Still here - large and in charge!  This week has been extremely hard for me, not only emotionally, but physcially as well.  I have so many mixed feelings.  I have the sadness of loosing my stepdad, the heartache for my Mother, the happiness of knowing our Meghan will be here soon, and frustration that her coming is not in my time. My due date is tomorrow so technically Baby Meghan has a day (and then some) to do her thing.  I have an appoinment on Friday, but I have a feeling they are going to tell me,  "well everything looks good see you in a week!"  In which case, I'll have to be depressed. 

Honestly, I think the worse part is getting up every morning to go to work.  My commute is 30 minutes each way and with a big ole' belly, traffic, and the heat, it seems like an hour.  It's rather humerous, my seat can't recline anymore or else I won't be able to reach the steering wheel.  I can't sit up straight either because then the baby is squished and I get some serious "I'm getting squished mom" kicks.  Although my work if very sedentary, getting up and down from my chair and walking around hurts.  My feet don't take the day to get swollen - I wake up with them swollen. 

This week has been the hardest yet and I think most of it is due to such great anticipation.  I am so excited to hold this new little life in my arms, but wake up every day with my arms empty and my belly full.  I've gotten to the point where my excitement and anticipation have clouded over my nervousness about labor and delivery.  I just keep repeating the words of Thomas the Train..."I think I can, I think I can, I think I can"

P.S. Added a 40 week belly photo - if she stays in there another week, I have no idea where she's gonna fit!

This will be a quick note, just to let everyone know I'm still here and pregnant.  My Stepfather passed away Saturday and not being able to travel to be there for my mom has been SO hard for me to accept, let alone the death of a loved one.  Of course, at 39 weeks and 3 days, doc said that traveling was not safe.  Sometimes I have a hard time understanding God's timing, but I have to trust that everything is happening for a reason.  Lots of prayer. 

Doctor said on Friday that my cervix was pretty thinned out and that he could feel the baby's head right there.  However, I was still only 1 cm dilated.  Looks like I'll be going my full 40 weeks if not longer.  Just tonight I believe I started loosing my mucous plug, so it's just a matter of time.    

We love you Grandpa Bob and will always remember you.  

Well, my delivery prediction was thrown right out the window! hehe.  I predicted I'd have the baby August 1st.  No such luck!  Still here, still preggo!  My prediction on baby weight and length are still in the running though!  I'll have to post some more predictions other's have come up with tomorrow.  How fun!

39 weeks tomorrow.  I go in for my weekly check up Friday morning and I will do my best to update afterwards.  I'm almost there!  Only a little bit longer before I meet our Meghan.  I am going to miss her little kicks inside of me - no need to convince me that it's the most precious miracle in this whole world!  Knowing I've been able to grow another human being inside of me is the most awesome gift God could give. 

On another note - I hate, HATE not knowing when labor is going to start.  I'm a planner - I have this obsessive need to plan, plan, plan.  How frustrating!  I think it's more a fear of the unknown.  Where will I be?  How will it feel? Will I remember the labor techniques I learned?  Yada yada yada.  As hard as it is to relinquish my worries - this is where I have to put my trust and faith in God. 

Okay so what gives?  I've gone #2 and passed gas more in the past two days then I have the past 2 months!  Of course, the toilet paper at work isn't top quality.  I'm gonna need baby wipes soon if this keeps up!  Did you hear that precious Meghan?  Mom's gonna end up using all your butt wipes before you get here!  Which means you should prolly think about coming in the next week or two.

Still here, still pregnant.  Had lots of cramping this morning for a couple of hours, then nothing.  I've had some contractions here and there throughout the day too.  I'm telling you I sure hope all this is doing SOMETHING down there - I'm almost 39 weeks for cryin' out loud!  Even the little elephant on the counter is almost on the 40 week mark!  I feel like I'm gonna be pregnant F-O-R-E-V-E-R. 

I feel like a child that's been on a looong road trip asking "are we there yet?"  It's like my dear husband said "the last 100 miles of the road trip seem like the longest" - these last few days (weeks??) seem like an eternity.