Had a bad day again.... Ok, so it started off that I didn't sleep well last night, which led to being tired all day. Then I went to a Yoga class which was great, but made me more tired. Homer tried to call me multiple times this morning, but my phone just decided it wasn't gonna have service, so I missed his call, which upset me. Then I was too hungry to sleep and decided I would take the dogs with me since it would be a short trip. Well my mom's dog doesn't travel well and threw up in my seat as I was getting back into the car. As I'm looking for napkins (which I didn't find) he gets in the passenger seat and throws up again... on my jacket! So I'm forced to use my scarf to clean up the mess, but only enough to where you can't see it on my pants (gross, I know). So then, I finally get back home and as I'm going downstairs to actually clean the car, the cat runs in. So now I'm chasing the stubborn cat around the house to try to get her outside. After getting her out, I decide to call South Alabama to see when they're gonna make a decision about interviews. Well after searching for my file, the lady in admissions said that the last letters went out today, but unfortunately mine wasn't in them. So on top of everything else, I find out I'm not gonna be able to stay in Alabama and we will be moving to kansas City, Missouri. It's nice the we know where we will be come August and can start trying to find a place and everything, but it's still disappointing. So, tomorrow when Homer calls, I get to tell him the bad news. But being the loving husband he is, I know he will be fine with where ever we end up as long as we're together. So my mom and I may have to make a trip up there to look at housing since I can't travel in a month, and it may be too late if we wait until after Kaylee Beth's born. Sigh. It's just so overwhelming!! Hopefully tomorrow will be a better day...
2008-03-04 (26 weeks)
Miserable and Amazing
Today I wasn't feeling exactly right. After I got home from the gym and ate lunch, I got really tired and my eyes were hurting. So I took a hour nap. Then it was almost time for dinner. I was pretty hungry, but when I sat down to eat, I just couldn't eat much. It felt like I was already stuffed so I was thinking that maybe Kaylee Beth had stretched out her legs and was squishing my stomach. I ate as much as I could stand--some salad, corn, and a little hamburger helper. All I wanted to do was to take a bath and shave my legs. I learned this was not a good idea when you're already miserable and huge! I thought I was going to get stuck in the bath tub and I'd have to scream for someone to come help me stand up! But luckily, I was able to sit up. Shaving was yet another difficult task with a swollen stomach! It was so hard to bend forward to reach my calves! I'm afraid in a few weeks I'm gonna have to put on my swim suit and hope I can convience someone to shave my legs for me (Boy, I wish Homer were here to help with hard tasks like this!!) At least it wouldn't be as awkward as trying to talk my friend or mom into it... But hopefully It won't come to this!! I finally started feeling better, and was able to drink some milk before getting ready for bed.
I've been getting tired a lot earlier these days-possibly since i don't sleep as well during the night. So I hopped into bed to go to sleep. After a minute of lying there, Kaylee Beth started kicking hard. It was so great to lie there and feel her move around. I just held my hand on my tummy and felt her little punches and kicks. It was just so amazing that I started tearing up. It's just so moving to feel this real live person inside me moving around. I just imagined getting to hold her and look at her. It all of a sudden felt so connected to her. Homer and I started talking about what we're gonna do next year when he's back and I'm in school. And I just started worrying that we won't be able to give her everything she needs. I mean, I know we're going to take care of her and make sure she's provided for, it's just kinda scary knowing that this little person depends solely on the two of us.... I always wish I could call Homer when I feel like this, but I've learned to calm myself down and wait til he calls. But luckily, he called within a few minutes as a last time before he leaves. It was great to get to talk to him during this time!! I got a little more emotional talking to him, but in a good way. My best friend, Brittany, had gotten a 3D ultrasound done a couple of weeks ago. Insurance doesn't pay for this since isn't not medically necessary (it's about $125). But many couples choose to have it done b/c you can see the baby's face so clearly. She had posted some of the pictures on Facebook, and Homer looked at them. He said although some of them were kinda creapy that it was really neat how you could see her facial features and that we could do it. I got teary b/c I know he really wants to get to see her. He's never been one to pay for "bells and wistles" as he calls it, and for him to agree to $125 for this means he's excited about seeing his baby girl!!
2008-03-03 (25 weeks)
New Photos
I updated my pictures today. My belly is definately getting bigger! I've noticed that you can tell by looking at the shape of my belly if I'm hungry or not... weird huh?? In the picture the bump is low and above it is a lot smaller. Well, this was me before lunch (hungry). After I finish eating, the part above the bump sticks out even with the baby bump and my whole abdomen becomes flat. I pointed it out to my mom yesterday and last night, she looked at it and said, "I see the baby's hungry. Time to go to dinner!" And she was right... I was starving. By the way, we ate at the Cajun Steamer last night--my first time there since they built one in Trussville a couple of months ago. I ordered water, trying not to drink caffiene. But as soon as she brought it out, I decided I wanted Sweet tea--so I ordered that too. And my dad had pointed out that they had fried pickles (also sounding good at the time--I'm starving, remember). So she comes back, asks if we're ready, everyone says they need more time and I'm flagging her down. I tell her, actually I want a sweet tea-she starts to walk off. So, I quickly add, and I'm gonna need an order of fried pickles! My family started laughing at me... My mom's the only one that understands that when a pregnant woman needs to eat, she needs to eat... Now!
Well, Homer is going into the Iraqi field for another 3 weeks. I got to talk to him about a hour ago, but I'm not sure how long it'll be before I can talk with him again. So keep him in your prayers. I'm also still waiting to hear back from South Alabama about an interview. It hasn't even been a week since my score came out, so I know it's still early, but I'm not very patient. Amy mailed out the shower invitations--very cute I might add, which means it's getting closer. I can't wait!!
Oh, I also posted some pictures of the smocked dress I made. I had finished smocking it a couple of weeks ago and last monday I went to a sewing class to learn how to sew the bishop dress together. I think it turned out very nice! So now I've started smocking her coming home dress (I couldn't find anything else I liked, so I'm going to make it!). It took me a long time to decide on a smocking pattern, but I picked one last night and started smocking away. I hope it turns out cute!
2008-02-28 (25 weeks)
Fat arms and Cankles That's right, I went dress shopping! I've been planning on going to Motherhood Maternity for the past couple of days and finally made it out there yesterday. I have a lot of bridal and baby showers and weddings to go to in the next 2-3 months, and I needed to get some dresses to wear to them. So off I went, excited about getting new clothes, not thinking about the fact that I had been on my feet all day. Yesterday morning, I walked about 2 miles at the gym, stood in the shower, walked around Babies R Us for about 2 hours, then went straight to the mall to shop. My feet were hurting, but I just thought it was my shoes. I should have known that after being on my feet for so long, blood was beginning to pool in my legs and feet. Well, after eating the pizza I've been craving in the food court, we headed to Motherhood Maternity. They had gotten in a lot of spring dresses, and my mom and I started grabbing some to try on. Making a couple of trips to the dressing room, I had all of the dresses in the store minus 2 or 3--you never know how they are going to look on! Previously this week, I had already been noticing how wide my upper arms were getting and wasn't sure how I was going to like exposing them in dresses. So when I was looking in the mirror, I was trying to avoid looking at my arms, and trying to find some with some form of a sleeve. By about the 5th or 6th dress, I looked at the bottom of the mirror... BIG MISTAKE!! I have never felt so obese in my entire life!! Not only did I have fat arms, but I also had some huge cankles! It was so upsetting to see! I finally starting trying to avoid looking at my feet in the dresses so at least I could make it through trying on the rest of the dresses. I'm not sure what kind of shoes I'm gonna wear with the dresses, so I have to think about that another day. I'm really not sure what kind I will even be able to shove those huge boats in! So they may be some maw-maw shoes (But I seriously hope not!). I actually bought 4 dresses despite the upset and I'm excited about getting to wear them. But I decided that anytime my legs and/or feet are going to be exposed, I'm sitting down with my legs propped up until it is time to walk out of the door! I don't want to show those ugly cankles off to anyone!!