I've officially outgrown my pants.  I was still wearing them even though they were a little uncomfortable, but last night I had to undo the button on my jeans, so it's time to kiss them goodbye for now.  I've been trying to hold off on buying anything since Chris's sister Sue has a box full of maternity clothes waiting for me in Edmonton.  The only problem is we're not going out there until the end of the month, and until then all that fits are my scrub pants!Most of my shirts are ok still though, so I don't have to worry about that yet.

I'm happy to have hit the 12 weeks mark though. It's a big milestone, the chances of a miscarriage now are less than 5%. That makes me feel a bit better!

I've started gaining a little wieght, only a few lbs, which is normal for this stage of things.  I'm at that stage where people can see a little belly but it looks more like I'm fat then I'm pregnant. Supposedly this is the stage where people say that you're "glowing" because of all the hormones and your skin is kinda oily..so far I only notice more pimples LOL.

Well the good news is Chris talked to the HR at his work and they added me to his benefits, so I'll no longer be paying full price for my expensive pills! Woohoo!

On wednesday next week we have another ultrasound appoinment, this one should be better than the last one. The baby will be quite a bit bigger and we will get to bring pictures home of our cute little peanut!   I'll see if my mom will scan them for us when we visit her next thursday. That way I can put them up on here for everyone else to look at.

It's starting to sink in that this is real. Chris and I were walking around in Sears looking at their baby clothes, and crib accessories. And of course Chris went right to the strollers and was looking at one of those weird 3 wheeled high tech ones.

It also gave us a perspective on how much this baby is going to cost YOWZA!!! I think I'll be frequenting the clearance section in Sears when they have their extra 25% off clearance days. Then I can at least pick up neutral sleepers and undershirts until we know if it's a he or she. 

Feeling pretty good!

Ultrasound pics will hopefully be up by next friday!

Just thought I would post once for the 11 week mark.

Things are going fairly well, I'm only feeling sick mostly in the mornings, and a little bit in the afternoon. The vommitting is gone completely though, so that's what matters.

Seems like out of nowhere I got this pooched out little belly. I just woke up one morning and there it was!!! Little peanut is making my belly into a nice cushy swimming pool.

The muscle pains and cramps don't freak me out as much anymore, especially since i go to see the heart beating away.  It's not as scary as when it first started.

Chris got us a camera, a really nice one too!  So there should be belly pics to follow in the near future.  I'm just trying to figure out what I can wear that will fit through the whole pregnancy so I can get good comparison shots.  I'm leaning towards my tiger jammies... my sister wore the same ones while she was pregnant with Victoria, so it's kinda fitting. It's also strechy so it should expand with me.

Other than that still feeling tired a lot, I get pooped after just a few hours.  Sometimes even just doing the dishes or going to get the mail makes me tired!  Oh yah...and I still have gas...everyday...LOL. I still haven't really gained anything, just gained back the weight I had lost being sick and maybe like 1 pound.  I'm not worried about it, i'm eating and I'm sure the baby is getting more than enough.

Craving bread/pasta/ aything strachy. weird... I used to be able to go months without bread, now I NEED it lol.

Take care! I'll post again in a few days, once I hit the 12th week mark.

Well I have to say that I feel SO much better, having seen the baby's heart beat.

It was hard to decifer what was on the screen but I could kind of make out where the head and arms and legs were.

The baby's heat beat was 170 beats per minute.  We could see the little heart flashing on the screen.  And yep there was only one little peanut in there! PHEWWW!!! LOL

My bladder was really full for the ultrasound so the baby's living space was kind of cramped, he/she was all curled up in the corner.  Poor thing lol, at least I got to empty my bladder shortly after that. They told me to drink 2 8oz glasses of water before 9:30, but I just couldn't do it, I got one and a half down before I felt like I might throw up from it.  Next time I'm only going to drink one though, because my bladder was "too full" according to the technitian, and the baby was being squished by my bladder!

Unfortunately it was too early for them to conduct the tests they were trying to do.  My due date changed again today after they measured how long the baby is from head to rump... A whopping 42 millimeters lol.  I guess the baby needsz to be 45 millimeters for them to test, so we get to go back again in two weeks for a second try. I did complete the blood test portion of it though so at least I won't have to get poked again for at least 2 weeks.

The new due date is February 16th :) Chris's Bday lol... February is going to be a busy month for us!

We were going to get pictures today, but since we're going back in a few weeks anyways we will get some done then, that way we'll be able to see baby a little better.

No bleeding or cramps today ~keeping my fingers crossed~ so far so good.

But I need a nap pretty bad right now, so take care and I'll post again later.

Edited further down.  I tossed and turned all night, I was crampy and uncomfortable.

I woke up shortly before the alarm went off at 6 to wake Chris up for work. I sat down on the toilet and before I started peeing I could hear dripping, NOT AGAIN!?!?!

Yep blood, I couldn't keep my composure after having a crappy sleep and realizing that I was bleeding, and heavier than the spotting I had a few weeks ago.

I started crying, hard for a few minutes.  Then I went back to my room, and cried on Chris.

I planned to call my doctor when I woke up because they're not open that early.   I got up at 10 and the bleeeding has slowed to almost nothing.  Should I still call my doctor?  I was told just to walk into emergency at the hospital if I started bleeding heavier, but it seems to have stopped...  THere's just no formal guide to follow when it comes to bleeding, and the last time I mentioned it to my doctor she didn't think it was anything to worry about...

what should I do!?!?!?

Edited:  I tried calling my OBGYN, no one ever seems to answer the phone there, which I find quite alarming, I don't even have to option of switching offices since everyone in this city is so overwhelmingly busy.

Anyways I gave up trying to call there and I called the health link nurse, it's a hotline that's answered by RN's in Calgary.  I told her what had happened, plus I passed a really small clot, like the size of my thunb nail, only thicker.  Again I was told not to worry, some people bleed.  I'm afraid that I'm getting shitty advice because the health community in calgary is so overwhelmed. I think they would just rather I miscarry at home if something really is wrong with this pregnancy.  I don't feel comforted at all by anyone I've talked to about my problem.

I'll bring this all up tomorrow when I go for the ultrasound. I don't feel like my concerns are being met by compassion, I don't feel like anyone cares...just another day at the office.. you know?

I spent most of the day just laying on the couch watching tv, and the past few hours I slept. I have no appettite.  I should drink more, but I'm not thirsty either, and the thought of putting anything in there just doesn't appeal to me. In short I FEEL ICKY. 

It's so hot these past few days I can barely stand it! I've been hoping it might rain or something, but so far, no such luck....

I should be excited about my scan tomorrow, but now I'm scared they're goingt o tell me that things aren't going well...I just don't want to hear any bad news at all.

Funny how you can be so attached to someone you've only known about for 2 months, and never even met...

Thanks to everyone who signed my geustbook today, all the advice was helpful and made me feel a little better.