Welcome to My Pregnancy Journal! This journal belongs to Frolayne Carlos
On average, babies weigh 7lbs, 8oz at birth and only 5% of babies are born on their actual due date - the rest come anywhere from two weeks before to two weeks after the due date
What I'm enjoying the most about my pregnancy so far is:
Chris meditating on my belly every morning.
The strangest advice I've received is:
My aunt said to draw how you want your baby to look, she swore by it... and it worked for her, so who am i to knock it?!? I haven't physically drawn the baby, but I do have a mental sketch going. She has mocha brown skin, beautiful big black hair, dimples, big eyes, and booty and legs like her mama ... so far.
Names that I've been thinking of:
For a girl, Seryl Ines Priscilla, our grandmothers names. For a boy, we are still thinking. We definitely want a name that is culturally rich and meaningful.
Girl or boy? I think you will be a:
I want a girl. Chris has 2 beautiful boys, a girl would balance it all out. However a boy is just as great. I want a healthy baby is all. I cannot wait to breath him/her in.
The old wives tales predict:
My mom says I am having a boy because i am sick in the evening. Who knows?!?!
My hopes:
Many hopes:
* I hope the baby has my dimples.
* I hope she has the spunk of her papa, who dances on whim and makes himself laugh.
* I hope this baby has a culturally rich experience incorporating both our filipino and black heritage.
* I hope that if it is a girl, we are able to protect her from the negative self-talk, self-hate, self doubt, etc we as women learn from our educational system, television, media and other women. I hope she realizes her strength and lives confidently.
* If a boy, I hope he is a conscience feminist who appreciates women, and realizes every human comes from a women's body. I hope like his papa he understands women are sacred beings that should be honored versus patronized and/or treated as second class citizens world wide. (This may sound "male-hating", but if you really understood it, it has nothing to do with being a man, it has everything to do with being a woman. For the women out there, i hope this makes sense to you...)
* I hope her/his brown skin skin is celebrated, her heritiage honored in school and not skimmed over or ignored in history books.
* I hope that my child laughs more than he cries!
My fears:
Hmm, this is kidna tough.
* I suppose one fear is the baby will inherit all of my issues, and will ultimately be messed up. This bound to happen and i think it is more about accepting this child will not be perfect and have his/her own issues.
* Another fear is society and the world. Will my child experience real hunger? will medical supplies be available to her/him when needed? Will war come to his country, and he/she has to fight for her life? I just think with the state of the world, the US has done and continues to do some henious crimes against humanity, when is it our turn? When will the US' reign come to an end and what will that look like? It has happened to all superpowers historically.
* I fear the socialization of my child. Our parenting only reaches so far before society indoctrinates our youth, but i also have to trust that eventually he/she will be able to sort through a lot of the garbage we are fed as young people and live with integrity.
Gees, now that i started, the fears just keep coming.
* I also fear what life has in store for my family. I want so badly for my child to have a stable, peaceful upbringing, but life happens and security is not guaranteed. Granted struggles in life build character, but such thougths are hard and scary.
