I've been putting off writing about this for a few days now because i'm really sad about my decision. I think my cat needs a new home. Ever since the baby's been here, he's been flat out neglected, there's just no nice way of putting it. He's done nothing wrong, it's not his fault. I just don't have the time to pay attention to him. And we don't have any other cats to keep him company. It would be one thing if joe loved him and could pay extra attention to him, but i've had vinnie long before joe and i ever got together and they've never really become best friends since then. I haven't even told joe that i have decided this because i'm afraid that his excitement over the fact will hurt my feelings. I've had him for six years this month. Vinnie's his name, actually it's Vincent Alexander. I think i named him that because Vincent stands for warrior or strong or something like that and Alexander means protector of mankind. I really love this cat, he's gotten me through some really lonely times. He's been my buddy when i've felt like no one else loved me. Anyone who has a pet knows that they can sometimes be more comforting than another human being at times. He used to climb under the covers down to my waist then turn around and just plop down so we were laying spoon style. He would do that on the couch too, anywhere i was laying down.
Anyway, i can't keep talking about the past, i need to find a home for him. It would be nice if he could be someplace where he could go outdoors. He used to be an indoor/outdoor cat, but where we live there is absolutely no place for a cat to roam around safely or even find a place to discreetly use the bathroom. It's practically all pavement. So we've had his litter box here for over a year, and since our entire downstairs is joe's shop, we have no other place for it other than the half bathroom next to our kitchen. Not very sanitary to say the least. I don't want to have to constantly pull joey out of the "sandbox" once he's old enough to want to play in stuff. Vinnie was just so much happier when he's lived at places where he can go outdoors. And when he does, he doesn't need a litter box at all. He does all his business outside. He's a bit of a wild child. He's calmed down since he's aged but he loves to race back and forth repeatedly and burn up the carpet.
I want him to be happy and be in a home where he gets the love and attention he deserves. I think i can see his personality changing and that makes me very sad. I know he's just a cat but when you've spent six years with anything, you know when something's different about that thing. Vinnie does good with other animals, he's pretty laid back. He knows not to bite people. He was really wild as a kitten so i had to smack him plenty of times when he got too rough playing. If he does accidentally now, you can see in his face that he knows he did wrong and is waiting to be punished. I wouldn't want him in a home with small children just because he's not used to them and i think they would freak him out. He's very smart and once he connects with you, he is so loyal and will want to be in the room with you hanging out while you're doing whatever.
So for the people i know who read this, let me know if you know of anyone looking to be a foster parent of a very big-hearted cat who deserves more than i can give him right now. Yes, i say foster parent because i would really love to have him back when we are able to move into a house in a neighborhood with a backyard and room for him to roam. I just have to not worry about that now and hope it works out in the future.
2006-08-08 (baby has arrived)
Ughhh.
Started my period for the first time in almost a year.
Sucks. Why so soon?
2006-08-07 (baby has arrived)
The Glider Works!
Whoo hoo! Usually when joey's getting cranky and we know he needs to take a nap, the quickest and easiest way to get him to sleep is to hold him and bounce up and down on our exercise ball in the living room. Only problem is, it's a back killer. My mom got us yet another gift last week- a glider. It's original intention was to give me a comfortable place to breastfeed, which it is good for. When we first got it put together, i said to joe, "man would it be great if the chair worked in the same way as the ball does in putting joey to sleep". but it wasn't happening, joey didn't seem to keen on the whole gliding motion.
BUT THEN last night joey was full out crying his head off, definitely needing to get some shut eye but fighting it all the way, and i was just too dang tired to bounce on the ball. so i sat on the chair holding him tight and started gliding at a pretty aggressive pace, doing it softly just didn't faze him at all. and after a just a minute his crying stopped and before long he was far away in dreamland, while i sat relaxed and comfy.
It may seem small to an outsider, but this is a wonderful thing to me.