Pregnancy Journal

So, there is only one thing left to do.  Everyone is right. It's time to move on. I am not and will not be pregnant anymore.

I have confirmed (Sam, Michelle) with some darling at Babycrowd who responded to me QUICKLY that this journal will not ever be deleted, and that they are working on  a  way to make it possible to print them (journals) or make them into books, ect. So this will remain here, but I'm moving to

http://nickiworld.blogspot.com/

So please- come visit me there!  Same Nicki Numbskull, different blog spot!

SMOOCHES!!!!!!!!!!!

Lord, I have GOT to make a point of blogging more often, otherwise my head gets all cluttered up and I start TALKING alot. HAHAHAH!!!!

I hope everyone had a great holiday. It really was wonderful. Cullen, Jordan and i took our little vacation for the weekend, which was a gift from his parents. It was really nice to get away. The resort we were at is all about families, Cullen is itching BIG TIME to bring the kids up there. That would be totally fun. It was so nice to have Cullen and Jordan to myself though.  Cullen, of course, had to tell everyone that came to eat Jordan up that he's the BABY of the family, haha. He can't go w/o mentioning the other 3. It is so cute. I knew he'd be a great father, but to see him so proud is just so fricken CUTE!!!!!!!

Have you watched the Saddam hanging? I wish I hadn't. I think about it way too much.  I don't know what's so fascinating about it. It made me cry even though he was a horrible dictator. I supose it's good that i'm not so used to seeing anything like that that I wasn't affected, but wow.  It's brain overload. I don't know how people just watch it and then carry on like nothing. But I get wrecked for days over everything. Everytime I hear about or think about things like the holocaust, I'm out for days over it. I just hurt so bad for all the people who were hurt.

Have I mentioned before about The Soundtrack Of My Life and how I live by this? It's so stupid, but it just never fails me. Whenever I'm SOMEWHERE- ANYWHERE...it seems that there's a sountrack to my life playing and it lets me know that I am where I should be. See, I like all these really old, bizarre songs that i'm sure no one else even remembers or cares about. These places really have no good reason to be playing these songs, and yet they come on, and i know that I am where i should be, it's okay that i'm there. I'm talkiing like at Walgreens or ANYWHERE. It's been this way as long as i can remember. Just thought I'd mention it. It still happens. It is very reassuring for some reason. I feel better when it happens.  But again, I really am a nutcase. I'm also convinced that i psychically own at least one radio station around here because I can think of a song, some totally random song- and i mean RANDOM- like FRANK MILLS MUSIC BOX DANCER (my all time favorite song. Yeah, you heard me right. MY FAVORITE. It must remind me of a past life or something) and IT WILL BE ON THE RADIO. Now tell me why the hell would anyone on the radio play that song EVER? Isn't that crazy? But that's the story of my life. And I like it. : )

On the same note, does this happen to anyone? Go somewhere and get "in line" (in the beginning, there really isn't a "line"), and then within minutes there is a LONG line behind you, where no one was just before that?  At first I thought it was just me, but i watch it happen with Cullen all the time too. I can be in the van, watch him go in to get us coffees or whatever, and no one is in there. minutes later, there can be 7 people in line. It happens to me at the grocery store ALL THE TIME. I supose it's a  stupid thing to notice in the first place, but hey...at least I have time to notice stuff outside of me being dressed and the kids being dressed. Don't tell Cullen that though. I've spent a good amount of time convincing him that if I remember anything at all above and beyond that, he's witnessed a miracle. HAHAHAHH!

Jordan cut his 3rd tooth today!! WHOOO HOOO!! It makes the up every 2 hours to nurse for 5 minutes worth it when I see that it's just a tooth and that I'm not going to have to bootcamp my precious baby. I haven't had to bootcamp an easy, happy baby before and I feel afraid that i would break him. Even funnier is that Cullen had the same fear! HAHAHAH THAT cracked me up. Mr. TOUGH! Mr. Tough doesn't want to break his happy baby!  I LOVE IT! It is so silly anyways.  In a way. It IS a lot easier to bootcamp a kid who's crying anyways. : )

Joshy's newest little thing is so funny!  His eyelashes are literally close to an inch long and they bother his eyes sometimes.  WHen his eyes water, he says "mom! my eye is melting again!" HAHAHAHAH!! Isn't that the cutest thing in the world?

Okay, dad's here and i need to get cleaning. I just can't stop throwing stuff away. I de- Christmased the house and I'm BUTTER, baby! (cause i'm on a roll! ) Take that one to the bank! : P