we had our midwife appointment yesterday. everything is looking good so far. josee took jimmy's heartbeat and it was 155. it's been pretty steady so far. last time it was at 154bpm. she also meassured where the top of my uterus was and she said it was 28cm. she said that for the most part the meassurement of the top of the uterus is a good comparisson to how far along you are. last time it was bang on 22 this time she said it was harder to find the top. she said had had strong abs so it was hard to find the top. I'll be the judge of that one!

she also said that when i get bigger and further along that it'll be even cooler when you can see the baby's foot or hand through your stomache. she also said seeing as i'm so small it'll probably be easier for me to see the baby through my stomach too when they do kick or move etc. people have told me this before and I thought it was neat but i told a few people about it and they didn't believe me, so now i can say my midwife said so :) that'll be neat to see.

I've also been seriously thinking about having a home birth and we talked about that yesterday as well. the only concern i had was how comfortable it would be for our midwife to deliver the baby. we explained our tub/bathroom to josee and she said that it's not a problem and she's delivered babies in smaller cramped places and if we were really worried about it that we could always buy an inflatable pool and put it in our living room. the only trouble is getting rid of the water afterwards. but that's jeremy's job :)

then she went on to explain that if we have a water birth that we'd have the birth in the tub and after that i'd get out and have to do more work to 'deliver' the placenta. gross! :) she said that it was work but won't be anything like delivering the baby since it's more maluable and she could pull on the cord etc to help it out. she said that this would be done on the bed tho since it would be fairly messy if we did it in the tub and a pain in the butt to clean up afterwards. i'm afraid of what will come out! i think as long as i don't see it i'll be ok :)

i finally got my pic up. it was taken last night. i'm HUGE!!!

the last two days i've stayed at home all day. haven't been outside at all! we cam back from christmas in barrie on wednesday night. the drive was horrible. it normally takes us about 4.5hrs to drive from barrie to ottawa but this time it took us a little bit over 6hrs. the weather was bad. freezing rain the whole way down and not to mention i was feeling awful.

we arrived in barrie christmas eve and had christmas. i was feeling a little under the weather. i think it was allergies. my throat was itchy. usually when my throat is itchy i know it's not a cold. a couple of years ago we did allergy tests and i found out that i allergic to mold, dust and cats. we have two cats so i'm not supper allergic tho. or maybe i'm immuned to my cats.

anyway, i couldn't quite figure out what i was reacting to. it seemed to go on and off. i joked about being allergic to the puzzle that the family was working on because everytime i'd go help out or go near it i'd start sneezing.

we went to the toronto zoo on boxing day. i really didn't want to go but i went because jer wanted me to go. i felt ok at the beginning even though it was fairly cold. toward the end of the trip i started feeling awful. just exhausted. so i went to the car and waited for everyone else. the ride home sucked. it's normally about a 45minute ride from toronto to barrie but it felt like forever. the christmas traffic for the malls was crazy and to top it all off I had to go pee!!!

so i closed my eyes and just tried not to think about anything else and tried to focus on getting home. i think after that the allergy became more of a cold. the day after we got back from barrie i was feeling it. sneezing, runny/stuffy nose and the killer sinuses! i can handle the runny nose and stuffy nose but when it comes to congested sinuses.. i HATE that feeling. it's just awful.

being pregnant and all i wasn't able to take anything :( . i even went to the pharmacist to ask if he could recommend anything at all and he just said there's not a whole lot, except waiting it out. so to my dismay i went home and just drank lots.

we had the humidifer going for 4 days straight. it really helped. jeremy went and got me a bunch of fruits, soups and a puzzle :)

we spent yesterday watching movies and doing a puzzle. that was our new years eve. it was nice and relaxing. today i woke up at 1pm :) .

i'm actually feeling much much better today. tomorrow jeremy's going to try and take the day off and we're going to enjoy the day seeing as i haven't been able to do anything the past few days and I want to enjoy my last day of holiday before going back to work.

on saturday evening i woke jeremy up in the middle of the night screaming and crying cause I had another leg cramp. this one was way way worse than the last one i had. it hurt soooo much. i screamed much louder this time and no matter how much jer massaged it or how much i flexed and stretched my left calve it wouldn't go away. i think it lasted for over 5 minutes!

it then subsided on it's own and then i fell asleep again while jeremy massaged my leg. poor jeremy. he thinks i'm crazy. I woke up still feeling the pain a little and it was a little tender for the next two days.

that morning waking up i couldn't help but think how much pain i was in with that leg cramp that night. I then thought if a leg cramp hurt that much and i could barely control the pain, i compared it to labour.. and how much more painful that would be.

I'd like to think that i'm lucky seeing as the only two worst pains i've ever felt in my entire life is that leg cramp and the time when i sprained my ankle at a v-ball tournament that evening we had a friend's wedding to attend. The whole evening i was sitting at our table with my leg elevated and as soon as we got up to leave I was in so much pain because the flow of the blood to my ankle increased and it was like a jolt of pain. The sprain was fresh, so I wasn't able to go to the docortos or get any sort of treatment yet. driving home from the wedding was basically me crying in pain in the back seat while jeremy drove us home.

speaking of pain. on that same sunday after the leg cramp, I went shopping with my brother and we were in a store and I felt a HUGE cramp on my right side. I'm not sure what it was but it felt like it lasted for a while. it started light and got increasingly stronger. I had to leave the store while he lined up to pay for something. I had to sit down and breathe a little. i was sweating and took off my scarf and jacket. I have no idea what it was... though i was reading that around this time that woman experience braxton hicks contractions.. maybe that's what it was. my body preparing for the real thing. I was able to handle that, but i'm sure it'll get worst for the real thing!

5 more days till christmas! i can't wait

so after that, I figured, i'm going to watch my belly once in a while to see if it actually moves, so sure enough last night just as i looked down on my belly during commercial of amazing race, he kicked and i saw my belly move. it was sooooooo cool!!!

how exciting!!!

what else is new... we picked up our bugaboo on monday night. we originally ordered an orange bugaboo and picked it up on friday but when we got it home and was so excited to assemble it, we pulled it out and the orange didn't look at all like the swatch we saw. it was more like construction bright orange.. so we returned it on saturday and ordered a black one. on monday they called me and said that the bugaboo a couple had ordered on they had cancelled on so we were the lucky ones who got to have it. so we picked it up.. and assembled it on monday night. it's sooo smooth to push. i love it! we put the basinett in and have the seater in the basement for now. I can't wait to buy blankets and stuff to make it all comfy for jimmy.

as we were driving home with the orange bugaboo the designer in me was thinking what colour blankets would i get to put inthe stroller.. and i was thinking of how hard it would be to match the orange... and i was having second thoughts about it.. i'm happy we got the black. even tho it'll be all salt stained in the winter... it'll be more neutral and not so bright :) .. and we will probably have an easier time reselling it.

another week and it'll be 6 months!! CRAZY.