omg. im so done with being pregnant. i know, ive been saying it for weeks...months even...but im seriously D O N E !!

my average bedtime is about 1am. i wake up at 3:30am (almost on the dot) every night. from 3:30am-about 9am, i wake up every 45min-hour to pee. if i happen to slightly wake up to roll over or readjust, time to pee. its getting SO old. its hot. this weekend is going to be even hotter. my body is itchy. my back hurts. i am constantly out.of.breath. just call me huffin n' puffin the magic fat elephant. im highly IRRITABLE. i just want this damn baby OUT!! ahhhhhhhhhhh...!

mark gets to come home tomorrow. it will be intersting to see how different things are, if at all. i am hoping for the best. thats all. rant n' rave over.

it seems as though kaiser is making mega bucks off of my family right now. my aunt will have back surgery next week, her niece has been in the hospital for weeks with a serious illness, marks in residential treatment and im pregnant. weve had our share of trips to the hospital over the last few weeks.

today we got to pick up daddy from the 2nd floor "brookside" and he accompanied us to the new l&d tour. he is the first patient to be released during their stay. the tour was mostly for the kids, but still showed us where we go, where the c-section will be done and then a review of postpartum. they have remodled postpartum, so although we wont get to use the new facilities in the l&d, we will get to have a fresh "newer" room in postpartum.

i think mya was mostly bored, but it was an opportunity for her to see daddy a little extra bit, and for mark and me to see where they will do the surgery. its always a good thing to know where you are supposed to go for surgery.

anyway, mark went back for lunch and i took mya to uncle toms house so i could attend group with daddy. todays group went well. i didnt even cry (at least not until we had to leave after visitation). mark seems to be doing well and i think he is progressing in his program. i am looking forward to him coming home and i am hopeful that things will get better. i am crossing my fingers anyway.

i guess thats about it for now. tomorrow is my last day of work before ava is born. wednesday is the last group and visitation i have to attend before mark gets to come home. im sure the next few days will drag on!

omg! i am so swollen. i dont have ankles at all. my toes are so fat and my skin is tight. i hate this feeling!!

anywho...mya had her 1st day at craft camp today. she seemed to have fun and made some cute little projects. she is excited to go back tomorrow.

my tax check finally came, so i got avas carseat. i will post a pic in the photo album. i was gonna get the new jessica style (or whatever it is) but the damn thing was honking huge and i didnt want to have to worry about lugging that thing by itself, let alone with a baby in it. besides, i like the pattern of the one i got better, and it was cheaper.

i am POOPED...gonna go take a lil nappy.

today we got to see mark. mom and i went for an adult education group which was attended by family members and the patients. i was overwhelmed with emotion, i wasnt expecting at all. it was informative and im glad mom decided to go. after the group we got to have family visitation. tom brought mya and said hello and then took mom home. mya and i stayed for 1hr 30min. it was awkward and hard to think of things to talk about, but mya had a great time and was happy to see her daddy. we get to visit every wed. and sat. and i will attend groups those days as well. he said he misses us and i caught him crying a little off and on. i cried almost the whole time. this has been building up for so long and being 8+ months pregnant doesnt help! i am glad hes getting help tho and working the program. its only been 2 days, but it feels like forever.

i have so much to do around the house and such a lack of motivation. i need to get on the ball.