Pregnancy Journal

SO today was officially day 4 of me being on my own during the day with my two little rascals, without any help. Last week my mother was my right arm...actually more like my left and right arm! After having a c-section and having a 19 month old and a  1 1/2 week old at home, I needed it! Some days were crazy even with the extra help around. So this week has been going pretty go...so far. I think the hardest thing is the restrictions with lifting. I can't lift Trevor (the 1 1/2 year old), or I'm not supposed to anyway. I have a trip of 19 stairs to go up and down  if I want to go anywhere. So carrying everything and dealing with the stroller and worrying about Trevor running away from me right when we get out the door, pretty much prohibits me from leaving the house. Cabin fever what! It's probably more cabin fever for Trevor! Poor kid needs to just run through a field or something and just let go with all of his energy. But since that hasn't happened, all of that energy is equal to trouble by day four in our apartment lol! The first half of the day went well, the boys took morning naps at the same time, I unfortunatley didn't take one, but it gave me some quiet time and some time to rest. Then things kinda went down hill. I was counting down the minutes till Steve got home from work. Warren wanted to nurse, Trevor wouldnt take an afternoon nap, all he wanted to do was basically drive me crazy. He freaked out, yelling and crying "babyyyyyy, babyyyyy!" It seemed like he wanted to be with the baby and hold him, but then when I tried to settle him down by showing him the baby all he did was freak out even more. SO I put down the now screaming baby to try and console my screaming one year old. Lets just say it got loud! Warren needed to nurse, Trevor needed some attention....ughhh it was ugly. So then I notice the clock and it's 415. Well Steve usually gets out at 4:30 so I call him and say, tell me you're getting out on time today. Ahh no, can't leave on time today. I then start joining in with the boys and I freak out, crying and talking to myself out loud and yelling at Trevor at the same time for standing on the kitchen table. I was totally depending on the couple of hours I was gonna get when he got home before he went to baseball. DO you believe this...work and baseball hmmm, where do I come in??  So not fair. Well I ended up getting my husband for about an hour until he was out the door again. I got to take a shower and have some dinner. And now the two boys are finally asleep. I'm sure Warren will be up in a little bit for a feeding.

Tomorrow is my 26th Birthday, I usually love my birthday, but this year I'm not that excited about it. I don't really know why. I think I'm just hormonal. It just overwhelms me a little to think about how last year at this time, little Warren wasn't even thought of yet and now he's here and so is my birthday again....another year gone by so stinkin fast!  I'll be 30 before we know it haha. Well next year at this time, there will still be only 2 kids!! No more baby making for us anytime soon lol!

Well here's to another night of hoping to sleep :) As my Trevor would say, nigh nigh!

Well I'm finally getting around to writing about the birth of our new son, and it's been almost 3 weeks. Just wanted to give a quick sum up, and maybe, just maybe I might come up with the energy and time to sit down and elaborate a bit more. Lateley it seems any chance I get to freely sit on the computer, it's not really freely. It's basically, my one year old is in for a nap and I'm holding the baby, nursing and I have one free hand to slowly type in log ins and passwords. That's about the extent of my free time! Haha. Right now Trevor is locked in his high chair and Warren is sleeping, swinging away in his swing. So very quickly.....

Baby Warren Walter was born on 8/8/08 at 11:59 am 10lbs 1oz via scheduled c-section. It was an amazing experience having a planned section, I loved every second of it. There were lots of happy and emotional moments through out the whole event! My husband and I thoroughly enjoyed it, as we did the whole hospital stay, for the most part. I had amazing nurses, my Dr was awesome and pretty much everything went great. Recovery is going good, and baby is breastfeeding really well. While I was having my stay in the hospital, my best friend told me she was pregnant! So now the two closest women in my life are both pregnant, my twin and my best friend. What more could I ask for?! I'll post some pics soon and keep up with stuff later! Hope all is well out in there in the pregnancy world....I'm finally out of that world!

So today was it, my last full day of being pregnant....until the next time ;) But that wont be for a bit, so it's just a little bitter sweet. I mean I can't wait to NOT be so pregnant and meet this child of mine, but there's nothing better than that feeling of having something you've created living and growing inside of you and knowing that you've already begun to nurture and care for him/ her, and providing the best possible home right inside of your body. Nine months this baby resides right inside of me and then one day....gone and in my arms!

So today I was feeling a bit overwhelmed right from when I woke up until...well now! I'm feeling a little better now. It's quarter of twelve and I'm heading into the hospital around 7am. So today I had my pre-op. at the hospital. Got some blood taken and had to fill some papers out and stuff. But it made things very real being right in the labor and delivery ward, where it seems I just was such a short time ago. Well 19 months ago to be exact, but it seems like yesterday!

Today when I got Trevor out of his crib I held on for him for a few seconds longer than usual and just cried. I wont be doing that for a while. I'm getting so centimental about everything. I watched the clock all day long knowing that he would be picked up in 3 hours, 2 hours, last hour left. I finally broke down and just bawled for a good minute and believe it or not I felt so much better and I haven't cried since. I didn't even cry saying goodbye to him. After Karyn picked him up, Steve and I went to the grocery store to get a few things and then I went into to TJ Maxx to get a couple of night gownish type tops. After that we stopped at my moms house real quick to measure my belly one last time with her fabric tape measure. So last day of being prego my belly is officially 48 1/2 inches all the way around :) Could be 49 but whatever. Today was the first day that my wedding rings officially wouldn't go on. Oh well, soon enough.

OH so last night I had a surprise shower given to me!!! It was so fun. I had NO idea. I thought my sister and our best friend were having dinner and it ended up being a surprise party! My mom and younger sister were there and all my girlfriends. Everyone chipped in and got me the double stroller I wanted. What a blessing! My sister Erika and my best friend Karyn did an amazing job with all the planning and cooking and just keeping a secret from me! I loved it. It was great timing, I was feeling a bit down and it just made the whole week....aside from tomorrow of course! Well anyway, that's about it. It's officially baby's birthday in 4 minutes, 8/8/08. I can't believe I made it this long! I will be writing in to announce the gender and the massive weight of this child....and posting some pics. If you read this, please keep us in your prayers!!! Thanks!

I had my last prenatal Drs appointment yesterday. Kinda sad…not really, that’s just how hormonal I am these days! Anyway, it went well. I haven’t gained any weight in the past few appointments, so I’m still at a 38lb weight gain, which I am happy with. Baby is still the size of a moose! No real signs of labor, she checked to make sure that my water didn’t break and that I didn’t have a “slow leak”.  The past few nights I’ve had episodes of contractions, obviously not anything that got me anywhere! They would be anywhere from 7-10 minutes apart, while I was laying down, for about 2 hours or so. They got painful and every time I got one I would get this heavy feeling in my chest and a little shortness of breath. I don’t remember getting that with Trevor. It was weird. Other physical things I've been feeling are slight change in the chest area. My boobs feel different, not really tender or sore, maybe heavier at times. I don't know how to explain it. I feel a bit foggy in the head and extremely tired. I'm getting a little bit more swollen, but I still have nice ankles :) Oh and my tummy is very itchy and a little sensitive from walking into my bedpost the other day! Did I mention that before? Well I walked into my rod iron bed post, sort of forgetting about my belly being so far out there, and I got a bruise. I called the dr, but she said as long as baby was moving it was fine. HA I'm an idiot!

Anyway, so tomorrow is my pre- op at the hospital. I go in at one, I have to get some blood work done, check vitals and stuff and watch some boring video. Ughh, not looking forward to it, I kinda just wanted the day to my self. Oh well. This week, I have to say, is going by pretty fast. I am getting really excited, it doesn’t seem real, it seems like I’m going to be prego forever! Less than 48 hours and that part is OVER! Can’t wait. I can’t wait to see what this baby is. It’s so weird that my child is right here, comes and goes with me wherever I go. And yet his or her gender remains a mystery!

Well today I am feeling extremely exhausted. My 19 month old was running around like a free man this morning while I fought and struggled with everything I had to keep my eyelids from closing. Finally he napped and I slept for two hours. But I’m not kidding when I say that that wasn’t enough! So when he got up, we played and ate lunch, played more and then he took a bath and I just put him in for another nap. I’m kind of waiting for him to be more asleep and then I’m hitting the sack again. Today is a little bitter sweet for me. It’s my last day with just Trevor and me. We’re not doing anything fun or crazy, just having a normal stay at home in the rain kind of day. Tonight my sister and I are having dinner at our best friends house (Karyn). The three of us (well 4 cause Trev will be there) are having a little last night before baby arrives dinner! We’re so corny.

So that’s about it for now, oh accept that I FELT MY SISTERS BABY MOVE!!!!!! Last night we were at our Bible study and I she put my hand on her stomach and I felt it move a few times. So exciting! It’s such little movements compared to what I feel right now inside of me. The great thing is I have the next 5 months to feel more and more of it. Ahhhhh love it!