Second Trimester Begins! Today is the very first day of the start of my fourteenth week of pregnancy, the SECOND TRIMESTER! I am very excited and now more anxious than ever to get into the doctor. I don't really have any reservations or concerns about the health of the baby as I feel deep down that everything is normal, healthy, and looking good. However I am so ready to get another ultrasound and see the little one. In just a few weeks it will be possible to find out the gender. I really want to start planning, as I no longer feel it is too early. Plus Grand has gotten his family so excited about the pregnancy so I believe they are all very anxious to find out the gender as well. Both of our mothers have said to me they think it will be a girl. I still don't see that as a possibility though, our families have a history of BOYS! So until I find out, I will go with my gut instinct. I have tried to download some pictures but haven't figured out the error yet, so hopefully soon! Other than than, I am feeling well, eating a lot, and getting sleep, as I know in six months from now that wont really be an option any longer.
2008-02-23 (13 weeks)
First Entry, February 23 I started this journal because I am having many different feelings toward being pregnant and hoped that talking about it and thinking about it in a more abstract mannor will bring me the perspective I am seemingly lacking.
Today I am nearing the end of my first trimester. The day after tomorrow will be the beginning of week 14, and my belly is just beginning to show signs of roundness not due to bloating and gas! However, I have started to feel much better than I had the last few months and no longer recognize psychologically that there is, in fact, a child growing inside me. I just don't have pregnancy symptoms like before but I also don't look much more than just slightly "pudgy".
Grant, the daddy, and I have been in a relationship for almost two years, though it seems much longer to me. My family worries about our future because our past wasn't fairytale treasures, though it wasn't ugly or anything. It was just a new, superficial relationship like so many begin!
We have gotten so close inthe last four months, and I am so thankful that I am here with him and no one else. I have just recently began to relax about the relationship, and stop being paranoid that he is faking and planning on leaving. It is truly evident that he loves me and is very very excited that a little one will arrive this year. I know I am blessed, regardless of the seemingly psycho things that I sometimes do and say.
Well already writing just a few thoughts has helped. Really I have no exciting news about the pregnancy, except that a few weeks ago we had our first ultrasound. I was shocked, taken, and downright thrilled to see the little thing moving inside of me! He/she had long legs that were just floating around, and a big ol' head, about the size of it's body. That was at 11 weeks. I cannot wait, soon we will have more pictures to stare at and dream of our coming baby. But I will admit, I framed the first one, and Grant and I look at it everyday, anxious for the next. Weird.
