LOVE is... my husband KRIS. Ever since I got pregnant, he's been nothing but a sweetheart to me. He was before, but never had I imagined like this. Unexpectedly, he'd do things that always touches me. Every morning and night, he'd kiss me and then my belly to say good morning and goodnite to our baby. He can't wait to see his "junior". There was this one moment I'll never forget, it was when I had back aches along with some indigestion this one night. I was not comfortable sitting on my couch nor standing. So, I decided on standing since it felt a little more better than sitting. He looked at me feeling really bad having to stand while he sits comfortably on our couch. He asks me if I'd like a back rub or even better, he asks if I'd like for him to stand with me. He really touched me when he offered that. It was so sweet of him to offer on giving up his couch to stand next to me. I told him it was ok, he doesn't have to do that. This is why I married the man. He loves me more than words can say. I hope I won't forget that when I'm screaming and cursing during labor : P hehe
2007-12-30 (15 weeks)
How my mom almost lost Cindy and I I think I should share this story here and now before I forget. Baby needs to hear all this too. During this holiday, I got to spend a lot of time with just my mom and I since Cindy was in Virginia. After listening to this famous classic asian female singer name, "Teresa Teng", it brought back much memories of my childhood and began asking my mom lots of questions about my birth and what not.
My mom told me that when she was pregnant with Cindy and I, only she knew she was having twins. She went to 3 doctors and all of them said she was having one. Back then, there was no ultrasound to detect such a thing, but she just knew. She said when she would lie down, her stomach would lay kinda flat rather than it still sitting above like the others did. She said she wasn't as worried when she was pregant because she thought maybe she's just imagining something that wasn't true. But, the minute we came out, she had as what we would call now, "anxiety attacks".
Cindy and I came out at 4pds each. Her doctor told her that she needs to take a great care of us or else one of us won't make it. Being chinese born in vietnam and with the war happening, food and everything was scarce. She didn't know how she would be able to supply enough food for us. She told me that she almost died worrying for us. Her milk alone would only be able to feed one at a time. There were formulas, but you can only get it if you had a special request from a high authority. Luckily she was able to get a request from someone. The only problem was, the government only sent her about 5 cans a week. Still, that was not enough. So, she had to boil some rice with water to get it's nutrient to mix with the formula. It still wasn't enough, but that was the only way Cindy and I would have enough to survive. Everyone told her to give up one of us, but my father and mother knew they had to keep us together. I'm thankful everyday that they did because Cindy and I are inseparable...for now. That's if she doesn't move to Virginia or else I'll be very depressed. But, I guess that's life. I need to stop being selftish and let her go where life takes her. That's another story itself : ). Bottom line is, we only have about 3 pictures of us when we were babies and toddler, while our siblings have albums of pictures. The war was to blame. Nevertheless, I'm so thankful for what our parents went through for us and that we're at least here together with our family. We came with nothing and had nothing as childhood. That's how I became an artist. All I had was the basic pencil, paper and coloring book as a kid, no toys. So, I'd draw all the time and ace at coloring my barbies : ) Without those basic things, I wouldn't be the artist that I am today. Bottom line, fancy materialistic things means nothing when family is all you really need to get you going in life.
2007-12-28 (15 weeks)
The Little Discomforts Although I have nothing drastic to complain about being pregnant so far, there are little discomforts that are just enough to write down for this baby to hear about : ) This is how my day goes, I wake up feeling absolutely great because I've had a great nights sleep. I normally crash by 8, sometimes 9 and mostly by 10pm. I then wake up everyday, even weekends at about 7am. On weekdays, it's my time to get ready for work, on weekends, I would get up, eat and then take a walk outside. Once I go through the day of just little snacks, lunch and dinner, by sun down, my back begins to ache and my indigestion begins. So, although I don't think I'm eating too much because I have no cravings to over eat, I hope baby's getting enough nutrients. I oftenly make a fruit shake 2 a week and drink artichoke drinks. The best way for me to feel better is to sleep. I don't fight it like I use to anymore. When baby tells me that it's tired, I'm out : )
Christmas just passed and I wouldn't have considered it to be baby's first because we didn't celebrate because of my grandmother's passing. I got to see a lot of friends though, which is always nice. it's funny how most of them think I've got quite a belly for 4 months, but my family, his family and my co-workers this opposite. I guess it's because I haven't seen my friend for a while and I wore this shirt that showed too much? hehehe...however the case, my doc told me that everyone's belly will grow in different sizes and what's more important is that the baby is healthy. For once in my life, I accept my belly growing and cherish it. Just knowing that baby's in there, makes it a great feeling. Love ya kid...
2007-12-18 (13 weeks)
my FIRST PAINTING SOLD!!! What a dream come true...when I was pregnant the first week and not knowing it, I was painting on the side. I had a great opportunity to paint for the "A Different Day Gallery" in San Francisco. All I remember was having crazy allergies when painting, I'm not sure if it had to do with me being pregnant at the time, but it was really bad. Once completed, it was sent away and out of my hands. I attended the grand opening, but was very disappointed that my painting didn't sell that day. Even knowing that, I held strong and just thank god for even allowing me to experience being in a gallery. I'm told that it takes time for these things to get sold. It's now 3 months since and I just got the wonderful news...IT'S SOLD!!! I'd LOVE to meet the person who bought my painting. I just want to hug her!!! All I know is her name is Amanda and she owns a vineyard in the bay area.
It has always been my dream to paint for others and be recognized. This maybe just a small step towards what I've really wanted, but it's a start. I will return to my paintings once the little one's a little older. It's doctors order right now to stay away because they can harmful to inhale and touch. So, i'll be in a hiatus for now, but I will return!!! Just wait and see : )
