I have been having some strange dreams lately.  I notice that when I sleep through the night, my dreams are most vivid in the early morning and they're nice dreams...however, when I'm restless, I have nightmares.  For example, last night I dreamt that my neighbour friend, who I get along with real well, was standing over my bed and was about to kill me.  The next day I seen him and I could barely look at him it scared me so much.  My cousin's brother just moved here from Newfoundland to live with her and he started a new job.  I had a dream that a peice of equipment landed on him and end of story.  It was so vivid, I had to call my cousin and ask her if he was ok.  She eased my worries and told me everything was fine. She must've thought I was nuts.  I just have a real hard time distinguishing whether my dreams are real or not.  It's not a good feeling. 

My nausea has ended.  I only had about a week of it.  Not too bad at all.  I don't even feel like I'm pregnant but I sure look like it.  My upper body regions have gone back to normal..besides being a bit heavy.  My belly, however, isn't going back to normal....there's definielty something growing in there.  It makes me look more fat than pregnant...but I'm sure that will come in time.  Moodswings have intensed a little.  I cried last night over a Ford commercial.  ?????  I wanted mustard on my vanilla ice cream and now when I think about it - GROSS.  What was I thinking??

Think I felt some fluttering this morning.  I know my body and it definietly was not gas pains...lol.  Just not sure if you can feel these types of flutters so early on.  Guess no two are alike. 

I've persuaded my Mother to get on a plane to come visit when the little peanut is born.  She's very hesitant.  Hates the idea of flying but c'mon, it's her first grandchild....of course she has to come up.  She had better!!!

Been doing some dealing on a vehicle this morning.  I should've been a sales person.  I've been jewing dealerships down to over $1000.00.  It feel's good.  Just waiting on the right one to come along.    I think i've found it.  Now, need a day off work to go look at it. 

Well, I think that's all I havet o report on this morning...nothing much happening.  Feel great!

Can someone say irritable??  OMG, I am the worst girlfriend in the world.  Nov 3rd was Jason's 30th birthday.  I got up early, gave him his present and wasn't sick at all.  I was expecting a great day.  Well, wasn't that far from what happend??

Started making breakfast, cracked the first egg and it was over  - T. Bowl was then my best friend for the entire weekend.  Jason left the city with a friend and didn't get back until late.  Eventhough I was sick, I had his favorite meal cooked for his birthday - he didn't show up.  I was livid and couldn't control it.  Then, got extremely hormonal and cried and cried.  I even made him sleep on the sofa that night.

The next day, I'm laying in bed and thinking of a way to explain my actions, which I couldn't even understand myself.  I mean, why wouldn't you want to have fun on your 30th birthday instead of spending it with your bitchy girlfriend?? so I go to wake him up and before I got a word out he looks at me, smiles, and says, "I'm sorry you have to deal with this but it will get better".  Meaning pregnancy and being hormonal and sick. I thought to myself "WOW".  How nice of him to understand after ruining his special day.

My puppies are acting kind of strange lately.  When they come near me, they go directly for my belly and sniff.  Before they'd jump on my belly but lately, it's like they know something is in there.  Can't explain it, but it's really strange and not typical of them. 

I made it to work today.  Not sure how many sick days I can get but I'm sure there'll be a few.  Feeling allright as of now.....shouldn't speak so soon though.  I haven't put any weight on but my belly is definietly protruding.

Well, that's it for now.  I'll be sure to update on any happenings.

Ok, I have to stop eating!!  It's way too early to be gaining weight.  I'm sure the weight gain will come in a few months anyway and I don't need to be helping it along.  Halloween didn't help any and Jason is such a junk food fanatic.  So hard to stay away. Yesterday, I ate a healthy supper and then decided to finish off a huge bag of chips all by myself!  It's like I have no control and the more I know I shouldn't be eating like that, the more I want to. I'm in the stage where most Woman can't eat anything but yet, I'm a bottomless pit.  I haven't thrown anything up yet.  Thank God!

Clothes are starting to tighten around my belly area.  I work a desk job so It's really uncomfortable sitting all day.  I refuse to buy any new clothes until my ultrasound on the 27th of Nov.  But it sure would be nice if I could wear sweat pants to work everyday. 

I also noticed that I'm ready for bed around 9 p.m.  11:00 p.m. was always my bed-time on weekdays.  I find myself laying on the couch to watch a favorite show and not being able to stay awake. 

I play my guitar and sing more than usual.  I figure that's why my siblings and I  are good musicians because of my Mother playing while we were in utero.  Haven't tried the classical music yet but I plan to.   If anyone has tried and seen a difference I would love to hear about it.

It's still so hard to believe that there's a living human being inside of me.  I can't wait for the ultrasound so I can hear the little heart beat!  This is my first and everything is new to me.  I have no idea what to expect but somewhere inside me, something is telling me everything will be ok.  Cross your fingers!

Today is the 29th of October - 2007.  I am 8 weeks along and full of so many emotions that I decided I needed to write them down.

I found out I was pregnant on the 2nd of this month.  My first reaction - SHOCKED!  I waited for my better half to get home and broke the news.  His reaction - SHOCKED!  The pregnancy wasn't planned and we really didn't know how to take the news..........

Now, I'm 8 weeks along and we're both so excited we can't sit still.  I haven't had any sickness, no special food cravings.  The only thing I've noticed is I can no longer sleep through the nights.  I'm usually a pretty sound sleeper and don't stir until the alarm clock wakes me but lately, I'm up looking at the clock at 4 a.m. in the morning waiting for the alarm to beep at 7 a.m.  Eventhough this happens, I do not feel sluggish throughout the day.  I feel GREAT!! 

People have been so supportive.  I doubt we'll have to buy anything only diapers and clothes.  I'm lucky I have such fantastic friends.

My 1st complete check-up is on the 13th of Nov with Dr. Hoffman.  My first ultrasound will be the 27th of Nov.  I'll definietly know how far along I am then.

Here's to BABIES!!!!!!  YAY