What should have been? Today is when Talon's scheduled C-section was had I made it to full-term status. It saddens me in one way that I didnt make it; however, I still have a very healthy baby whose appetite even surpasses mine! The boy has a head full of hair which is daddy says he got from me no less. He will be a month old on Saturday instead of 3 days old. I should have had him here in McComb and not Jackson like I did! Al this if I had made it full-term. It sucks but I still have a beautiful baby boy out of it all! I even delivered a few days shy of Father's Day giving Gary the best present he could have ever received! How amazing it is that Talon is already here but still saddens me I could not make it to the due date! My precious litlte son!
The little bugger's appetite has increased by alot. I finally decided after Tuesday's feedings that I needed to do something about it. I let him have some rice cereal in his bottle last night. Just a tablespoon and wouldnt you know it! He never once woke up during the next four hours beggining for something else to eat! We had eat 9 oz a in 2 hours, 3 times that day. I knew he wasnt getting full! Not even a month old and already eating cereal. Some of you may not like that but sometimes you do what you have to to satsify your children. I seriously would be feeding him every hour if this was the case. I mean come on 9ozs! WOW!
Not to say he doesnt always get full. But now he does and Im glad I gave him that. He has lifted his head up so well. I believe, even though I have yet to see it myself, that he rolled over... perhaps really by accident. But I dont remember putting him on his stomach one day but when I walked back in... he was on his stomach. Now i know he can roll onto his side. Ive seen that. I put him on his back one evening in the bassinett and when I came back, he had fallen asleep on the side of the body I fall asleep on. I was like you little booger butt! How sweet!
My official due date of July 21 is right around the corner. I knew I would never make it to that but still. It was wishful thinking that I would. Oh well! I have my son and his name is Talon Hunter Powell and he is definetely without a doubt, one of the loves of my life. My son David, husband Gary and Talon are my future, present and past...
We are moving into our new home this weekend. I still have so much to pack but Ive been sleeping most of today. I really need to get busy on it! However, I so badly need my rest. After I feed Talon here shortly, I will get started! I already need to head to the Cable place and get that situated! YIPEE!
I hope everyone is doing very well! Enjoy them babies and to all those who havent had their babies yet (Kari) good luck and lots of prayers! Ill be waiting anxiously with ya!
2006-07-08 (baby has arrived)
Watching my baby How 3 weeks has flown on by.... Talon keeps growing. I noticed he finally fit into his 8lb diapers which tells me he is definetly eating well. Yesterday, he wanted 5.5 oz of food each feeding. Today, its been tedious to get him to eat 3 oz. Course an hour ago, he scarved down 3 oz of breastmilk and then another 1.75 oz of formula. Now after his shower with mommy, he is resting comfortably in the bassinett. I will let him set the pace. If he wants 6 oz at one feeding and 2 at another.. well so be it! I will NOT force this child to eat despite what some have said. As long as he soils his diapers like he does.. I change them practically twice at every feeding~ then there shouldnt be a problem.
Last night, Talon ate that 5.5 oz and then slept for nearly 4.5 hours. When I awoke and saw that, I was like wow! Its light outside. He let me sleep. Course this morning, he was searching for my nipple and I thought WOW! Does he want to try? I tried it and again, I couldnt get him to stay latched on! Oh well...
Gary and I have agreed that so long as Talon is eating some breastmilk, he wont nag me so much about Talon needing the formula. I just CAN NOT keep up with the demands of him. I was grateful to learn I am NOT the only person having the same issue! A few of my friends have told me they had problems too and their children are healthy, so I feel good now! Better about the whole thing!
Talon's birth announcement from the Modern News came in today. I find it very funny that it takes them nearly a week and half to deliver the June 29 issue.. mind you its not the paper's fault but rather the post office's. It took them only 2 days to get me Thursday's issue! Umm.. I know I was waiting on that one... but DAMN! I am hoping Julie can laminate me some birth announcement cards. I think itd look so cute for him! I almost feel bad because I never announced David's. Course back then, I just didnt do things like that! I had planned on it and thought someone had because I mentioned it, but no one ever did! Too late by the time I thought about it again!
Talon has been lifting his head up very well. Yesterday at the drs office he lifted it a good five to 10 seconds... I was very impressed! He has also tried to roll over several times and can do a scoot job very well. In fact, I swear he notices when I am NOT right next to him at night.. because I wake up and find myself in the same spot but he is right next to me.. touching me! Now HOW IN THE WORLD!??? LOL. He is such a cutie! There isnt anything in the world I wouldnt do for him especailly buy a house! LOL
My folks have David for this week which is giving me a bit of a break. I need it to be honest. Even though he was gone for that one week, I was in the hospital not really relaxing! It just wasnt the same! This time, I can relax and concentrate on Talon and packing the house up to move! We move next weekend! YIPPEE!! I hope he behaves himself down there.. little bugger might be spoiled when he gets back.. Oh lord! I just realized school starts for him in 3 weeks.. ugh! Still need to get things for him too.
My last dr visit, which was Friday, went good. When I had Talon my last visit, I weighed 262.. mind you most of that was beginning to get water retention too. Yesterday, I weighed 227... prepregnancy weight and then some! I am so happy! I plan on losing more weight! I want to lose 80 pounds and be back down to the weight I was before I had my first kid. Now with my husband's help and his love and support, I know I can. If my mother would stop criticizing me, I will have no issues! My stepmom is always criticizing me.. whether its my weight, boobs.. or even my HOUSE even though I am moving! I mean come on! Keep gripping why dont ya. We all know this house is horrible which is WHY WE ARE LEAVING IT!
Poor guy behind us.. he rented it and his is worse than mine! He's actually leaks and the landlord has yet to fix it. Heck, he said when he moved in, she hadnt even painted it. We told him that we had paint chips all over our place and the carpet had never been changed in the 20 years I have found out. He was like.. what have I got myself into? He inadverntely told us that the landlord said we were getting out of our contract 3 months early but NOT getting our deposit back. Gary and I agreed then.. screw it! We aint cleaning this place spic and span! Screw her! Besides, technically... if you want to get technical.. it states in our contract only ONE child can live in this place ANY ADDITIONAL persons is $50 a month.. yeah! I am NOT paying $465 a month for a two bedroom piece of junk that I can smell somebody smoking from the next house in.. nope.. not I! This move wont be soon enough.
Hence the reason we bought the house for Talon. We couldnt have done this any better if we had tried! Now our place is 3bed/2bath and I am so looking forward to having a seperate dining room area! I can even have a washer and dryer. It will be so worth coming home too from a job when I finally decide to get another job and work!
Yeah.. Im not suffering depression anymore.. or just the baby blues. My life is working out finally.. despite my not having a job. I am not going to worry about how we are going to pay the bills from month to month.. Im gonna leave that up to God to deal with! Let him deal because I have enough on my plate and I want to see my son grow up and enjoy what time I have with him!
He looks so peaceful sleeping.. especially since he is showered and smelling like a baby. The boy can poop even when he sneezes and coughs.. every little bowel movement.. every diaper change.. every little thing the man does.. I dont care if its gross to ya'll or not.. everything he does.. its an amazement to me! I am so pleased to have him in my life. I want to enjoy everything he does.. whether its the dirty and mind you very messy diapers to the gassy smiles he gives from time to time.! I love all of them.
I wish I could share this with my biological mother but since I havent talked with her in over 5 years.. Im afraid to call her!
Will I ever be able to tell her she has another grandson? Will she ever know before I decide to place it in her local newspaper!???
2006-07-03 (baby has arrived)
guestbook entries.. Since I cant seem to make guestbook entries... I want to tell everyone who has written in mine or has had their child or children already.. thanks and congrats. Charmaine... your new one is gorgeous. Kinda makes me wish I could have a girl now. :) She is so beautiful.
Nicki.. thanks for the advice you have given. Our boys are so cute.. Its very hard to believe they are already 2 weeks old. Jordan, like Talon, is doing well and for that I am glad too. Despite their births and being on the CPAP.... both came out of it with flying colors. We are very lucky women... :)
Michelle... Jonathan is so cute.. I love looking at his baby pic in your album. Big wide eyes trying to look at the world.
NO doubt our children had other plans on being born BEFORE their dute dates.. although I wish I could have made mine for once.
Kari, Samantha, Alicia... I hope your births go smoothly. Its so nice reading about ya'lls day to day ordeals on pregnancy still. Sometimes reading it makes me sad only because I didnt get to experience the ending as I wish I had. Oh well! Talon is here and well thats all that matters to me now. I cant wait to see the pics of your new little ones!
This pregnancy journal... no doubt.. has been very helpful to me during mine. I learned a few new things and relearned some old ones. All you women on here are absolutely beautiful in each and every way! Our children only make it more special. I am glad I got to keep something like this for Talon... It started out more for me than for him. But now, I Im gonna be able to let him look back on it when he is older. I plan on printing this out for him in the near future..
Now.. since he has been born.... I decided to create his own little website. He is so darling that I couldnt resist continuing the journaling. This time it was chroniclize his baby years and perhaps longer if I can. Talon... mommy loves you so much! Your father and I created you from love and despite you needing to come so early and despite all the problems mommy endured... and saying she NEVER wanted another child after your big brother... I love you more than life itself... I cherish my sons more than my own life. There is NOTHING I wont do for you and for David.. all you need to do is ask! I love you Talon and David!
http://www.babysites.com/sites/talonhunter/
I wish I could just link this very easily but for some reason it wont let me.. so if you want to take a gander at it.. copy and paste it into the url link and check it out. From here on out.. more than likely... I will update at Talon's site.. But I will check back on all you women often. Its sad that it should end here. I have enjoyed reading all of your journals very much!
Take care all!
2006-07-02 (baby has arrived)
Need a break from it all! UGH! My husband is such a jerk at times. Yesterday, I had a small crying fit about not being able to hear Talon's first vcry as he was being born. I didnt get to hear it because I was knocked out. It finally hit me that I missed that and it sent me crying. What was my husband's reaction. Well, atleast you get to breastfeed! Obviously that is his answer to everything when I am having a meltdown. Look, sorry God didnt give you milking boobies but I missed out on something so precious because I was so sick! So screw you for being such an airhead about something you have no control over.... Besides, Talon doesnt want my boobs either just the bottle.. so I have to pump! So we are about even!
Today, he is getting the brakes on the car fixed! I told him last night I needed him home as soon as he and his friend were done fixing them. However, he in turns forgets this and proceeds to make plans to go to the movies to pay our friend back for his help. Two things.. one I need him home so I can get a break from both the boys! My oldest is still insisting he wants to help me out at the grocery store.. I have GOT to have some time for myself; two.... we dont have the money to just GO TO THE MOVIES! I have yet to pay the cell phone bill. I havent even paid rent yet not because I dont want to just havent had hte time to sit down and write out the check! Its usually up to me to remember to pay the bills or get food in the house... remember to change the baby's diaper or spend time with David.
Gary has got an odd way of showing he loves me.. but if he decided to use the credit card as a way to go to the movies.. he is gonna be yelled at! He got mad at me for using it when I got groceries! I calculated if I used the debit card we'd be in the hole.. he is still drinking from time to time even after he PROMISED to stop! Plus he is still dipping! UGH! I JUST NEED TO GET A BREAK FROM EVERYTHING.. if only for 10 mins.. I just need to be myself for a short time.. even a trip to the grocery store by myself will be nice. I just need to get away! Gary can get away. He has friends he can go out with... me I have one friend and she is hardly home as it is.. plus her daughter should be coming back today so I will see her less and less...
I hate this city.. the cell phones hardly work here and we need a landline very badly. I am SO TIRED of all this stuff. The water smells like cholorine every time I turn around. Plus I thought the drs orders were I cant pick anything up heavier than than the baby right now.. why is it.. I have to lug boxes right now? SOMEONE HELP ME! HELP ME!
Postpartum has really hit me hard this time! I just want to sleep all the time!
