On Thursday I went in for my 32 week check-up. I hadn’t had any changes from the last time I went in so I didn’t think anything of it; although, this time I was seeing Dr.Silver for the first time.  Dr.Silver did an internal exam and said my cervix felt thin and short.  My heart sank.  He started talking about scheduling an internal ultrasound and getting tested for preterm labor and possibly bedrest.  I was in total shock.  Before I knew it, I was at the front desk getting an appointment for first thing Friday morning.

Friday morning Brian and I went to the new Liberty Township office and had another ultrasound.  The technician said she thought my cervix and baby looked good. (Aww, some relief.)  Dr.Silver said although my cervix was in the short range, it was still measuring within average.  However, he still did the fetofibronectin test to see if I could go into pre-term labor.  At this point I just thought he was very cautious and didn’t think twice that I could go into labor any day, after all I still had two more months until my due date.

If the test came back positive, I would have a 50 percent chance of delivering early, I would have to get two steroid injections called thetamesosone to develop the baby’s lungs, and I would be put on bedrest.  If the test was negative, I wouldn’t have to change anything.

I went into school not knowing the results yet and was sent back home and told to relax.  Even then I was thinking, why am I not at school.  I feel fine.  There is no way that this test will come back positive.  I was supposed to get the results at 2 at the nurse called me at 11:30- the test came back positive.  I talked to Dr.Silver again and he reiterated the bedrest and told me if he were me he would float in a pool for the rest of the summer.  After I hung up the phone I sat on the couch in disbelief.  The test had to be wrong.  I felt fine.  I called Brian crying and like a champ he was able to cheer me up. 

I know we’ll get through this and everything will be fine but it’s so hard thinking that there could be complications outside of our control.  I am learning to cope with the whole bedrest thing but I am suffering from wanting to have everything for the baby organized now just in case he’s coming sooner rather than later.   My goal is to make it to 36 weeks, that’s what the doctor’s are considering full term now.  We can do it!

We had our 2nd ultrasound yesterday and everything is looking good.  The placenta was nice and high and away from the cervix.  Dr.Johnson thinks a blood vessel detached from around the cervix area and that's what caused the bleeding.  He also said that I should refrain from all housework but that shopping was okay.  (I don't think Brian bought it though.)  The baby is measuring about 3 1/4 pounds, which is a little big but it's too early to tell if he will be big at the time of delivery.  He is starting to fill out too.  His cheeks are more round than the last time.  He might look more like me than I was expecting.  I had the round cheeks when I was born.  But he definately has Brian's skinny legs!  :)

Sunday we had quite a scare.  We were just about to eat and celebrate Kari's Graduation when I went to the bathroom and was bleeding.  I had a million thoughts running through my head.  My first reaction was denial so I got up and washed my hands.  Then I went back and checked again.  Yep, I wasn't imagining it.  So I ran downstairs, told Brian, and then called Dr.Packard on call at the hospital.  She said I needed to come in immediately.  I think I was in a daze the entire trip to the hospital.  I know Brian was trying to talk to me and reassure me but I think I was in my own world trying to figure out what could have triggered it.

We got admitted to the hospital and then I had an exam.  Good news is that my cervix isn't thinning or dilating.  The bad news is that they did not have a diagnosis.  I was kind of hoping it was a bladder infection so I knew what it was and it could be treated.  Now I'm even more scared not knowing what it is.

I tried going to school today but I was still bleeding, cramping, and couldn't feel the baby so I came home and did a kick count.  The baby was active after I had some chocolate, which is a relief.  I have another appointment Wednesday.  Hopefully, something will be figured out then.