Hopefully Soon! Everyone keeps calling my phone, Nick's phone, my mom's, and his mom's wanting to know "has Alyssa come yet?" and all I can say is ..... We will call you! We're not just going to leave everyone hanging for days after she comes or anything. It's funny sometimes, but sometimes it stresses me out because I want her to be here probably more than anyone, and every questioning call is a constant reminder that she has not yet decided to make her debut. I shouldn't complain I know... I'm thankful for friends and family that love us ans want to know what's going on, but really I love you all too and we will call for sure, so no one is to worry about that. I went to the doctor today and unfortunately everything is the same as last week. Still 2 cm... nothing new. She still made the offer to induce me this week, which honestly I wouldn't mind doing, however Nick wants to wait and see what happens naturally. The doctor said if I didn't go by next Monday we would schedule something probably for Tuesday or Wednesday I surely hope I don't make it to that point. I'm going to start walking A LOT! I already walked for 30 minutes this morning and when it cools off again tonight I'm going to try to walk for like an hour if I can handle it. I'm not good at being patient for this. I'm not very uncomfortable, I'm just so anxious! And I can't sleep hardly at all. The last few nights I have woke up at 3 or 4 am and stayed awake until about 8am... took a little nap then til 9 and been up for the day, oddly enough I'm not really that tired from it. I think it's adrenaline... I just know it could be any moment so I'm always on the edge of my seat and ready to go. Today I tried to stay busy, and that has helped me a lot. I just need to keep doing stuff so I won't think about the waiting. I'm going to rent some movies that I want to see for when I wake up at 4am and can't sleep. That will be a great alternative to tossing and turning and laying there doing nothing, but wonder when she'll come. So hopefully it will not be much longer! I know I could induce Wednesday... and that doesn't sound like a bad plan to me, but then again I feel like God knows when she should come and I should just try to wait for that..... So that's what I'm trying to do. And you never know..... it could be today right!
2008-05-03 (39 weeks)
Lady in Waiting Well I'm just a few days from my due date and everyday I wake up and wonder "will it be today?" We are still making a lot of progress on the house. The hardwood floors have been laid and the painting has been done, now all we need is the carpet to be laid in the bedrooms and the tile in the bathrooms and kitchen. So not too much longer! It should all be done and hopefully we can move in next weekend (for MY FIRST MOTHERS DAY possibly). That would be a great gift. However I hope Alyssa comes sooner than that. I know I can't choose.... well I can if I get induced, but I'm trying to let it happen naturally. I think my final decision on being induced is that I may set up to be induced that day after my due date.... Next Friday, but I'm hoping that she'll come before then. We'll see! Until we move in our new house, we are staying at Nick's parent's. We've set up all the baby stuff we'll need for her there. And so she'll have a stable environment to come home too from the hospital. It will be helpful too because Ruth, Nick's mom will be around to help me. And I'm sure that my mom and family will come visit often. It will be an exciting experience, never a dull moment with us! I may have a little anxiety about all the craziness that's been going on with the moving and everything, but I know it will be fine. I have felt so strange the last few days.... just a wide range of emotions! I'm so excited, yet pretty nervous about the labor and delivery. And it's really setting in... I'm going to be a mother and have a child that's my responsibility to take care of all her needs. It's overwhelming! I'm so use to only taking care of me and now I'll have this whole new lifestyle to get use to. I'm also feeling nervous about that, and just knowing how to do everything with her, and worrying that nothing bad will happen to her and that I'll know what to do when unexpected things happen. Like if she chokes, or gets sick, or cries and cries and I can't figure out what's wrong. All of this is just now setting in, and I'm feeling like a crazy person because my emotions and thoughts are all over the place. But I'm sure this is pretty normal for first-time moms. Why wouldn't it be? It's one of the biggest life changes Nick and I will ever experience! Over all I am very excited! I can't wait to meet and hold my little Alyssa for the first time. It will feel so amazing to finally see her face and to touch her little hands and feet, and to kiss your forehead a million times. I'm sure it will never get old! Nick is getting so excited too! We may not be quite set up in our house, but it doesn't take a house to have a family! We'll be fine and everything will work out. So now we're just waiting!!!
2008-04-28 (38 weeks)
More Progress Well lots of progress has been made on 2 things. We've closed on the house and Nick has started working on it like crazy getting the repairs and remodeling done. It looks so good so far, I'm so excited about it! We've almost finished painting all the walls and Nick began laying hte hardwood in the living room tonight. Our goal is to get some floors laid down in the living room and our office so that we can move our stuff out of our condo before May 1st, so we won't have to pay any more rent. Hopefully that will work out, but it may not. Who knows. The other progress that has been made is I have dialated another centameter, my doctor actually said I'm a little more than 2cm dialated and that my cerevix is thinning out a lot. She says I've made a drastic change from the last week and that she really thinks it will be any day now. So that's exciting. She said they would go ahead and induce me if I wanted so that it could be planned. Nick and I have talked about it, but we're not really sure yet. We may schedule it for Friday or we may just see what happens. I have been feeling strange at times so I also think that it's getting close. I'm not even sure that I'll make it to Friday. However, I cold be totally wrong and so could the doctor. I guess I could go to my due date or longer, you never really can predict. As much as I would love for us to be moved in to our house when Alyssa is born, I reallize that may not be possible. And that's really okay. I'm not stressed because I know we'll be in there as soon as we can be. Alyssa has what she needs at our condo, or even if we have to stay somewhere else with her like Nick's parent's or something, it would be fine. We'll just see how things play out. I'm going to try to be really flexible. We did finish painting the baby room in the new house and it looks amazing! I plan on posting pictures once everything is set up, but for now we've just got the paint and border. We still need to lay the carpet and put all her stuff in. I can't wait though! It will be awesome! Anyway I'm beginning to get really excited and nervous about her birth. It's really a scary thing and not knowing when it will happen is hard. I'm not sleeping very well because I'll wake up to HAVE TO GO to the bathroom, then I won't be able to fall back asleep. I'm always thinking "I'm having a contraction" or "I haven't felt her move in a while" or something. So it's hard to sleep. But it won't be long and she'll be out and the real sleeplessness will begin. Maybe this is just preparation. Well I will keep everyone posted on the birth of the baby. I may not write any more journals until after she comes!
2008-04-22 (37 weeks)
Yay! We're closing on the house!!! This Thursday at 1PM. I'm so excited I can hardly stand it! We still will have all the remodel work to do, but I'm not nearly as stressed about that as I was about closing. We're going to start the kilz, paint, and floor process on Thursday as soon as we close and work hard on it until it's done. Well I won't be able to do those things obviously, but Nick and our families and friends will start on it. I'll be so glad to unpack our boxes and set up our house... especially Alyssa's room! That is what I'm really looking foward to the most. So hopefully Alyssa will hold off on coming out until we are ready with the house. I think everything will be fine either way. I'm just so happy about this. It is such a relief to finally know something. So needless to say we are about to be very busy, but I will still have my doctor's appointments and still be keeping everyone posted as much as possible. And by the way I uploaded a ton of pictures, so everyone enjoy!
We're closing on the house!!! This Thursday at 1PM. I'm so excited I can hardly stand it! We still will have all the remodel work to do, but I'm not nearly as stressed about that as I was about closing. We're going to start the kilz, paint, and floor process on Thursday as soon as we close and work hard on it until it's done. Well I won't be able to do those things obviously, but Nick and our families and friends will start on it. I'll be so glad to unpack our boxes and set up our house... especially Alyssa's room! That is what I'm really looking foward to the most. So hopefully Alyssa will hold off on coming out until we are ready with the house. I think everything will be fine either way. I'm just so happy about this. It is such a relief to finally know something. So needless to say we are about to be very busy, but I will still have my doctor's appointments and still be keeping everyone posted as much as possible. And by the way I uploaded a ton of pictures, so everyone enjoy!