Insomnia? Its moments like these when I really hate being pregnant. I went to sleep at 3:30am last night, woke up at 6, and then came home at 8pm, slept until 10pm, and now it's 2:30am and I can't sleep again. It's so frustrating because my entire body is exhausted and there's nothing I can do about it. I just wish I could get 8 hours of sleep for once!
But, instead of worrying about it I'm going to go with it. My body obviously isn't able to sleep so I may as well just face the facts!
Hmpf.
2009-11-06 (11 weeks)
Hormones suck! Being nineteen, I shouldn't expect to feel any less stressed about being pregnant, but on top of that these hormones are driving me CRAZY!! Ugh! It isn't even fair, I honestly don't think I have ever felt this depressed in my entire life! I mope around and cry, I am constantly convincing myself that nobody loves me, and on top of that I hate everything, period. I already feel emotionally attached to my baby, so that isn't the problem. I am scared though..
Anyhow, I'm almost through with the first trimester :) I'm excited for that, although I never had the morning sickness past nausea. I'm just happy to maybe finally begin to see some changes.
I wonder if men really mean it when they say that they're still attracted to you even though you're pregnant. I couldn't imagine a man thinking like that. In fact I would expect them to be more freaked out than anything else, which my boyfriend is (as he should be! I'm not so friendly pregnant!).
I'm hungry and I have no food, so I suppose I'll just go to sleep. My sister just ate the rest of my bread. Oh well...
I'm going to take a benadryl too, don't hate me for it! I have been so good, and I for once just want to sleep before waking up at 6am for work...with no toast...hm. I swear I won't do it again.
Goodnight :)
