god, sleeping has become quite the issue the past week or so. i cannot seem to get comfortable, even with my 10,000 pillows propping my fat belly up. my skin is crawling with the itchies and swollen feet and legs dont make it any better. for some reason i get very congested just at night, which results in me sleeping with my mouth agape, which results in a. me snoring (i could care less, i cant hear it) and b. d r o o l. gross. i have to flip my pillow severa tims a night to avoid sleeping in the cold wet spot. ahhhh, the life!

i went to bed shortly after 1am and it felt like it took me forever to fall asleep, and then i woke up at about 2:15am, and here i am...writing...because i dont feel like i can fall back asleep. sonofabitch!

i wish you would just come already miss ava. its time, isnt it? cant we just get it over with and start our life together? how about if when i get up in the morning, my water breaks like it did with your sister? how does that sound? then we can rush to the hospital and get this show on the road. daddy can spend the remainder of the work week with us at the hospital (which resluts in a loss of income, but more time to spend with us--taking care of you and me) and then we will have the weekend to show you off...what do you say? is it a deal? ok...im gonna sleep on it, you sleep on it too and let me know 1st thing tomorrow. im leaning more towards "yea, sure, thats sounds like a plan..."

ok, im gonna go try to go back to sleep now. nighty night.

so yesterday i was up cleaning for almost 6 hours. on my feet in the heat...around 5pm i started noticing contractions. i was having them every 10-15 minutes...lasting only 30 sec to 1 min. this went on for several hours. mark and i attended AA and for a bit they stopped, but started again. i was excited. thought maybe THAT was IT...no such luck. of course i called l&d and they told me to drink 32 oz. of water and lay on my side and relax, count the contractions and pay attention for baby to move. the contractions slowed down and eventually stopped. boo-hoo. ive had a few small ones today, but not consistant or regular. damn! i was hoping maybe ava would make her apperance earlier than proposed. i am so done with non-stress testing, swollen legs, feet and hands. itchy skin and nausea and back ache. i just want to be done! i donno...

i guess i was just thinking that maybe we would get lucky and have our little girl a little early. there is still hope. i am crossing my fingers.

well, we are now at 13 days until d-day. im getting excited and anxious. yesterday i had a non-stress test that i ended up having to reschedule due to a dental emergency with feef. she has had a large cavity in her lower left back molar that finally got so bad it made her cry. we have been on the waiting list for 2 months, but had to schedule an emergency appt. to get it fixed. its not how i wanted her to spend her first "filling" appt. at the dentist, but she did really well. i am so proud of her. the cavity spread from the back molar to the one next to it and they ended up having to pull that tooth. what a trooper! 5 years old and had a tooth pulled, and didnt really even cry. i was amazed at how well she handled it, especially since im such a wimp when it comes to the dentist.

ended up going to non-stress after all. baby is doing well and my b/p was a little high. they told me to take it easy--and im thinking, how? there is SO much to do and so little time to do it all. the weather today is a little cooler, so im taking advantage and trying to get some stuff cleaned up and oragnized.

the people we loaned the crib to delivered it to us today, minus the mattress. she said shes gonna buy us a new one as they are using our old one for their toddler bed. oh well, i dont care, but i hope we get it soon. im thankful to have it back before ava arrives...i want to be able to put her in it and do things around the house and not have to worry...also, i want her to get used to sleeping in it before too long.

hmmmm...i guess thats about it for now. dr. vesco is thinking ava will be between 9-10 lbs. by 39 weeks. so, we shall see. i hope shes not too big! last time i got all clothes that were too big, so this time i collected smaller sizes, and watch--now we wont need the smaller stuff. go figure.

ok, gonna go back to work now. tata.