It's been a very crappy week, emotionally with everything that's going on with my family life. Things took a turn for the worst today and I spent the day in the emergency room with my sister sho wasn't doing well at all.  They let her go home at suppertime though.  I came home and everything just kind of hit me all at once, I felt dizzy and layed down for a minute...

That turned into an hour where I just completely passed out and slept like the dead.

Chris made dinner while I was asleep, steak, rice and brussel sprouts.  Normally I'd be up for that kind of supper but I just didn't feel like eating it at all.  I wanted a cheeseburger...badly!  Chris went to McDonalds for me to get me 2 cheeseburgers and fries... It was so good. I felt like a jerk waking up to a cooked meal and not wanting it at all. Chris is really understanding, and after the shitty day I had, I think he just figured it would be easier than force feeding me.  I have the best boyfriend in the whole world. 

Our Nuchal Translucency Scan is next wednesday, so close yet so far away!  I'm just really hoping that I'll get to at least have a peek at the screen, I'm still pissed that I didn't get a heart beat the last appointment.

I've gained back the weight that I lost during the first 9 weeks of pregnancy. I figure it was all water cause I haven't really been eating a whole lot more than usual. But thankfully I'm keeping things down and keeping fluid down now.

I'm going to sleep like a baby tonight, I'm completely drained, I feel like I could sleep for 2 whole days.

I had myself as psyched up to see or hear our baby's heartbeat... but the appointment went more like this:

-Pee in this cup

-Fill out a form asking a billion questions

-Get weighed (and find out you've lost 4lbs from being sick)

-Sit in a sterile room for 15 minutes

-Have some OBGYN(not your own) go on and on about the dos and don'ts of pregnancy

-Get a prescription for Diclectin (anti-nausient)

-Get send to have blood drawn and pee in another cup

I figure that by the end of my pregnancy I'll be pretty good at aiming my urine stream... I was thouroughly dissapointed that we didn't get a heart beat, I felt a lot like that appointment was a big waste of time. Except that the Diclectin is doing wonders for me at the moment. When we got the the pharmacy they told me how much it would be for a 3 month supply of Diclectin (which nearly knocked me on my ass!) $480!!!!!! YOWZA I ended up with only a months worth and it was still $180!!

I have to say that I feel a heck of a lot better the past few days after taking it though, and so far so good, I haven't even thrown up once.

We have an appointment for a screening on the 26th, it will tell us if the baby is high risk for down's syndrome and other chromosomal abnormalities. It's called a Nuchal Translucency Scan. The test is painless and done by an ultrasound rather than amniocentesis. It's suppose to help us decide whether or not we need futher diagnostic testing. I have mixed feelings about the test, maybe I don't want to know... But I realize that I need some kind of preparation if there is a chance that something is wrong with the baby. 

I also have an appointment for August 10th to for sure get a heart beat and have a pap test. get weighed and pee in another cup! So impatiently I have another 3 weeks and 5 days to wait until I really get to find out if there's twins or not.

So everything seems ok so far, the bleeding looks like it has stopped altogether for now, and I'm not feeling ill. Just dealing with some muscle stretching and cramps and such, the worst is my right hip being sore and feeling like it's out of joint.  I figured my hips were wide enough for birthing already, but apparently mother nature has different news for me.

Oh yah I almost forgot, our due date is 2 days earlier than we had originally thought, so now we're due the 5th of February rather than the 7th, which is funny since there's already 3 births in my close family on the 5th of Oct, Dec, and March....lol!

Time to get ready, I have a housewarming party to attend today!

Take Care everybody!

I'm not sure what's going on, before I was just a little concerned that I hadn't gained anything yet, like the 2-6lbs that's normal in the first trimester...

But I weighed myself and somehow have managed to lose another 3 lbs... I'm not complaining about the weight loss but that can't be good for the baby.

I've been  having trouble with dehydration from the start so i hope that's not what my problem is. I hate to think that my baby is squished in there and doesn't have enough amniotic fluid to float around in!

Chris is taking me for my first OBGYN appointment today, hopefull ythey will have some answers for me and help set my mind at ease.

I'll post again later when I know what's going on!

I have this huge aversion to meat! Normally I'm a meat lover, bring on the steak/roast/chicken/fish...

Lately I can't stand even looking at or touching raw meat, I also can't stand the smell of meat cooking. My boyfriend Chris made Salmon with supper the other night, normally I would dive right in, but I couldn't even bring myself to put it on my plate!! 

I have to sit by the balcony door with the fan blowing air into my face just so I don't get sick.

I feel so lazy from being sick, everything turns my tummy! I just want to go back to normal so I can get something done! Like my pile of laundry, and cleaning our apartment!