Yesterday i woke up feeling really nervous for some reason, i dont know why! Pete was at work so Carly came with me to see Mr Lobb at the hospital.

When we got there they wanted a urine sample, and did all the usual malarkey, but they found a trace of protein in my urine, so it has been sent off for analysis. Mr Lobb said that baby Tyler would be born on the 5th September, but that is only 2 days before Ella's birthday, meaning i would probably be in hospital that day. So he agreed to change it to the 8th. He booked my pre-op assessment for the 4th  September, and we left the hospital. I was feeling a bit miffed that Tyler would be coming the day after Ella's birthday, and that Ella would have to stay at Sharlenes the night of her birthday when a midwife came running after me in the car park! It turns out they werent doing any sections on the 8th, and so it would be the 9th instead!

So, to summarise! I will have my pre-op assessment on the 4th September at 2pm, and then Tyler will be born on the 9th September! Which works out lovely, as then Leah can go to school for the first week of term, and Ella can have a party on her birthday. The girls will then stay at Sharlenes on the night of the 8th, and Pete will pick them up once Tyler is born.

I am so excited now, it really feels real!! We put the cot up in our room today and it has made me all giddy with excitement! My bags are packed and ready to go, im getting my pram next week as well, so then we are ready!

26 days till we meet baby Tyler, i cant wait!

I went to my 35 week check up on wednesday and it was a different midwife that i saw. I mentioned how active Tyler is, and that i was worried he is small, she measured me and the measurements are fine and in fact his head is 3/5 engaged! Eek! Lets hope it means he will come soon, dont get me wrong, i like our "wiggle time" and i want to see the pregnancy through and not put Tyler at risk but at the same time im hurting so badly all the time, always in tears, not sleeping etc which is making life difficult especially as its the summer holidays and the girls want entertaining!

I know im whingeing and i should be grateful especially after learning that Jemma's baby died. I really am thankful that Tyler is such a little fighter and 5 weeks isnt really that long is it? My original date according to my LMP is 17 days away! And then another 17 days after that he is due!

I have my appointment with the consultant in 5 days, hopefully once ive got my date i should cheer up! xxx

I cant believe its only 5 and a half weeks until Tyler is due! Im panicking slightly as i still havent bought a pram yet! Ive got everything else pretty much, just need essentials like nappies and milk etc. I finally got round to making a list of what to pack in the hospital bag, need to get Pete to find my big bag out of the loft so i can start packing it!

So things are starting to take shape around here, the kids are super-excited but there is one major thing on my mind atm. My grandad has been diagnosed with terminal cancer. It is in his lungs and now spread to his brain, they are giving him two lots of radiotherapy next week, and thats all they can do. They have basically said that if the radiotherapy works he will live a few months, if it doesnt he will have a few weeks. Im finding this very hard to deal with, what with hormones and everything, and i feel really powerless, and out of control. There is nothing i can do, and its breaking my heart.

Im trying as much as i can to not think about it, which is probably not for the best but i know how stress can affect the unborn child first-hand from when my nan died while i was pregnant with Ella. She has been a moody cow since birth and didnt sleep for 8 months, and has now been diagnosed with asthma. Im sure that the stress i was under during the pregnancy from my nan's illness and death and also the break-up of my mother and stepdad's marriage has affected her long term. So im trying to remain as stress free as i can for Tyler. Not sure its working though!

In other baby-related news, Tyler is getting very strong nowadays, sometimes he takes my breath away when he kicks, he really hurts! He seems to have settled into a head-down position although his feet tend to change sides quite often, one day i will get kicks under my right ribs, the next day it will be the left side. I have a midwife appointment on wednesday then the week after that i see the consultant for a date for the section!

Serves me right for being so smug i guess. I had been really chuffed about the lack of heartburn, however it has suddenly been really bad, not just at night but during the day too! Im also really poorly, not sure what is wrong with me. I feel flu-ey but its probably just hayfever. And exhaustion. Seriously i am shattered, on a good night i wake up every 2 hours. Last night was mediocre, i was awake every 45-90 mins, i am so tired today! But better than the night before when i slept from 10.30-midnight then awake till 4am, then slept till 6.30am.

In other news, i had been worried about not receiving an appointment to see the consultant. He told me at 12 weeks that he wanted to see me at 36 weeks (which seemed so far away at the time, and now is 3 weeks away!) I rang the hospital yesterday and they said i needed to make the appointment myself! So a good job i rang! So i now have an appointment for 13th August at 1.30pm, which Pete cant make, we need him to work, as we need the money! But at least i have an appointment now, and can get things moving!

On monday i will be buying all the odds and sods that we need for baby Tyler, and that will leave just the pram, milk and nappies to buy! (slightly worrying!) Im a bit unorganised this time round!