AfterMath
Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,
Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.
So I took what's mine by eternal right.
Took your soul out into the night.
It may be over but it won't stop there,
I am here for you if you'd only care.
You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.
I've kissed your lips and held your head.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.
I am a dreamer but when I wake,
You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.
And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be
I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.
I've watched you sleeping for a while.
I'd be the father of your child.
I'd spend a lifetime with you.
I know your fears and you know mine.
We've had our doubts but now we're fine,
And I love you, I swear that's true.
I cannot live without you.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.
And I still hold your hand in mine.
In mine when I'm asleep.
And I will bear my soul in time,
When I'm kneeling at your feet.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.
I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.
It has been a few days since our shock. I drank myself stupid to deal with the pain. Yesterday my husband and I had a massive fight! He told me to get the fuck out of his life and threw a draw at me. I left to give some money to a friend and have a breather. When I returned he was gone. So was a a knife I thought. I had a sick feeling in my stomach. I called to police and a few friends. About and hour later the police came. I answered their questions. They had a few patrol cars out looking for him. A few hours passed and he returned home. Something inside just cracked and i let him have it. I then discovered he did not have a knife. HE HAD TWO...
By this stage I called the best person to come and deal with him....HIS MOTHER....Ya'll know ya in trouble when Mum walks through the door.
Well, skipping to the end, today is another day. And we have still stuck to our promise, never go to sleep angry at each other!
This is a hurdle we ahve to deal with. Losing the baby was hard. and it is going to get harder if I dont deal with it.
My sister in-law is having twins. We secretley found out yesterday one of them might have 2 club feet.. :( Her youngest daughter at the monent had one, and had to have surgery. I pray that her twins are ok...I cant wait to find out if they are boys or girls. Bets are one of each! she already has two girls. lets hope for boys to even it out for her!
ENOUGH Now
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So So So So Tired
Oh My, I am so tired it is unbelievable. It is 8pm on Sunday night and I am just so tired! Infact I woke up at 8am this morning and I began top feeli tiered at 10am. Everything that I do it seems that I have to push myself to do it! It is not a sexy feeling at all! My god I just cant believe how tired I am. WTMI coming, however I have the sorest breasts ever! I get some shooting pains in my tummy however I called the Dr. and she said there is nothing to worry about yet....PHEW....
well due to all this tiredness time for sleepys
NITE
Enough
Cassie |
