So not much to report this week. My nausea has hardly been an issue this week. The only thing I really am dealing with right now is exhaustion. I have never been so tire in all my life. I'm sleeping much better, only getting once or twince in the night, but I feel even less rested. My normal clothes really aren't fitting very well now either. I find getting dressed for work a little frustrating. I'm not showing enough to really justify wearing maternity clothes, but my normal jeans do not fit. So if I wear my maternity pants, I then have to wear my tops too, which make me look way more pregnant than I am. Out in public I don't mind so much, but when I'm around people who know how far along I really am, I feel a little embarrassed. I guess it stems from when a family memeber was 2 months pregnant and she started wearing her hardcore, I'm 9 months along clothes. I was so irritated by it. Also, I don't think it helped that I had missed carried a few months earlier and was very resentful at her blasé attitude towards me. As if I didn't really go through anything traumatic. If you can't tell, I really don't like this person, but I see her at all the anual holiday get togethers. Yay! HOpefully this weekend I'll be able to start work on the nursery. Most likely it will be alone, Adam has to work all weekend, I can't wait until this project is done.
2008-03-13 (7 weeks)
Big Day Yesterday was my first doctor's appointment. Those of you who have had kids know the deal, but for those who don't, here's what happens. We had our ultrasound first (it is a vaginal ultrasound, so you feel a little violated), we got to see our little one and the little heart beat. Adam was really amazed at how fast it was going, 150 bpm. We have a couple of pictures, but at this stage it looks like a bean. We also got our EDD set, October 26, a little Scorpio.
After the ultrasound appointment, we had about 45 min to kill. So Adam decided that it was time to tell the rest of the family, those that hadn't already figured it out. His mother, of course, reacted in the most over the top way. I hate to say it but, it's hard to tell if she was truly genuine or just making a show. My Dad and his wife figured it out like a month ago when I quit drinking. So really there were only a few to tell.
We then made to the actual appointment with the doctor. Actually it was a nurse midwife. She asked about 800,000,000 questions. She then explained our little packet to us, and went over all things I can and can't do, what to eat and not to eat. I then got to the fun part of the appointment, the pelvic examination. Poor Adam had to sit through the whole thing. At least he had reading material.
It's amazing how differently you feel after you see your little baby. For me, my unknown anxiety went away, you know all that nausea and sleeplessness. For Adam, he started acting really excited about the whole thing. Before he was really reserved about it. Now he has nicked named it as the "blueberry". He lets me talk about it more, now also. I think he was worried that we weren't really pregnant or there was going to be something wrong. Now that we know that everything is good and healthy, I think we really were able to let go of some of the anxiety. I only have moderate heartburn now, better than heartburn and nausea.
2008-02-23 (4 weeks)
After about a week... Okay so after a full of knowing I was pregnant, I've learned a few things. I have the worst nausea and indigestion ever. It's all the occupies my mind. "Don't throw up", that's all think. I'm not really grossed out by any foods in particular, just that when I look at food now I think about how it will be affecting me in a couple of hours. The horrible burning in my throat. The uncomfortable burps and he nausea too. I love too eat (obviously, I'm about 60 lbs over weight), but right now it's not my favorite past times.
Sleeping used to be one of favorites too, but now I can't really seem to do it anymore. All day at work I feel I could wither on the spot. Just so tire I can barely keep my eyes open. When it comes time to go to bed, it's like someone changed my batteries, and I'm up until the wee hours of the morning. Then comes like 4 or 5 am and I'm wide damn awake again. It feels as if I'd slept a full wonderful night, when only it was like a couple of hours. I usually don't even think about getting up for work until 7:30 am or so, and on the weekends it sacrilege for me to even think about getting up until after 8:30 ( I know it's not much later but it's a big deal when your husband is a morning person.), like this morning I've been up since 5:30 am. I just laid there for an hour before I finally decided to get up. I have a feeling this is only the beginning of my sleep issues.
2008-02-20 (4 weeks)
My first entry...
This is my first entry. I never know quite what to say on these initial entries. I guess I'll start with the basics. I am 27 years old and this is my second pregnancy. My first ended in a miscarraige at week 20. We were very devistated. My husband and I have been trying to concieve since April, 2007 and we started taking fertility aids in December. After only 2 sessions with the medication we were able to get pregnant.
Right now the biggest thing for me is dealing with the early symptoms. The nausea if fairly bad. At least I'm not vomiting, but who know that may kick in a few weeks. I am also a little worried about how many babies there will be. Since fertility aid up the chance of multiples. When I bring this up with my husband, he nearly passes out. Entertaining for me but I'm a little scared too. As much as it scares me, I some what relish the idea of have twins (or more). I hate to say it but some of our friends have recently had babies or just got pregnant and I would love to be the only one with twins. I know its not a competition, but its hard to watch all your friends have healthy happy babies and you're still stuck in neutral. I really hate that feeling. Watching everyone else's life moving forward and you are just stalled. Well now it's my turn.
