Countdown begins...
Hey there loves!
Yes, i know its been a minute huh? about a month since the last entry, time and energy are of the essence (or lack there I of) I suppose. I feel like everything is in constant mode of change so in a sense it is the same because its constant and yet the change is pretty internal and subtle it seems redundant to disclose every little thing, I mean there is the obvious of my belly, its getting large, doubling in size every time i wake up! (i am exaggerating, but it feels like it). There has been the uncomfortable physical state due to my ligaments loosening making for a sensitive pubic bone (merely walking can hurt). There is the house, painting the baby's room, re-organizing the living room, moving in a subleter and finding a permanent roommate for July. There is the change from nurse practioner to midwife, which is very exciting! There is the deepening my relationship with Chris's kids and intentionally blending the families. And then, and then there is the birth… whoa!
So in a nutshell there is a lot going on, meanwhile I am still trying to enjoy MY time as I know it now, enjoy alone time with Chris, and rest, coz my energy of course is nothing like it used to be, and the preggie pains are a huge energy drainer. And I am not complaining, there has just been plenty to think about and do… hence my 1 month hiatus from the journal.
I am doing well with all of this. I went to the midwife and she felt the belly. I loved it!!! The baby is in the right position feet up, her back is to my left side and her head on my right side. This makes sense coz often times my left side gets hard. Hmm, s/he’s kicking right now, or shifting or stretching, I can’t tell coz there’s movement all over the belly right now. I guess s/he knows I am talking about her/him. 
The great thing about my appt was the midwife actually talked to me, she talked to me about the pubic bone pain, the swelling, my diet, the baby, the birth -- everything. My nurse practioner, as much as I did like her, barely even touched me, and refused to even talk to me about the pubic bone pain, she just assigned rest. The difference already in providers. Whaddya do! So far, highly recommend midwifes if you can!
And talking about the birth – wow! It’s like I just found out I was pregnant all over again but instead “whoa, now I have to give birth?” I am exaggerating, but for real, its bannanas to think about this. Its been a distant topic, occasionally talking with Chris and my mom on some details, but really talking about it with my midwife makes it very REAL.
I AM REALLY CLOSE TO GIVING BIRTH!!
I literally began bawling (not exaggerating!) watching this women give birth. And now, I am only 10 weeks away (but hopefully she’ll wait till after July 12!) – countdown is on.
And then after that, how else will my life change!?!?!? So much love, so much change, so much UNKNOWN.
My parents, who rock the whole world, are driving as we speak to pick up crib furniture in Sacramento. They are so great. I love my family!
HMM what else. Oh I know! Snoogle. It’s the greatest thing out there! I love mine truly truly truly. What’s a snoogle? It’s this preggy body pillow that is shaped like a big C, supporting your head, legs, back and belly. I was having tons of trouble sleeping, which means Chris had trouble sleeping. As a sweet solution (for both of us) he bought the pillow and it has been heaven since. I am absolutely in love with it. For all the mommas-to-be, I suggest this as an absolute! It’s a pricey pillow (I think) but its worth the investment for the rest you do get – and gosh darnit we deserve it don’t we?
However this is all at another cost coz now that I am sleeping deep, my poor boyfriend can’t sleep at all. For all those who’ve known me since childhood know my snoring capabilities, and that over the years it has gotten under control generally speaking. Well, this snoogle has brought back the snoring from back in the day – I am talking back when my cousin and brother used to record me on the stereo. It is getting so bad he’s gonna have to wear earplugs  I have woken myself up twice snoring so loud.
And you know the funny thing is… after 8-10 beautiful hours of soundless sleep, I can still wake up cranky if there is too much noise, yet he who has not gotten any sleep seems to deflect my dirty looks and whining comments and still showers me and the belly with kisses on his way out the door. For this reason, and a ton other, he’s a keeper!
Ok, see ya'lls later. I have new pictures that i'll upload soon.
baby's moving... guess he's saying bye too!
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It's YELLOW!
hi there folks!
what?!? its been a 2 weeks or 3 weeks since i wrote huh? nothing too much to report, just busy prepping for the baby. this weekend chris, darryl, my dad and my brother painted the baby's room. It is supposed to be 2 shades of yellow, but i think i am going to ask chris to paint all the walls the more solid yellow. its so PURTY!!! i love it. it is so surreal to watch this room come to life. in only 3 more months, there will be a little piece of chris and I in there, napping and cooing and filling our life with so much love.
a couple of my girlfriends and my mom are putting together the baby shower, which by the way all of ya'lls should've received a save the date already for. hope you all can make it. they are keeping a lot of the activities under wraps, but i have a feeling it will be so great. it'll be the best shower ever!
all this love really brings me to tears....
so my body. hmm, i am having a lot of pain in my pubic bone. at first i thought my yonni was just swollen with the extra hormones and blood circulation, which is normal with pregnancy according to the books. but i think what it turns out to be is my pubic bones are spreading. yea doesn't that sound great?!?! it feels like a pressure/pain and makes it difficult for me to get up and/or walk. still very normal for some women. pregnancy -- truly a trip.
the baby is constantly moving. the most in the morning probably saying "I AM HUNGRY!!" and in the evening when i am relaxing, which is also when daddy is talking to her. sometimes its like a belly earthquake you can see my whole abdomen shake, other times my belly popps to the right or left, like just now! chris is always feeling her at night, especially when i spoon him...
So i went to the doctor last monday. A woman had told me another midwives tale about heart rate, girls have higher rates, boys have lower rates. i asked my nurse practioner and she disputed the myth -- however the heart rate was 148, fairly high. So according to that myth its a girl. My sister in law checked out a birthing calendar and it says I am having a boy. People can't always tell i am pregnant, which trips me out coz i am not normally NOT this swollen but anyway according to that myth, I am having a girl. Mom says my face has changed... for the worse, so according to that myth, i am also having a boy. Chris of course takes the cake and says its a girl hands down! I think with his enthusiasm, i can't help but roll with it. So if you notice my gender preference, it's mostly because of her Daddy.
But the truth is whatever it is boy/girl, it doesn't matter. I mean really it could be born a he and prefer to be a she and vice versa and either way, it truly doesn't matter, there will be so much love in her/his life...
This is so amazing, i can't say it enough. I feel like i am getting used to being pregnant in someways, and everyday I am amazed at this miracle. I feel so strong. I feel so in my body but tapped into something so much larger that me. And i know for every woman its different, but I love being pregnant! Yes, i am one of those women and proud of it!!! :)
I feel SO APPRECIATIVE of the love around me. I realize everyday how good i have it, with my family, friends and partner. I can easily get caught up in what i don't have, etc, but i have to constantly remind myself what i do have... and seriously all the love you've given me..us has been much more than we can ask for. So thank you everyone.
we love you all right back.
see ya.
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