He's here!!! (part 2) Okay so I lost track of time and never got back to adding to my post yesterday...sorry.
So where was I...oh yeah...on the way to the hospital. So we got to the hospital and were checked in pretty darn quick. Then Paul left to get the bags and stuff. (he didn't get back for 4 hours!!!!!). they put the thinggy in my cervix (to soften it) and after that it was a waiting game. So later that night I started having BAD contractions. Around 5am my nurse told me that I was probably dehydrated and that is why they were so strong for so long. I mean shoot I was having them for like 6 hours straight...every 4 minutes!!!! So at about 8am they took the thinggy out of my cervix and gave me an enema. The night before I was excited about getting one because I had been so constipated for a couple weeks. Well when she came in there with that big ole bag of stuff that I was going to have to hold in my stomach for what she said was 2 minutes I thought that she was crazy. that was the most uncomforatble thing ever!!!! Ugh...but I did get to take a shower after I sat ont he toilet for what seemed like forever.
The patocin was then started and here come the contractions. Now I had every intention of having a natural child birth . But after the night I had and then I started haveing back labor I was begging for the epidural at about noon!!!! the back labor is what put me over the edge. I told my mom a few months ago that if I didnt have any back pain durng labor then I thought that I would be able to make it...well the back pains I was having felt like someone was trying to break my back. I was in tears!!!! I had the BEST nurses while I was in the hospital (I had my mom go and get some boxes of Godiva chocolates to give to the various nurses that I had that I liked...they were really surprised when I gave the chocolates to them). The nurse had told me that I could not get the epidural until I was 3cm...but after she saw me crying she got the anesthesiologist quick...lol. I kinda dont remember even getting the epidural. I always thought that it was going to hurt when I got it, but I was in so much pain from the contractions that I didnt feel anything.
So a few hours went by (they broke my water) and I was barely progressing. And my cervix was starting to swell on one side. My midwife was concernend that my contractions were not strong enough so they increased the pitocin and inserted an internal monitor, hoping that I would begin to dilate. Well when she came back I had went from 3cm to 2cm and my cervix was swollen. That is when she told me what I didnt want to hear....they were recommending a c-section (I was also running a fever of 102 degrees). I had told Paul a few days earlier that i was concerned that I was going to have to have one because of how late I was and that I was not progressing...Aiden just did not want to come out. Well my worst fears came true and I broke down crying as soon as the midwife left the room. Paul and my mom told me that the most impotant thing was to have a healthy baby and for him not to be in diress. I knew it was what we had to do but it was just not what I ever wanted to happen.
Everything moved pretty quick after that. Another ansethesiologist (who was soooo very nice and talked to me th whole delivery..keeping me updated and calm) came in and gave me a c-section does of meds!!! And let me tell you...that was some good stuff. I could not feel anything below my boobs. The downside was that I was shaking like a leaf. Within 30 minutes i was in the delivery room getting preped. The next thing I knew Paul was in the room and the ansethesiologist asked told me that they had done the test (to make sure I was not feeling anything) and had started!!! I had no idea. About 3 minutes later I hear my baby cry, the doctor say that he was big and Paul say that he had a lot of hair!!!! And of course...I started balling out of control!! I wanted to see him so badly and it seemed like forever until they brought him to me. He was beautiful!!!!
I then hear someone start counting and I had no idea why. Paul later told me that she was counting the number of gauze because they had misplaced one and they didnt want to close me up until they found it!!! WHAT!!!! Well hey found it on the floor...lol.
They sewed me up and took me to recovery (where I ended up bein for 3 hours because the recovery nurse was SOOOO horibly slow). when I walked in Paul and Aiden were right there and Paul told me that he was 8 pounds and 21 inches long (and born at 10:13pm). 8 pounds!!!!! WHAT!!!!! No wonder he was not coming out...come to find out he was trying to come out and my body just would not let him...he had a little bit of a cone head...lol. They clean him up and then take him to transition because he was breathing really fast and he had a fever because I had a fever. It was not until 2am that I got to my room!!! My mom, Pauls dad and Paul were there (Aiden was still not there yet). After about 30 minutes they brought my beautiful baby to me and I realy got to hold and stair at him. I then let Pauls dad hold him...I think that meant a lot to him (Pauls dad that is). Paul fed him and then gave him back to me.
Aiden slept with me EVERY night we were in the hospital. And when I say slept with me I mean in the bed with me...it was not until my last night that the nurse told me that he was not suppose to but she let me anyway...lol. I was stuck in bed until later on Satuday when they finally took out my cathider and made me get up and go to the bathroom. Man that was HARD WORK...and it was painful to walk. I felt like I would never stand straight up again...lol. Pauls family came to visit that evening. His dad, step mother, brother, brothers girlfriend, grandmother, grandfather, and sister...yes ALL those people were in my little room in addition to myself, paul and Aiden. No one cared that I had major surgery less than 24 hours before and that i was in pain. Or that I had not taken a shower. Or that havaing 10 people in one room with a newborn may be a little much. All of those scents and the heat. I was sweating like a stuck pig!!!!! Pauls sister (God bless her soul) finally said that I looked very miserable (and I guess me fanning myself for 30 minutes was not clue enough) and that they shoud go. I was so relieved...and I didnt make a big deal about it because I didnt feel like arguing with Paul. He already thinks that it is rediculous that I would want som time to recover without a million people visiting.
Anyhoo...took a shower on Sunday afternoon...OMG...that was the best shower I had ever taken. And Pauls mom came to visit. It was good to see her. We checked out on Monday evening and went home. We have a 3 story town house so walking up 2 flights of stairs to get to my bedroom (Paul had bought a new tv for our bedroom earlier that day...God bless him...besides he had been wanting one since the beginning of the year). I had told myself that i was going to really take time to recover and not do a lot. the first night was great because both moms were here and they took care of me. But the next day Paul was at work ALL day so I had to get my own food (walking down the stairs was torture), take care of Aiden, take care of myself, let the dog out, AND try to recover.
I have found that Paul has not been very attentive to me. Maybe a couple evenings he was attentive, but I have made my own breakfast, made both of us lunch twice, dont the dishes, started dinner, and the list goes on. All while is pain from this incision, tired, feet swollen, ankles swollen, legs swollen, trying to pump a little bit of breast milk (I am getting about 3 oz out now...yay), and the list goes on. I think he is more concerned about Aiden then me. He does not even say thank you when I have cooked him lunch the two times I did (and the only reason I did was because I was hungry and I thought that it would be very rude of me to cook for myself and not get him anything.
I have plenty more to write about but I am sleepy. I will post about all of the emotions that I have had this week and the pains after a c-section maybe tomorrow. Until then I have posted photos of my little angel in the photo album...enjoy!!!
2008-09-05 (baby has arrived)
He's here!!!!! Well in my last post I said that I was going to the doctor in hopes that I would get induced...well I got what I wanted but it did not happen how I wanted it to happen...lol.
So we went to the doctor and they put me on the monitor first. then she checked me...and during the check she went digging and turning her hand inside of me. I was about to crawl up the wall and it took all of me not to cry. I had no idea what she was doing. Well AFTER she was done she said that I was dilated to 1cm and that she had just stripped my membranes!!! Why didnt she warn me so I could be partially prepared?
Anyhoo...so we then went to get an ultrasound to check my fluid level. That is when she told me that my amniotic fluid was lower than she liked and that I needed to go to the hospital NOW to get induced. Well...I was excited and scared at the same time. And of course I didnt have any of the stuff that we needed for the hospital in the car. I had been saying all week that I was going to put the bags in the car just in case (because I was overdue)...hold on I need to give my baby a bath and change his clothes...lol
2008-08-28 (40 weeks)
40 weeks 5 days!!!! STILL PREGNANT!!!! And that is how I answer my phone every time someone calls that I know is calling to see if I have had the baby. We have a doctors appointment today and I am hoping that they will schedule the induction for tomorrow morning. The appointment was for tomorrow morning but when she said that they would schedule it for Monday or Tuesday I decided that there was not much difference between Thursday afternoon and Friday morning for an appointment. AND I don't want to have to wait the WHOLE weekend to be induced if they could have done it on Friday morning. So I am crossing my fingers and toes that a bed will be availible for me on Friday.
I am getting pretty far on Aiden's blanket and that is exciting. I normally have to wait a few hours after I wake up to start because my fingers hurt so badly in the morning, but regardless things are moving great. We got Aiden's bedding yesterday in the mail and I absolutely LOVE IT!!!!!
We put the bumper on the crib with the plain sheets and skirt that I already had on the bed. i am going to go and buy a plain blue bumper as well because when we put the other sheet options on there I dont want for it to be too busy. With polka dot sheets and bumper...lol. So at least we will have options.
Well I am going to get back to knitting so I can waste time until this afternoon....
2008-08-26 (40 weeks)
My mood...depressed!!! Still pregnant...and I am not feeling too great about it. I am scared that I am not going to be able to deliver naturally, but will have to get a c-section. I wonder if there is something that I did wrong that has made me go overdue or is making me not dilate. I have done everything that they have suggested to make me progress but there has been no progression for the past 2 weeks.
I am tired all the time...taking 3-4 hour naps everyday. And that makes me feel pretty darn unproductive. Everyone keeps telling me that BD and I need to have sex to put me in labor but he does not want to do that...how selfish. I mean he knows how badly I want to go into labor and he is not even willing to cooperate. He thinks that he is going to traumatize his son...PULEAZE. I think that is just an excuse but i am not even going to go there.
I changed my doctors appointment from Friday to Thursday afternoon because if they can induce me Friday I would rather do that than wait the whole weekend. We will see. So I am going to knit and chill out like I have been doing...it has been storming here all night and day...and just look forward to going to bed tonight and doing it all over again tomorrow.
