Well, day 14 is coming apon us and I am 1 moody bitch. I have an urge to drive my husband into a wall... The fucker is just saying th wrong things, doing things that just piss me off... Gotta love PMS   

I am so hoping that this month is our month!!!! We need some good news. We are in a financial rut at the moment. I dont want to bring a baby in to a world with the situation like this, however he tells me it will be ok...

I dont know...
Will keep posted...
Ciao  

well, me and paul as still on the rollercoaster of life! As it stands we are on day 11 of my cycle. As per doctors instructions we need to start doing the "THANG" on Day 11, Day 13, Day 15 and Day 17 ... YaY.. schedualed sex....my husband loves that part!!!! They say that day 14 my body will release and egg! So we will see how we go this month, I am on the third month of clomiphene! I go back to my Gyno on the 1st February to get an update! If I am not preggers, and I have not ovulated at all than I need to be moved up to 100mg of clomiphene.... GRRRR I heard so many things about clomiphene and how it works for people, IHave never heard it not work for some one!

They tell me that I have a 10% chance of twins and 5% of triplets... HOLY SHIT....However there are twins running throught my family and his,...Paul's sister is pregnant with twins at the moment she is about 18 weeks I think! Cant wait for her to have her babies...I get to be an Aunty to more... YaY... ANYWAY...As much as I want to have a baby , the thought of having twins is a bit surreal...I think I would pass out when I find out I am preggers...to be told that I have twins... I dont know... I would probably be ... nope... I dont know... Paul would have done his job alright... TOO WELL...than again that is to be expected... he is a bit of a prefectionist... LMAO
Sometimes I wonder if all of these fertility drugs I have taken will harm our baby!!! I dont know... I guess they would not give them too you if they would!!! Right?

I love the fact that I can come here and sit in from of my PC and just spill out all of my thoughts, They are probably a jumbling mess when other people read them, But if I do not spill them out to someone I think that I would cause myself a headache with an overload.

well I am done for the moment

Till Next Time..... 19 More days till our third month Vedict

Life seems to be giving me more up and downs that I think that I can handel! It is putting a new perspective on the whole life is a roller coaster saying.
I am ready to get off and hurl my guts up!
We are in our third month on Clomiphene so we are hoping that this month is a winner, as they say...Third time lucky! But who knows, everytime we get our hopes up they are shattered!

A few months back we thought that we were pregnant. Got excited. Had ALL they symptoms... and I do mean ALL
I even had 2 positive pregnancy tests... After a while we went and had some bloods that came back negative....LIKE WHAT THE FUCK??????? It was soooo depressing. I felt as thought I was being punished for something that I had done,... what I dont know!
I resorted to swallowing 27 panadole tablets and 11 nurophen plus  tablets! I listend to the song. "in the arms of the angles" over and over and over again..till I was tired. I remember my husband crying so much saying..."Go On...what is this going to acheive" Next thing that I know I am at the hospital being told that I need to lose 40 Kilograms and I will fall pregnant no worries...and that I had not taken quite enough tablets to do any damage.. he said take a few more next time...GREAT THING TO SAY TO A DEPRESSED PATIENT...wanka!

I am over that episode how however it seems that every day is a let down at the moment... well not every day...just every 28th day when I get my period! To fall pregnant is a task...to be a good mum is a skill!

Enough now
See YA