Starting feeling queasy this past week.  Still haven't gotten sick, but felt like I was pretty close to it pretty much every day until yesterday.  The thought of certain foods makes me gag, while some foods seem to whisper to me, "you must eat me or you might die".  Earlier in the week when i came home for lunch, I was so excited all the way home to have the leftover spaghetti waiting for me in the fridge, that tears welled up in my eyes when i saw it was gone.  I'm not kidding.  You would have thought that my cat died from the look of heartbreak on my face.  Thankfully i was able to talk myself into having a can of chili instead.

I think Vinnie (my cat) knows something's up.  He's been laying on my tummy all the time and he's also been causing trouble around the house.  Two times he's knocked over a decorative bowl we have that's filled with sand, coral and shells that we brought back from Tulum Mexico.  We've had that thing for a year and he's never touched it until now!  Little fine pieces of sand and rock are not the easiest things to get out of the carpet.  Yesterday he knocked a plant off a window sill which sent dirt all over the carpet.  Maybe he's preparing us for parenthood, i don't know.

Joe's of course continuing to cheer me on, asking me how i'm feeling.  He's always telling me to eat, i try and tell him that i don't need any extra calories yet, but i think he's convinced that the baby will starve if i don't eat more than i did before.  I already feel more bloated than i have in my entire life.  He said he had a dream last night that he was playing with the baby and making him/her laugh.  and that the baby was  REALLY cute.  well...of course!!

I got to buy my first piece of clothing for our kid a few days ago. It's a little green pajama outfit with animals on it.  And it says "i love mommy"  ahhh.....

Five more weeks until we can share the news. 

When I get home at night, I just want to sleep.  I yawn all day long.  Almost everyone at work irritates the heck out of me.  I'm moody as can be.  But I haven't thrown up once, praise the Lord!!!  I hear that morning sickness can start acting up in the second month, but I'm still hoping I'll get away without it.

We saw the doctor on Monday. Joe met me there, which was fun.  I went in first and they checked my weight, blood pressure, all that.  The nurse said that I could take a pregnancy test if I wanted to, that it was optional.  Since i was feeling so great, i wanted to take one just to convince myself again that i really was pregnant.  I peed in the cup for the lady and after a few minutes she popped her head in and said "Most definitely positive".  I smiled and said "thank you", while relief filled up my insides.  I was afraid that i would get to the doctor's office and they would tell me that somehow i wasn't pregnant anymore.

Joe waited outside while Dr. Klotz did the exam, I didn't have to ask him to know that he wasn't ready to see me in the stirrups.  Dr. Klotz then went out to get Joe, and first thing told him, "Contragulations".  I think that moment was when it became reality for Joe.  We got to spend some time getting our questions answered and familiarizing ourselves with our doctor, who i already really like.

I'm so happy that Dr. Klotz said we could definitely get pictures of the baby right before Thanksgiving, which we will be giving to the grandparents as part of their surprise.  I will be 12 weeks at that point.

Joe's been great so far.  He already says hi and goodbye to the baby, and always asks how we're "both" doing.  When i start tearing up for some minor reason or get overwhelmed in a moments notice, he doesn't get impatient with me, just tries to love me more.  This past weekend when we were working on figuring out where to put up the Halloween lights, i was getting SO frustrated with the way he goes back and forth when trying to decide something that is supposed to be so simple and fun to do, that i just had to take a break before i lost it.  He smiled and asked, "Honey, are you hormonal?"  I said, "Is hormonal when everything you do and all your personality traits irritate the hell out of me?"  He said yes and we both got a good laugh from that. 

I should really get to bed.  It's 9:00 right now and lately to me that feels like about midnight.

We did it!! Pregnant on the third month of trying to conceive.  Thank you God for planting this little bitty soul inside of me.   What a gift. what a responsibility!  I am so happy about this next step in our lives.  Everything in our life seems to be coming along so wonderfully, God's timing is so perfect for us.  First our marriage, then the house, then the business, now the BABY!  Technically I am four weeks pregnant if you count from the first day of my last menstrual period, which means Joe and I have eight more weeks that we have to keep this a secret.  We just found out last night and this morning we realized just how difficult it is going to be to not tell anyone.  We are waiting til Thanksgiving to tell family and friends.  I hope they are excited for us.  I need to make a doctor's appointment.

Right now I feel kinda yucky, pretty much like that annoying drained feeling you have when you know you're getting sick.  But I gotta say, even though I've only known for a day, I love being pregnant!