the countdown begins So, I find out the sex of the baby on Monday the 31st. I have tried one "old wives tale" the ring test. I've tried it numerous times and it all says the same thing... a boy. Which is funny because that's what we'd both like to have. For a few different reasons. I know I always wanted a big brother when I was growing up. And Eric was the big brother. I'll update as soon as I know more. My baby got to listen to the ocean for a few days, that was exciting. My friend Sarah and I had such great fun walking around sea world, although by the end of the day I felt like I was one of the whales. It was a great experience and now this weekend I'm off to Wisconsin to teach some more colorguard :D
Manda
2008-02-22 (14 weeks)
Today I'm feeling Blah
It's friday, I should be happy that the week is almost to a close! But for some reason, I'm not sure if it's the weather, or what, but I feel blah! I just am not happy like I usually am. I'm not depressed, I'm just down. I know it's rainy outside, and I hate it, but it usually doesn't effect me this much. I can't wait until it gets to be sunny again, instead of dreary and rainy like it seems to be all the time right now. Pregnancy is going alriht. Except that the doctors at the Hospital won't answer their darn phones, so that I can make my next appointment. As you can see I'm just irritated right now... but THIS TOO SHALL PASS
Love N HUGS
Manda
2008-01-17 (9 weeks)
The Miracle of Birth, the suckiness of morning sickness So the miracle of birth is one of those amazing things, but man the morning sickness sucks. Especially today, the ALL DAY sickness. I went to the doctor, and they took my baby's first picture. People have said that our baby looks like a puppy, or a peanut, or a hand grenade, I've heard it all, it's nuts. To me it looks like the most beautiful blobby baby I've ever seen. I know I'm biased, but it's true, my mom said the same thing.
Eric is holding up well, he misses home, but that is normal. Everyday I think about him, and how he's doing. Everyday I miss him more than words can explain. But everyday I know he's fighting for the freedom that we as US citizens enjoy.
My friend Kyla went into labor today, until Steven got home from Iraq she asked if I came and sat with her, because her contractions started coming 5 minutes apart, they were small contractions, but they were contractions at that. I'm so happy for her, I can't wait to see little Hannah.
Babies are a wonderful thing, My husband is a wonderful person... can't the sickness subside? Oh the things women do for the continuance of life!
Eric, I love you baby!
Manda
2008-01-04 (7 weeks)
The Loss of a Best Friend Some people, after they've started living their life want to go back and change it. I've realized that this is not true for me. I have the most wonderful husband anyone could ever ask for. He treats me with respect, and loves me for who I am. At times I wonder how I could come to deserve such a wonderful man. I've realized with the new life that I've chosen, the new path that I've taken will be even harder than the last, which at times seemed like the uphill climb was never going to cease. I realized that if I go back and change that of my life in which I didn't like, or in which I wanted to do over, I would've never ended up with the Love of my Life. All the mud, all the heartache, all of that stuff lead me to Eric. The sad part is, he's leaving. Not forever, but for longer than a week, a month, or a year. We will miss each other changing. we will have to change through, letters, emails, and phone calls. We might get to see each other on a web cam once and a while. He will miss our baby growing inside of me, all of this I understood before we got married, but it doesn't make him leaving any easier. The hardest part of being a military wife is watching him walk away, and knowing that it's not by choice and he would stay here in your arms forever if he could.
Sometime in February I plan on moving in with a great friend Shelah, she will be able to help me with my pregnancy, and I will be able to help her with Travis Jr. Plus the support that we can give one another while our husbands are gone. I'm so thankful for her, and the fact that they're letting me move into their house in our husband's absences. The hardest part for me will be packing up OUR things, packing up our first memories into a box. Leaving this first HOME that we made for ourselves. It's very hard for me to be rejoicing about leaving all of my memories in a storage unit for up to 15 months.
Not only am I loosing a husband, but friends that are going over there with him. Andy, Chris, Travis, and Joel! I will miss game nights, and random bowling nights. On top of that, Sarah and Emma are moving back to LA, it's sad not to know that I'm not sure when I will see them again. I've gained so much by moving here, but I've lost so much by loving here. I do know that while I'm gone, that I have family though my church. I know that I have friends that I can lean on. I know that when his plane leaves that I'm not alone in this, and that there are others going through the same pain. What I am sad about, is that the bestest friend I could ever have will be on that plane.
