So my back is killing me.  It hurts all the time. The only time it doesn't really hurt is when I'm in bed. I can't hardly walk even with out my back and belly starting to ache. I quess if I walked more it wouldn't bother me so bad.

The baby's kick are getting stronger all the time and I can feel the almost all the baby's moves. Our little one is very active when I'm at work, and I have firured out that the baby likes Taco Bell. How not to really, I have it almost every week since it's one of my cravings.  I was actually able to get the bay to move around the other by poking around a little. I loved it, it was the first time I got a response. Darren thought I was being mean, but never mind him.

Well I have to get the office ready to open. TTFN

One thing that I certainly wasn't prepared for is the little things that come with being pregnant that ya just don't expect.

Like, the lack of a brain. I swear my child is getting all my brain cells. I couldn't even remenber what age I'm going to be this year. I can't even do basic math (1+1=5)  I can't remember my phone number half the time.

There's also the clumsiness. Of course for those of you who who know me, that's not anything new. But boy has it gotten worse. I have to walk very carefully so I don't trip or fall. Oh, and bumping into things is the worst for me. I don't a day without bumping or hitting something. I even hit the soap dish in the shower the other day. I've lived in this house for 2 years and have never hit it. Boy did I have a bruise!

Not to gross anyone out, but I certainly wasn't expecting the bodily funtions that worsen either. The gas and the burbs. Poor Darren, as if it wasn't bad enough before getting pregnant, it's sure worse now. Although, last couple of days, I think Darren must be pregant to.  

We bought our first baby purchase yesterday, just something small. We haven't bought anything yet for fear of miscarriage, but now that everything looks ok to us, we went ahead. We bought 3 little onsies from Target. They each had a saying on it:

Instructions Not Included

Don't Wake Me, I'll Wake You

Nothings Wrong, Just Testing You

Even though we don't know the sex of the baby, we bought them because they are white onsies, and the lettering is black. I thought they would be cute for around the house. To my surprise, it was Darren who wanted to buy them. Up till now, he hasn't really wanted to because o the uncertainty we felt. We also bought some wipes at Walmart. I figure diapers and wipes are couple things we'll go through alot the first few months so start now.

We have another appointment with the Doctor tomorrow, and I'm hoping he'll send me for another ultrasound. If he does, we should be able to finally know what we're having.

Thats all I can think of for now. TTFN

 I am so tired! My Grandpa & Step Grandma are here from Iowa visiting. We planned to see them today, so I went to bed last night, not tired but eventually fell asleep. I made sure to get up early so that I would be able to sleep tonight before work. (I work at Midnight) I went to bed at 8 pm, right after my family dropped me off at home, I didn't sleep a wink. By the time I get off work at 8 am, I'll have been wake for 24 hours. I'm beat now, (2:15 am) I can't imagine how tired I'll feel at 8. I guess it comes with the territory when you're pregnant.

On the up side, I enjoyed my visit with Grandpa and Grandma. We stayed for dinner and plan to visit again at my cousins grad party Saturday.

I think I'm just about ready to start nesting, I feel the urge coming on stronger and stonger everyday and am looking forward to getting some good housework and sorting done. The place needs good cleaning from top to bottom. One thing that will help is that we're going to be putting in laminate flooring in the living room and hallway. So as we get ready to do that, it will fit perfetly in with getting those two rooms done. I feel like throwing out everything in the house out and starting over. It's just a good thing that we can't afford to replace everything, otherwise Darren and I would be in major trouble.  

Wednesday is 22 weeks. Yay!

TTFN!!

So despite all the things that have happened bodywise (backaches, headaches, feeling so rotton I felt like I should've had a hangover, the stress of spotting, the car accident) to me during this pregnancy, some of which I expected, and some I didn't, I've concluded that pregnancy is still a very exciting thing.

First finding out I was pregnant, telling the family then friends, the joy of the hearing the heartbeat for the first time, the first ultrasound, feeling the baby move, planning what to buy for furniture. It's just so exciting.

Yet, at the same time, so scary. I have to say that I am TERRIFIED of labor and delivery. The pain of it all, deciding 'do I take this pain killer or not, epidural or not, what if I have to have a ceasarean?' All the decisions that have to be made in this reagrd are terrfiying to me. The only labor & delivery decision I've made is that I don't want an episiotomy. I'm completely against it. I'm going to try that massage thing I've heard about in hope that if I do tear, it will be very minimal. But we'll see.

I'm having trouble finding maternity clothing in plus size. Dresses are practically non exsistant, and even modest tops are hard to find.  I'm a very modest person, and the thought of having to much showing is no good for me. Pant's aren't a problem. I have a solution for the dresses though. I found a lovely dress pattern online ....

http://www.voguepatterns.com/item/V2750.htm?tab=maternity_intimate_apparel&page=1

I love the middle one, it's perfect for our California summer which the rest of my pregnancy will be spent in. I plan to have several dresses made from this pattern, with the sleeves being just a bit longer, and the v necline a little higher. The length is perfect! And the great thing about this pattern is that if my husband and I decide to have more children in the future, I can pull the pattern and have more dresses made! Now I just need a few more tops and couple more pairs of pants and I should be set for the rest of my pregnancy.

Last few days I've had a real bad backache, it seems to be worse after I eat though. Resting on my left side helps aliviate some of the pain. I'm starting to show more and boy, do I feeling like my tummy is really popping.

We found out today that a friend of ours is 3 weeks pregnant with her first baby. I'm thrilled for her and her husband!

TTFN