tonight, while watching a movie with daddy...i felt you move (for sure) for the first time. you kicked fairly hard just below my belly button.

yay! i was getting worried. now i feel better.

it seems like i just wake up each day just waiting for it to be over and the next to come. i feel like i am wasting a huge portion of my life. pregnancy consumes almost an entire year...and i find myself just wishing it would breeze by and be over with.

i was hoping i would be one of those happy pregnant women, ya know, one of the ones that have that "glow" and are always smiling and are happy. my morning sickness is mild now, especially with the help of the zofran, but i still wish i could just feel normal once again. i am so close to being half way, and i hope once there...the time just zips by. i want this baby, but i am sick of being pregnant and i want it to be over ASAP!

i cant imagine women who go thru this time after time after time. like those women who have like a gazillion children and are pregnant for like 15 years almost straight thru. its CRAZY! i wouldnt get pregnant again if someone paid me a million dollars. truth. i HATE being pregnant.

its been a few weeks since our last appointment. we heard the heart beat, but since then...no movement or anything. its a little nerveracking and im anxious for our next appointment--then two days later we will have our ultrasound. i pray the baby cooperates and shows us his/her parts. i really need to know if its a boy or a girl.

i am bored and tired and unmotivated to do anything.

well...we are off to week 17. things are going SO MUCH BETTER (knock on wood). i am afraid to say or even write it for fear that it will jinx me. the zofran seems to be doing the trick and im able to get up and move around. i can drive. i can shop. i can cook dinner. wow...

so, week 17 is supposed to be the point where you can start to hear voices. i guess id better watch my mouth, huh?!?

i still havent felt you move. im guessing that you must be lazy like your father. its kind of nerve racking tho...i mean, its been a few weeks since i heard your heartbeat and since i havent felt you move, it worries me...especially since i am feeling so much better. i pray every day that everything is OK. i guess most mothers prolly worry like that tho. im sure nothing is wrong.

in two weeks we get to have another ultrasound. hopefully this time we will get to find out if you will be ava claire or emmett eguene. its exciting. yaya took the day off work so she could come watch with your big sister. i think it will be very cool. last time we only got to have one ultrasound and it was just daddy and me.

ah, well...i am avoiding cleaning. mya has a mass of toys, most of which she doesnt even play with. i have to organize them and put them away in bins with labels so we can keep this place picked up. i wish i had more help!! its hard to motivate myself to do the work, especially when nobody else chips in.

ok, gonna go now. start moving!

well, we had our 2nd prenatal appt. on monday. seems all is ok. my uterus measures about 3 weeks ahead, but baby is @ 15 weeks. instead of measuring in office, i will probably have to have more frequent ultrasounds to watch growth. there is no explination of why its big. could be genetics, could be weight related, but she said its prolly just the way im built.

took the early glucose test. im glad to have it over. i didnt have to fast this time and wasnt as nauseated when i drank the orange goop, so i actually got it down and kept it down! yay. havent gotten the results back yet. my ua came up with yeast spores in it, but no infection. ive never had a yeast infection and dont want to have one...the advice nurse said some people just have it sometimes and if it started to turn into anything or started to bother me i could get something otc for it. so far, so good.

i ended up gagging myself last night (not on purpose of course) and vomited. my face is all broken out again and i really look like hell. i ended up taking a zofran because about 5 min. before i vomited i had taken my phenegran, and i didnt know if it was safe to take another so soon. so, down went the 1st zofran of this pregnancy. last time i LIVED on that stuff. i didnt think it would do anything, but i didnt want to continue to get sick so i took it. since i took it, i have had NO nausea and (knock on wood) have been feeling SO MUCH BETTER. i assume its the zofran and not that i magically hit week 15 and things took a turn for the better. i am CROSSING my fingers that it will continue to work, this may make the rest of pregnancy liveable and i might actually be able to get up and do stuff. i even went in the car, which i havent done in weeks except to go to work...and even then, i get sick. tonight i didnt get sick at all. its a great feeling. yay!

we have another ultrasound scheduled for march 12th. i will be at 19 weeks then, and hopefully they will be able to tell us the sex. i cannot wait. i want to start buying things we need and be able to get gender specific items. it seems like years away, but i hope it gets here fast.

i guess thats it for now. mya and i made cheezy valentines cards for daddy and yaya tonight. it sucks being broke! tata for now.