overrall this week my week at work has been average..

i have some major decisions to make soon regarding my job...

i wish i had someone to talk to about how i really feel about it..

ok so things weren't so bad at work today -

actually 110% than I expected -

the change of shift definitely helps - plus...i dunno, it just wasn't as bad as i cracked my this day(my monday for the week) up to be yesterday.....

ok ok ok.....so i can deal with it ..and i won't quit......

besides...after looking for jobs for an hour or so today..i realized...duh,,,there ain't TOO many jobs paying what i make....+ the bomb beni's.....+,with a uniform,ya don't have to worry about what ya gonna wear to work....... - those 3 things are very important to me!

.......moving onto jj news.....

he kicked alot tonight......probably because of the high pressure alert i was under at times today......either that or just because he has nothing else better to do......

i had a dream about him last night......he was so cute.....very fair skinned.....and we were counting together "1.........2,.............3...................4............" all the way til' 10!

oh, i can't wait to see him!

i absolutely hate my job - and dread leaving here in the next 20 min.

about 1 more bad day is all i can take until i completely lose it.

i shouldve thought about all this before i stopped generating business with my home biz

i am tempted just to go back to it full time...there's no way i'm gonna be able to leave lil j all day

i don't know what im gonna do-

i hate living here too..just today,again,had to shoo someone away....

this is probably the darkest point i've ever had in my life, to be so unhappy with so many things

dear baby j,

dad's sick and we went to the doc tonight and he has pnemonia...

our christmas was very good...and your grandma gave you your first gift....

dad's off for a week and unfortunealy i gotta go back to work manana......

~peace lil' one