ANGER
So wednesday we went for round 2 of our nuchal transluscency scan. We went in and the technician was trying to get a measurement of the space at the back of the baby's neck. The baby was wiggling around and wouldn't go where she wanted baby to. SO after about 30 minutes of watching our little peanut dance and squirm she decided that she was going to send me for a walk. She wanted to see if the baby would change positions for her.
So Chris and I went for a 15 minute walk and then came back to the waiting room where we were called in a second time. But this time I got a different technician. She was really short with us, she seemed peeved that we were taking up her precious time, and she got even more peeved when the baby was all balled up and wouldn't take the position she needed him/her to be in. And this is where I got VERY ANGRY...
Has this happened to anyone else? I don't think it's procedure! She took the little ultrasound hand held and found a good place right beside the baby, then she repeatedly jammed the baby with the machine!! She was pressing so hard just doing the regular part I was in pain, and then she just started banging away like I was a nail and she was a hammer. You could see the baby get rattled and squirm, but never get into the right position. She just kept getting madder and doing it harder! Is this normal? I mean I don't know a whole lot about how safe that is for the baby, but it certainly felt very wrong!
I wish I had said something, or talked to someone at the front desk about it, but I was so appalled...I kind of left there in shock, and then bawled all the way home. My abdomen is still sore, it feels like it's all bruised, but she didn't leave any marks behind.
This baby, although unexpected, has changed how I feel about things. I just want to be a good mom. I really thought that this would be a wonderful experience, and it is. But sometimes I just feel like I'm an inconvenience and that I'm a pain in the ass for everyone else. I'm trying not to complain about the pain, discomfort, nausea, sore boobs...
Well I did get ultrasound pictures, and they're really cute! I do have to go back there again on monday for the third time (this appointment was only supposed to take one visit). If I want I can get more pictures then, but I'm happy with the ones we already have. I didn't get a chance to scan them yesterday, but I'll eventually get them up on here too for everyone to see.
Yesterday I had a full physical at the obgyn office. I liked the doctor there, she was nice, and she let us hear the baby's heart beating "whoosh whoosh" it was so cute! I won't get into any detyails on what else she did ~shudder~ I hate pelvic exams. The Doctor was super nice and made me feel surprisingly comfortable. I hope she's the doctor who's there to deliver when baby comes. There's 8 in that office and they take turns being on call.
Well this post is getting long and I'm in need of a nap. I would appreciate some advice on what to do about that technician...should I report her or is this just procedure? I wish I knew a technicain I could ask!
Take care!
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