Oh My, What can I say! AF has not arrived! With the tablets this is not ment to happen! I did some calculations and I should be like 4 weeks!!!   . I am thinking ofr doing a HPT, however we are going to wait until friday!
Gawddddddddddddd I hope I am pregnant   

Who knows, could be a great valentines gift for my husband   

Ok Enough now

  Cassie

  Well, I think that this is it! I have had a bloody gut full of doctors and all the comes! My husband and I went to the doctors today for our 3 month annual check up! My appointment was at 3.30pm! We did not get into see the doctor till 5.30pm! GAWD I was sooooooooo Angry  When we finally go in there! He asked all the questions that I answered in the previous appointment! Fair enough he was a different doctor. HOWEVER, all of the case was right in front of him. He says.. how long have you been on Clomiphene? I said you are a Gynocologist it is your job to know... my husband knew that I was pissed off and preceded to tell him "3 Months" than the fuck head asks have I released an egg...  I am like...FFS, How would i know, I have had the blood tests on every 21 days of my cycle for the last 3 months! You are the one that is to tell me if I am ovulating!...I am beginning to think that this stress just aint worth it! When we were there last time we were told that if I was not to ovulate then my dose was to be up to 10mg of Clomiphene...welllllllllllll Fuck that the Doctor says, he said if we did that I would have multiple birth, well we were not too fused about that, then he said that they would ALL have deformities! And it would not be worth keeping the babies....OH FUCK THIS MADE ME PISSED!!!! So his course of actions was for me to take the same 50mg that I was taking, and that he will not be wasting anymore time on blood tests and that I have to do it all my self, however DR Green, the HEAD DOCTOR of the team said that the only reliable way to see if I am ovulating is via a 21 Day proestrogen level blood test! HOLY FUCK, I am so sick of getting screwed around! I am not a small person, I am heavy built! I way 125kg. I have LOW Cholesterol and all of my other bloods are fine. I am healthy! However this fcuk stick intended to tell me that i am obese. I checked and for my hight of 178cm I am ment to be like 65-75KG.....LIKE FUCK....If I was to go down to 90Kg I would be all bone. I have been told that before. I want to lose about 15 - 20kg and I will do that so I can be a little more active.. but I am FAR from obese... STUPID FUCKHEAD!

I have just gotten off the phone and made a formal complaint about the doctor! I wont be seeing that dick for a while!
I am beginning to wonder if it is all worth this shit! I have to go out and buy some $80.00 maybe baby ovulation kit... we are not made of money like most people, That is why we are going through the public hospital to see the gyno. Than again some would say if you are not made of money than why bring a baby into the world...my answer, it is my next goal and acheivement in life...to create and love!

ENOUGH

  Today is day 21. Today is the day that I go for my blood test to check my proestrogen levels! GAWD I hate needles! the thing is tho I am so bloody use to them because I have to have them so often!  . The things that I do I tell you! However as one does say it is a small price to pay for a small bundle of joy! .

I cannot say that I am looking foward to being pregnant tho  . Everyone keeps saying all of these rotten things happen. Heartburn, gas, excess peeing! OH MY . Ah, yeah I know a small price to pay. This is what I keep telling myself anyway!
I am begining to wonder if it has worked this month!   I have sore breasts, extra tired. My belly is getting a hairy line down the middle...well not hairy as such!  I am trying so hard not to get my hopes up, however it is a bit hard sometimes! I want this a baby so much that we have stop "trying"  I mean we still do the do!  just with not a purpose! My gyno has repeatably told us to ditch all the stree in our lives. Well we have done that. Gone to the level that we have moved house! I used to have my cousin living with us, however just having him in the house would piss me off   . So now it is just me and Paul and we could not be happier  .
Lets just hope all goes well! We are in a beautiful three befroom cottage that has been renovated! It is private rent and the owners live next door. They are great people! I am glad that we took this house!  It is the middle of summer here and it is so bloody hot, if anyone here has ever been to Townsville in North Queensland, Australia  . They will know how bloody hot it is  Come On The Aussies. Well This will do

Enough