I've been MIA... Catch up posts. Jan 31 2009
Well, I am just cruising along through the days... some days it is like cruising, others it is more like walking over hot coals.
Today is a in between day.
It took me until 9am to get out of bed... even then I did so very begrudgingly, and only because Harrison needed to eat something. Once I was up, I got the occasional head spin but now all is good :)
I definitely don't feel pregnant most of the time, but I will get something like a head spin, or a sudden bout of nausea which reminds me that in a few months time I will forget what my feet look like.
I have had a sucky few days actually... A close friend of mine from Sydney passed away the other day. She was only 53 which is quite young. She has a history of bad health, with her issues surrounding her lungs... she was severely asthmatic, and her lungs had collapsed a few times because of it, along with pluresy (sp?) and pneumonia... she was admitted to hospital on Christmas Eve to have her lungs drained... she got better for a little while but then went down hill just after NYE. She couldn't keep fighting anymore and passed away Wednesday night. I'm sad because I have been a slack friend to her over the past few years... I am sure you all know how it is, how life etc just gets in the way... I know she would be mad at me for thinking like this, but I do regret not keeping in touch as often as I wanted to. I guess I have really had a wake up call to not put off the things I want to do, which includes keeping in touch with the people that mean a lot to me.
I just realised the other day that someone has passed away through all of my pregnancies apart from James's. I'm not going to Sandra's funeral... I really, really want to, but it is Harrison's birthday that day, and with all the drama's I'm having with this pregnancy atm, I don't want to be too far away from Rob or my Dr... so a trip to Sydney is out of the question.
2009-01-28 (7 weeks)
Confused Today I got the films back from my ultrasound, and on the report it states that
"There is a very small (less than 1ml) subchorionic bleed inferior to the gestational sac."
Now I am stressed out! I really don't want to lose another baby!
I'm not bleeding, and until the report I had no idea of a bleed. I am hoping because it says it is very small that it is going to be something that goes away on it's own with no impact on me or the baby.
I had a huge arguement with Rob about this today. He is such a male and figures everything will be OK... I just want him to be a little bit more compassionate and understand that I am really worried. He got annoyed that I was upset to read about the bleeding before speaking to a Dr. I get what he means, but it is really hard not to be upset.
Well, I am off to have a shower and a sook. It's all I can do until I see the Dr on Friday.
2009-01-27 (6 weeks)
I haven't updated! Just realised. Wow... I just realised that I haven't updated here for a while!
Well, the hcg tests came back at 3280, which was an increase of 3080! Fabulous! The Dr said it seemed to be a very viable pregnancy.
Fast forward to today... all the while skipping the 40 degree days and numerous nauseated times...
I had an ultrasound today. Bumpty is so beautiful! I am definitely in love. Bumpty is 1cm long with an amazingly gorgeous little heart rate of 145bpm. The sound was divine! I could very easily become addicted to that sound.
I will have some pics tomorrow. I am going to the Dr tomorrow to see where I go to from here. I am pretty determined to have a home birth, so I am hoping the Dr will steer me down the right track.
2009-01-13 (4 weeks)
The day before... Today is the day before I go for the 2nd set of hcg tests.
To say I am worried is an understatement. I am petrified!
It feels so much like when I was pregnant with Little Wing. I remember all too clearly getting back lower than expected levels, and eventually miscarrying.
Today I also got some sad news.
Today is my Great Nan's 102nd birthday. She is also in hospital as she had a fall and dislocated her shoulder. While she was in there, they ran some tests on her and found she has a problem with her heart. It is not functioning properly, so it seems that my Nan will be in hospital until she passes away. This has saddened me a lot as she will be the first Grandparent I will lose. I feel terrible that I haven't seen her in so long, and I am sad that she mightn't even remember me
102 is a "good innings" I know... but it doesn't make it any easier.
