I try really hard to be happy at all times. I am super happy about my baby, I can not wait until my next visit to the doctor to hear his or her heart!!! but it seems that everything irritates me. I get moody for anything and I mostly take it out with my mom or boyfriend... :( the problem is that I cry and cry sometimes for no reason and I don’t want to make my baby sad.... How to cope with my temper?????

Since I just started this journal, I will add this scary moment of my 7th week, yes last week.

Last Monday I woke up with the most horrible headache of my entire life. I couldn’t go to work because I could not even stand up without felling a terrible pressure on my head. It is not so new since I always suffer from migraines... so I stayed home just relaxing and doing absolutely nothing. At around 5 PM, my headache was going away and I was watching TV eating an apple when I felt like going to the bathroom. Without not even thinking as I wipe myself I saw same brown discharge and I started to freak out immediately. I called my doctors and they explained that as long it was not red (like fresh blood) and I had no cramps with it, I was fine. I was on tears! I called my mom and she made my feel a lot better. I tell you the truth; I was monitoring my self like I never did before and every time I felt a little cramp I run to the bathroom… NO GOOD! I am better now….

Today I am 8 weeks and 5 days!! I am counting the days until my next appointment with the doctor because by then I will be 10 weeks exactly and they told me we will be able to listen to my little baby’s heart beat!!!.

            My last appointment was January 17. I was excited, yes… a little bit emotional also, because I did not know what to expect since it was the first time I meet my doctor. I was also nervous because I did not receive my insurance card on time and I was scared that they would send me home. I really wanted to see a doctor, I was 6 weeks and 1 day by then…. and very much exited with the big news. Everything went fine and thanks God my doctor was able to see me regardless of my insurance card. I had 3 tests done, urine, blood and a pap smear. The blood test… mmmm… well, I almost fainted, as usual with anything related with MY blood… but I will get used to it :P

I was running from one place to another the last month of December, no only because the Holidays also because we were traveling to Tennessee on January 4^th and I had to have everything ready for our so much waited vacations. I was suppose to get my period on January 3^rd (I guess I will never forget this date) but since I was so excited I really did not pay much attention to it, or maybe I did not wanted my period to came because our cabin had a Jacuzzi and I was more than ready to spend the next 10 days on it! LOL

So, we headed to Tennessee , we arrived January 4^th at around 10 pm after 13 hours of driving. My boyfriend did not felt his hands anymore!!! Literately. Well, what happened is that by January 7^th, my period was still lost and I was just thinking that maybe I could be pregnant, but really, that thought never cross my mind as an answer of my missed period. I thought that the traveling and the excitement made my body shift a little bit. I remember that evening... we went to a little supermarket and we could not find any pregnancy test... anywhere!!. Finally my boyfriend asked the cashier and she brought us the test (it was on the cigarettes section by customer service) As we were leaving the place the woman said to me “Congratulations if you are pregnant!”, We both thought “THAT ‘S IT!”

            The next morning I did the test and I just could not believe my eyes. My boyfriend was in some kind of shock also… and we run to the store to get more tests (this time we got the most expensive digital one) again 2 more test proved or doubts: I was pregnant.