Hey there folks -- nothing much to report. I just posted more pictures. I am growing like crazy. Every week I get larger and larger. I feel the difference in my belly almost every morning. Do you see how i have grown?
I have made Chris switch sides in bed so that i can sleep on my left side without breathing in his warm breathe. This has made all the difference in my quality of sleep, but according to him, my snoring has increased so he is sleeping less. Oh well, this is when i pull the pregnancy card! Well... what can i do, i need my rest.
Everything is going well, Chris and i are doing wonderfully. The baby is great. I have been pretty busy and my body reminds me to slow down quite often. My emotions are still pretty even, but i must say i can get teary eyed very easily, happy or sad or tired for that matter. Just the other week, i was keeping up my pre-preggie pace, and my body literally stopped me. It took me a couple days to re-cooperate, and I was a little weepy just from being tired. Chris was great and rubbed my feet and stroked my hair.
It reminds me of the woman i met who in her 7th month, began tearing while brushing her teeth because there were no snacks she liked in her fully stocked pantry. You can't help but laugh at yourself (later of course) and be grateful for a supportive partner who will get you what you need.
And let me clarify so you all far away from me can picture it right, its not the crying that is emotional or drama filled (that was the 1st trimester), now its more like, the tears just flow quietly. Like when you are watching those Kodak commercials that tug at your heart strings.
And I don’t want to give the impression that I am weepy all the time, I am not, in fact I am usually smiln’ cheek to cheek. I just got my first case of the weepys a week ago, so I guess that is why I am talking about it. Its all part of the joys of pregnancy!
Let’s see what else is going on. Being around my family is great! My dad is the sweetest right now. Every time I come over, he makes some Filipino food like adobo or sinigang. Just this last weekend he took me shopping. A friend of mine gave me some clothes to get me started, but I am soon to grow out of them, and that is a trip too, to see yourself grow out of pants by the weeks! Mom is great too, and she always has been and always will be. My dad tho, man I can just see him with the baby, holding him/her and pretty much bogarting the baby. He is SO excited, It is very sweet.
I am more than halfway! It took no time to get here and I am sure it’ll be the same for when I begin pushing this little life out of me. Oh wow!
A friend of mine told me that giving birth is almost as intense as dying. Opposites I know, but hear me out. She has been to a few births and was also with her father when he passed. She was saying how she saw the same aura around a woman in labor than she did during the last few days before her father passed. For her the auras were similar because it is in these moments when our life/energy is climatically tapped into the universe/creator. Doesn’t that makes sense tho? As we enter the world (or as I become this door of life for my child) and as we leave the world we come from/return to the universal energy that is both life and death.
I thought it was pretty profound, speaks to the spirituality of life and this birth. And its amazes me how as a woman I am able to tap into that energy. That is pretty damn amazing.
Folks we love you! Enjoy the photos. Send us your thoughts.
We love you.
2008-02-27 (20 weeks)
3rd time is a charm ok folks, so this is my 3rd time trying to put in a new entry. It 9pm right now, i should be getting ready for bed but thought i'd send you all a shout out (and an update) before i hit the sac. let's see if this time it works.
right now i am listening to some jazz, duke ellington and the like -- my computer is on my lap with the speakers toward my belly, so the baby can enjoy the music too. with cereal in my tummy and music playing i am one happy momma. i hope the baby loves music.
chris and i went to sac this weekend to visit his sons. little meechie was sharing with me how sad he was going to be that he wasnt going to know the baby, coz we live so far away. (ohhh!) well i reassured him that we are planning on coming up all the time, and for sure this baby will get to know her/his kuyas. he was so excited to see my little preggie hump. what a sweet boy, to worry about that. it makes me even more determined to have them here more. we are making it a priority to integrate these families, but i think more and more i may need to go up there with chris too. i am thinking of doing a small day trip with them before the baby arrives, maybe april, to tahoe or something.
a couple of fridays ago, we had our ultrasound. so great. so emotional. so amazing. this little life squirming from the pressure of the wand. i forget the size of it, but i have a nice hump and the baby moves frequently, like right now... or is that gas? we didnt find out the sex. we actually tried, but the baby just wouldnt have it, wouldnt open its legs. i guess we werent meant to find out till the birth. whaddya do?
i have prenatal yoga on saturday mornings. that's nice, special time with me and the baby. its fun. we've been eating up a storm. this past weekend i had cakes, and pies. only one serving tho... of each of the cakes (3 varities) and pies (2 varieties), and sometimes with ice cream on the side. oohhh, i am trying to watch it, but they looked so good, i couldnt resist. whoever created ube ice cream, whoo, gold medal to that person!!!
i've noticed my appetite during the day con't to rage, every 2 hours i need to eat. but in the evenings my appetite is fairly small, bowl of cereal will suffice. come the morning tho, watch out! my cravings are usually a certain dish versus pickles and ice cream. i like fresh ingredients but multilayered flavors, like vietnamese, thai, indian. i can also go for a good sandwhich. almost every morning, i have pb toast with an egg on top. folks find that weird, but i used to eat it alot pre-preggie and actually my best friend still eats that to this day. i eat tons of fruit, our fruit bowl doesnt stay full long, altho our veggie drawer tends to go bad. dinner is just not my thing, and i am usually too tired to cook at night esp. after my walks with diamond. what this all means for the baby's eating pattern who knows.
i have noticed the baby gets really active around 10 am and stays pretty active till about now. at work i tend to lean over my desk and i know he doesnt like that, feels too squished i guess. he also tells me when i am hungry, he does sommersaults and like 10 minutes later i feel hungry, its like he's saying "mama, put food down the shoot!", altho i've only noticed this a couple times, so it could be coincidental.
i wonder what this child will be like. if its moving so much, will it be a squirmer when here with us. i wanted the baby to have chris's temperment, but i forgot he's learned to manage his energy over the years. i forgot his energy can go thru the roof, and what that looks like now as a grown man and as a child is very different. he tells me stories of his mischiveous (sp?) days as a child. always talking and always moving, getting himself into trouble, and believe the man can talk your ear off still!! wow, well wouldnt that be hilarious, i suppose i would be getting what i asked for!
but who knows the baby might be just like me... and wouldnt that also be a handful. either way, it will be a sharp learning curve!!
alright peace out everyone. much love to you all. ooh, i am glad this entry made it!!
2008-02-11 (17 weeks)
To the left, to the Left!
Hey folks, man its been a while since i've journaled. i have been feeling about 70% of my energy back and have taken it and run! Its been great to do even half of what i have done before, feel kinda back to myself. I have been going on long walks with my pup as excercise, which is bonding for us, and i get to be outside 45-1 hour a day. I love it, nature really calms me. I suppose the baby will enjoy outdoors as well!
So great fabulous news -- the baby has been moving some the last couple weeks. At first i thought they were gas bubbles, but I meditated on my belly this past weekend and realized it was the baby moving. He likes to kick it on the left side (hence the title), he's actually there right now. If I press that area, he moves right back. Its fun.
If you've noticed the gender pronoun "he" being used, its coz i think its a boy. I just get the feeling. Everytime I see a little boy I feel very connected to him. I also think i fell in love with this little boy i met a couple weeks ago, he was absolutely adorable and his personality was so outgoing, so that could be why. Altho Chris wants a girl so bad he is down to have another son. Man, in other countries him having this many boys would be great fortune huh? We won't find out till birth tho so i am only taking bets!!!
We've finally come up with our name for a boy, if we have one. That was a great process full of laughter. He'll be named after his papa -- Siyae (pronounced See-yae). We haven't locked down a middle name, but we are doing a switch up on my name. Very filipino huh! Anyway we like it, it's actually a spin on chris's nickname C.A. It just makes sense to name the baby after family, for us it holds a lot of strength. All the other names in the books and on-line, we just couldnt get down with. So it'll be Seryl Ines or Siyae. Can you tell, we like the "S" and "y".
Ok, i think thats all i got for now. i know i have promised photos over and over again, i just need to get on it. i am actually looking pregnant---kinda. i am getting pretty rolly around the waist area, but a few of my pants still fit. Gees, 2nd trimester has been so great!!! i love it, i am half way and at this point don't want the pregnancy to end... ( i say that now being 4.5 months, ask me again at 9 months, ha!!)
alright my friends, famiy and loved ones. i'll catch you next time. i love you all. WE love you all!!
lyn and baby seryl or siyae
2008-01-23 (15 weeks)
How do ya like them APPLES!!
howdy folks -- just a brief update on us. my baby is the size of an apple. an apple!!! can you believe it. that is a significant size. can't feel it yet. i show, but only without clothes. when wearing my maternity clothes, you can't tell, although i know i am getting chubby. my ass seems to be getting bigger and is loosing it's shape, probably because my workouts have really slowed down... to nothing right now other then my daily walks with my pups. i still fit in most of my jeans, although the ones that were falling off are now fitting. i've become such a nester, i enjoy getting a blanket and reading books in my living room. i am trying to enjoy this pregnancy while also taking this chance to be with myself, while also living my life. still finding a balance between it all. i guess i am redefining myself yet again.
i forget that i am in the beginning of my saturn's return. for those of you who dont know what that is, its when saturn returns to the same place in its orbit when you were born. it lasts from about 28-ish to 31-ish, about 2-3 years, the length of time it takes to orbit around the sun. and it happens at 28 and then again at 55. it is a time of reflection and growth, a "shedding of skin", essentially saying goodbye to who you were and hello to who you now are. painful and beautiful at th same time.
obviously having a baby is part of my process, but what else? how else am i redefining myself, what am i cleaning out of my closet and saying goodbye to and what am i putting in its place. any ideas?
i'll begin adding pictures of my belly soon. i've been getting weekly updates which are hella great, but it cracks me up that every picture out there is a skinny white woman usually with no ass, and it supposed to depict what my baby looks like. gees people mix it up some! i guess in that way nothing really changes huh!
