Pregnancy Journal

Well, it's now the 18th of August and bubs is still not here. I have seen the midwife today and apparently am in the early stages of labour but my waters havent broken yet and may not still for a couple of days. If bubs hasn't come by saturday they will induce me....which also happnens to be the day that Ethan and I promised his parents we would help set up and attend their 30th Wedding Anniversay! Great timing huh...

Well other than that, I'm sore and tired...Just want to get this over and done with. I want to be able to hold my little girl in my arms not my belly lol and I so desperately want to be able to get comfortable in bed or even sitting on the couch!!! My family can get a little stressing with certain issues at the moment too but I am doing my best to block it out and keep my relationship and my family all happy without running me down. There is just alot going on this month I think...I'm anxious for that change.

Well, time has gone rather quickly but rather slowly at time too. Being pregnant has been an altogether new experienc e is so many different ways. I know through out the process alot of people think that I was a complainer but up until I fell pregnant I haven't had many troubles physically.

I just had my tooth temporarily repaired....$200 later, but I'm glad its done because I didnt want to go into hospital and give birth with a big hole in my tooth and an ache that could make me break down into tears if not screaming...it was pretty bad.

Anyway, the thing I am really looking forward to now is the baby actually coming. I'm due tomorrow and for days now i have been getting fake labour pains and all the things that go along with it so I think Kaylyn is almost ready. I'll be happy when I have my stomach back to myself because I have not slept in about 4 days and its starting to take its toll. Such is the price you pay tho.

I'm not too scared about going into labour...I have read as much as I wanted to on the subject and I know it isnt going to be fun but I think I can handle it. If everyone else can and Tammy can then surely I will be fine. After a few hours everything will be great and I will have a baby girl in my arms.

I just PRAY that my mother and ethans parents dont kill each other while they are waiting in the hospital. I know they dont like each other and for good reason i suppose but still it would be nice to have a good experience rather than bad.

Well, I must say, my first pregnancy has not been all roses and butterflies. However, I still in a weird way have enjoyed it and what it is bringing to my life. I've pretty much experienced everything that there is to complain about so now I'm trying to look forward to the baby actually coming, getting my tummy back and starting a new life so to say with Ethan. Things are looking up but I know it will take some time and with everything great that happens its never an easy road so I really don't intend my complaints to be taking 100% seriously. I don't mind when people just tell me to toughen up...I know I can be a sook and I suppose it's my way of making sure the people around me care.

Anyway, as of Monday I will have had my first antenatal appointment at the hospital, I dare say we will be there for a few hours because the appointment has been booked for around 6:30pm. I have alot of questions about when I actually go into labour and what not so I have to make sure I can think up everything that usually comes to light at the most random of times and write it all down otherwise I fear freaking out later because most doctors have kept me in the dark.