I am so moody!  And for those of you who know me, that probably doesn't sound that out a character for me but its like extremes of moods.  I just recently bought maternity tops which I abosolutely LOVE and make me feel so good about myself... SO GOOD, I have to convince David to let me buy more than just a few ;)  Also, feeling baby kick SOOOOO much makes me feel happy... but then sometimes annoyed because I just want to rest and when I want David to feel her at her most active times, he is either not home or SO EXHAUSTED, he won't or can't even try... And then there is my last appointment... this past Monday, my doctor noticed I'd lost two pounds, sounded concerned (which she never does), but agreed since we were doing the ultrasound to check my placenta anyway, she could check baby's size... placenta was no where to be found in that area... she said that was great and then proceeded to "recheck" gender for David and did her best and reaffirmed what we'd already heard... here comes Joy Joy!  Then she started measuring baby and when she was done said baby was measuring well, and paused... actually ahead... I asked how much and she told me 3 lbs 13 ounces...  She paused, hesitated, told me how to clean up, checked we had an appt in 2 weeks and almost "dashed" outta the room... so now the drama of David questioning our due date (which actually makes sense), the not gaining weight really and not knowing what to do and the non-pregnancy stress of Kids' Sunday around the corner is all really driving me crazy... I  don't know what to say... so I am 31 weeks and 2 days... but I could be 35 and 2 days??? Okay, so it may be a leap (like I said, ask me the story) but nonetheless, glad I have another appointment in just another week or so and fearing it as well since I am still NOT gaining ANY weight... Oh, and I really don't sleep much and wake up more in the middle of the night, more pain, more irritability, Wednesday was REALLY BAD for me (ask me for that story too if you like)... AGH... its been an eventfully slow but not in retrospect fast week... not much longer to go... I hope :)  I am looking forward to my Joy Joy...

Lissa's out... really, I am... oh, and I have yet another ultrasound pic... ask me to see it...

Byes

It's been almost two years since he proposed, two years since I first found out how badly David wanted a family, and not just a family but a LARGE family... surprised and taken aback at his response to my best friend's question, I laughed and then questioned where I really stood on it.  I thought I had embraced it but it wasn't until recently that I really started to understand why he wants such a large family.  10 weeks out from my due date, my resignation pretty much in at both my jobs, I am looking forward to being not only a first-time mom but a full-time mom.  Nervous and not sure what to expect, it  excites me at the possibility now of really having the freedom to raise not one kid but hopefully many more (God-willing).  Having a small family doesn't seem like an option... I just want to be a mom and wife... wow!  My husband is one of the most supportive men ever and I love him for it... I am discouraged, tired, sore, and slightly concerned about how things are going. And he hasn't hassled me one bit for it!  He even has gone out of his way to help me feel better and to LISTEN... I could go on... Thank God for my best friend...

*Melis*

Had an appt. with my doctor Monday morning, just before she headed over to deliver someone else's baby!  Forgot most of my questions but the appt. was reassuring and was kind of fun... She was so chatty and friendly and I think I knew she could be that way but have never experienced that... maybe because David wasn't there :-P  She was pretty happy about how everything was going with Baby and I!

The real things I have been noticing, aside from increased pain in hips and back is the INCREASE in baby kicks (didn't think it was possible-lol) and the BH's.  I have really started to pay attention, not that I really can ignore them so easily now.  I don't want to get caught later so I am really trying to pay attention to the differences and such.  The BHs are getting more noticeable and more uncomfortable.  They are short generally but quite frequent at times it seems.

Oh, and getting ready to resign officially from my job to be a stay-at-home mom (yay!), with 1 1/2 weeks left at my other job and this one ending April 30th I am really feeling so close... oh, and looking at bigger apts. --- if that doesn't get ya thinking about how close you are, I don't know what will...

GOD is so Good!  Glad to have this outlet...

*Melis*