat and thats what the restuarant was selling.. Dogburgers.. thats it!! No more McDs for me in Korea. and I didnt either.. that was just mean if it wasnt true.. I mean very mean! blah!
I want my children to experience everything I got to experience. In Japan, walking around the mall off the base.. and eating Japanese cuisine.. even if all of it wasnt great. Visiting other schools when I was in the choir.. I miss that and I only hope my children dont grow up in this racist society like I have just begun to experience. Living overseas... we got along to the best of our abilities. I want them to have that experience.. and I hope I can give it to them! I really do!
David, hearing about it, knows what a good time I had and said he wishes he could visit Japan. I hope Talon will be the same way! My husband and I are both travelers... being Pisces we cant help it! David.. being a pisces but on the cusp of an Aqaurius is not so much.. but he does like to every once in a while. I wish gas prices werent so high.. Gary and I want to travel around the area and look a cemeteries not visited frequently. Its just the way we are!
Will Talon have our sense of adventure or will he have David's sense of homeness? These things i think about everyday! Oh man! 35 days... I'll be honest.. if cant be here soon enough.. I want to hold my son in my arms soon! July 13 cant be here soon enough. I guessed I am glad for the scheduled C-section because no later than that date he will be here... I am ready to see if my son has blue eyes like me or his father.. we both have blue eyes.. mine shine bright like the sky while his are gray blue... I wonder if he wil have a head full of hair. I so wonder what he will be like.. I am ready for you Talon.. you can make ur prescense known at anytime my sweet child!
