Just felt like writing today.
As some of you already know, Kevin got the Mohave Community College (MCC) teaching job and is so excited about it. He is currently finishing up an online course through Univ. of Phoenix (from home) and then will start teaching a Biolgy summer session at the other Mohave Community College in Kingman, AZ starting 6/2. It's at night 4 days a week and goes until 7/24. Then on 8/4 he starts teaching Biology full time at MCC in Bullhead City where we live. It's great because Sammie will be here by then, and he'll be working closer to home. No more 35-45 minute commutes or killer miles on the car every day. Less money out the window for gas. Just about every doctor we have is here in Bullhead so that makes it easier to keep appts. Not to mention the increase in pay is significant. He finally after all these years (since even before I met him) is going to teach what he loves...Biology. I couldnt be more happy and more proud of him.
Me...I'm getting big, but basically just in the belly now. Just went for my most recent check-up and the doc said i grew 2 centimeters since last he saw me and i was 158 pounds (wow!!). He said baby's heart beat was real strong and let me tell you so are her bones. Kevin calls her Muhammad Ali because the other night it was like she was boxing in there!!!!
I'm starting to have dreams of holding her, like the other night. In the dream, my stomach skin was paper thin and I could see her tiny skeleton through it, and could really feel every line of her face and arms through this thin wall between us. I stroked her face and she smiled. It was a really great dream.
Still waiting to hear back from disability. That would just help so much right now, in sooo many ways you just don't even know. If you feel up to it, say a prayer for us.
I mentioned in my previous post that I was going to take placenta pills (my placenta) to help with PPD. The woman who we bought the at home kit from (Kevin is gunna do it actually) said that these pills are not to be used in place of anti-depressants, if our doctor feels I need them, but in conjunction with. I guess I was under the wrong impression. So I will take the zoloft starting day one and still try to breast feed that same day as well and after if i can. And then once kev gets the placenta pills ready I will take them until they run out and by that time the zoloft should be in full effect (about a month and half later) so hopefully there will be no really bad dips in my hormones with this plan of action. I told my primary care physician about the placenta pills and he obviously didnt agree, because three days later I received a letter stating he could no longer see me as a patient. WOW! I called up and they confirmed that it was because of my choice with the placenta. I have a new Family Doctor and don't plan on mentioning this to him. I get it, you know. If they don't agree, they dont HAVE to see me as a patient, but I have a right to my own health care whether a doctor agrees with it or not. You live and you learn.
I also went to the dentist about 2 weeks ago and it turns out that I also have peridontisis now in my right upper gum and they want me to go see a specialist to find out if I need a root canal. "They can do root canals while your pregnant. It's ok." NOT ON THIS PREGNANT WOMAN, IT ISN'T!!!!! So that is something I'm not to happy about, but what can you do. Recently also had a drop in my sugar (my own fault)...I was craving ice cream, ate it and then two days later almost fainted outside the damn grocery store. That sucked.
I also forgot to take my Zofran the other day again. Thought i really took it and by morning I was like why do i feel so sick? This feels so familiar, like when I first found out I was pregnant and started throwing....CRAP!!!! I forgot again". It took two days to come back up to some kind of functioning level. So the HG is still there. I could literally feel something buidling up inside my body, like when you are well on your way with getting the flu...except the medicine, if taken right away, brings the levels back down much faster with HG than the flu! THANK GOD FOR ZOFRAN!!!
So yea, there are still ups and downs, good and bad days, body pain and OCD things happening, but I'm getting further along and closer so I guess the hormones that are there now, are less because the stress of the down times, don't mess me up so bad right now. Now the lower back and sciatica pain, that's another story!!! :)~
To close, Kev is at Saturday school, I'm in my pj's, Roamin is laying in the sun on the floor, and Sammie is quietly nestled in my tummy asleep it seems. Tonight we are going to dinner with a small hand full of people to celebrate the fact that Kev and I are about to become parents, so today is a nice slow, easy day. Tomorrow, I will be 29 and it will be my first Mother's Day. You dream about moments like this, but they never fit the reality. I don't really know how to react I guess. I'm moving so far away from just being this person who is married, to this woman who has a family. Being married is one thing and something I had experienced already, so when Kevin and I got hitched it didn't feel out of place or scarey. But with raising a child...that's like....that's like a whole new world. I'm the baby of the bunch so I've never even had a younger sibling to practice on. It will be interesting, that's for sure.
Well, gunna go fold the laundry and maybe make kevin some kind of dessert to say thanks for being an awesome friend, father and husband. Maybe Butterscotch pie. (Apparantly Sammie thinks that is a good idea cause she just woke up...!)
Bye for now!
Lisa
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