I havent written in this diary for a while, mainly because there isnt anything new to tell! I have another 3 and a half weeks till my next midwife appointment, babys not moving or showing, so its all a bit dull really! Ive been feeling quite well physically, my jeans are starting to get tight at the end of the day but that may be due to my over-eating! Ive also been feeling quite low, the health visitor thinks im suffering from antenatal depression, and so i am seeing the doctor monday to get some pregnancy-friendly anti-depressants, which will hopefully ward off PND when baby arives. The health visitor is also sorting out some counselling, so i should be all better soon!
Its a difficult time in the pregnancy, im not sure i feel properly pregnant, just tired and moody and occasionally sick, not showing, no movements, so its all a bit surreal. I just cant wait for something to change!
2008-02-14 (10 weeks)
The baby is real! We had the scan yesterday, and there really is a baby in there!! My dates are out, so instead of being 12 weeks, we are 10 weeks, and due 11th september instead of 25th august! The girls were very pleased with their new sibling, Ella keeps wanting to see the pic! Another bonus is that i can have the sterilisation at the same time as the c section, so thats a relief! Am still hungry, and peeing all the time, but so in love with my little baby bean!
2008-02-06 (8 weeks)
Jabs, bears and moody cows!
Today was my appointment with the midwife! My blood pressure and urine were all ok and she took the bloods, which Ella found very interesting! She even wanted a "eedle" herself! The midwife said it probably wouldnt be possible to hear babys heartbeat just yet, and didnt want to try in case she couldnt find it, as that would worry me, so i have to wait a week to find out if there is actually a person in there! Argh! I mentioned that i am always cold, and that my hands and feet go numb and blue and my lips go blue, and she said to see the doctor, as this is quite worrying!
So i popped next door to the doctor, and after numerous reflex tests and questions, he decided to take more blood! So today ive had 4 bottles out of one arm and 3 out the other, its a wonder i can still stand! He is testing for thyroid problems, diabetes and something else i cant remember, i will get the results Monday hopefully, and take action from there. I have to say im a little scared!
Yesterday i fainted at the bus stop, and was feeling so sick, eating didnt help, so after I dropped Leah at school, me and Ella went to bed for an hour. I felt much better after that, i guess i was tired and dehydrated. Another symptom thats bugging me is my awful temper has come back, Ella was crying for an hour yesterday and im afraid i lost it and shouted at her. I put her to bed early and apologised this morning, she has been fine today, as have i, i think we bounce off eachother with my hormones! It was the same when i was carrying Ella, Leah and i clashed big time. Im making a concious effort to behave!
I have a new craving! Frozen Haribo bears! Much better than pastry or air fresheners! But if im diabetic, they will have to go, so im praying im not!
1 week till scan!
2008-02-02 (8 weeks)
Feeling better? Well i thought i was feeling better, i have had a couple of days off from the sickness except for when i brush my teeth, but its back with a vengeance today!My skin is dry, my hair greasy, my nails brittle, im constantly hungry, tired and thirsty too! But im quite pleased as it means baby is ok! I really think its a girl, even though everyone wants a boy! We have been discussing names at length and have decided to let Leah choose the middle name, she likes Ruby or Daisy for a girl! I really like Alexa as it can be shortened to Lexie which is sweet, but no viable boys names as yet. I like Kai but Petes not keen, i also like Tyler but everyone is called that! Scan in 11 days!
