Why does it seem like your day is going along so perfect and then BAM the world comes and tries to piss you off...LMAO...Anyhoo These last few months I have taken to really reflect upon myself and my surroundings has really helped me a lot by showing me so much...I realize so much more about myself and realize what my husband has been trying to tell me for sooooooooooooo long...You have to "do you" because when you "do other people" it only brings you stress and negativity...In addition, to that, I have learned not to be so quick to say who is or not my friend and to recognize negativity when its rearing its ugly little head at you...even when the exuder doesnt realize that is the vibe they are giving off...

UGGGGHHHH....You know i have to reflect a little on the last 10 years of my life, and I must say WOW...I have done a lot of growing and changing....I didnt realize how much I had to/needed to work on myself...I too was that person that surrounded myself with negative things and people and even negative thoughts and comments....I am no ways perfect now...but I am soooo much better about it....Before I was quick to let people out of my life because they werent what i expected but now i realize you sometimes have to embrace those people for who they are and keep it moving so to speak...or as a coworker of mine recently told me, put them in a "new pile"...LOL...or as my hubby says, "long handle spoon them" ...  BUT i am sooo appreciative of the people that have been around the last decade that have really shown themselves to be true...family and friends a like....Some folks I didnt even think we would last beyond my undergrad years are people i really care about today.  Amazing how life has a way of switching things up...or how you would never think in a million years this or that person would be of help to you or someone you would look to as a friend and then BAM there they are...LOL....

I have grown to really appreciate people for who they are I know this....but I have really grown to appreciate a nondrama, issue free, positive, loving, happy, carefree life......You know what I hate...people telling you how to be or how things should be done....it really gets under my skin..If i let you be you then why not let me be me.....  but i have learn you cant change anyone....and they are who they are....  oh well...anyway... i suppose i have said enough that is on my chest today...this was soooo nonprego related...but then again it is....

I want my daughter and future children to go through this life with as less stress and hurt as possible...I want to learn from my past mistakes and errors in judgement so that i can teach my child to do "life" better than mommy....By no means have I had a hard life...its been pretty darn good and privelaged BUT, i allow myself to take on stress...AND other peoples at that....I cant tell you how many times that has occured....or letting other people stress me out instead of walking away....UGGHHH LOL Its so important to me now for my baby to feel love and happy feelings....for her to be raised by happy and loving adults....for her to see the world as her oyster and that she can have anything her heart desires...not someone telling her she is spoiled or she cant have that or she shouldnt want it or whatever.... okay so off my soap box now...PHEW that felt good.