I just wanted to tell you that I can relate to you. Although I'm not married to my baby's father with other children, I am pregnant and the father of the baby is an alcoholic as well as a drug addict. It makes me feel better that I am not the only one feeling so lonely and sad at times and even have a twinge of regret here and there and depression and tears. I just wanted to share a quote someone shared with me that seemed to help me. . . "Everything in life is only for now"
I know I deserve happiness and so does my baby. So do you and your family with husband or without. It's his decisions and if he's admitted he's an alcoholic, he won't get better unless he gets help. You know in AA how they say an alcoholic is powerless over alcohol. It won't get better unless he gets help. I come from a long line of alcohlics. You are stronger than you think and you're not alone. And no, you don't seem like an unstable, unfit mother. You want the best for your children, what more of a wonderful mother could they ask for? Life is hard. I know it's hard to stay postive when everything seems to be going so shitty, worrying about money (I do EVERYDAY - I honestly don't know what I was thinking, I can barely make it by myself) Anyway, I know I rambled, but it was really refreshing to read that I'm not the only one feeling the way I do and everyone else is all smiles and perfection and their husbands rub their feet on a nightly basis whereas I sleep alone.
It sucks. I'm here if you evern want to talk or anything. My due date is August 5th. Congrats on your addition. You'll be a great mom. I know it!
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