i feel like a dumb ass today...

met with my LT to tell him the news..and he was like.."okk??"

so i felt like a stupid clusterfuck sitting there nervous as hell thinking damn, i should've just not said anything at all......-=--

first time in a long time i didn't feel like i had a good grasp on things......

hopefully i'll get over it soon......

14 weeks today!

I told my job on Friday,,,and they took it all in stride......thank goodness......

I have been in the bed now, for TWO DAYS.......lol

Hella tired, this pregnancy stuff is no joke

I woke up last night between 12-3am, and couldn't go back to sleep--I swear I'm feeling movement already..which wouldn't be impossible, nevertheless, my sleeping is totally outta wack......

J and I finally do have a plan.........wed plan that is........so we're all cool on the wed planning front.......

Tomorrow marks my first day out on the floor doing phone...that'll be ..........stressful!...

But I'm sure I'll do fine........

I'm glad I confessed to J about what I saw when he left his email open and on last week--he was happy I was honest about it.....and that was good.......we talked it out......what fun.

Women and their scandelous attempts to ruin happy homes......boy oh boy........

tsk,tsk.

......and this I know for sure,

PREGNANCY MAKES YOU ABSOLUTELY CRAZY!!!!!!!

I've never been so damn indecisive in my life.......

one minute i want a huge wed, the next, i don't wanna do anything at all......

i've come to this one conclusion,,,,,, it's gotta be a boy

why u ask? well, because....:

a)my face is super clear and smooth, no acne whatsoever, never had much, but one would think with the hormones flux, there'd be some

b)GAS, GAS, BADDDDDDDDD GAS.......nuff said.

c)no breast tenderness whatsoever, i had a little for like a week in week 3-4......and that's it......

and what else........oh yea.....

a helluva increased libido.........

t.m.i(too much info) i know........

heee heeeeeeeeee~~~~~~~~~~~

-------------------work wasn't so bad today......time flew by,,,,,,,......and i wasn't as irritated as last saturday.........

after these last awful 3 days arguing with J about things.....i've realized i've been a complete fool.......and i've embarrassed myself actually........emotionally........

gosh........

this may be my last time doing this preggo thing.......

i'm already uncomfortable with the 24/7 big bloatation feeling.......and i've got a longgggggggggggggggg way to go joe!!!!

nothing is working out right-

i've given up planning for a wed; too much stress and i can't take it along with the new job and crazy training work schedule