okay so its clear to me, i have now become a lazy butterball...why cant i function on the weekdays...why must i come home lay down, eat, watch tv stay up all night just to be tired all over again...LMAO...and on the weekends, i dont get that burst of energy until the night before i go back to work, which just makes me stay up even later and be tired all over again.....good grief....

its also clear to me i will be eating myself out of house and home...LOL i say i was going to do better..but if i dont feel like i wont even attempt to change..seriously tasha what is wrong with you...lmao....okay so i got a call from the doc office and i passed my glucose testing YIPPEE...i thought my big-ole-thighs-self might fail or not score good because i am 450lbs LMAO...seriously...okay well maybe i am not anywhere near that...but i cant even joke that at least i am not over 200 BECAUSE I AM....not that the number is not new to me...i have seen it before but i sure as heck dont want to see it again...i see know with the next child or children i will have to be really on it....and down to a really small inamiginable size to stay under that number......i am too freaking tall to be 150lbs but dang...i will have to at least stay around the 160s or 170s....seriously...that will be my goal..i bet that number sounds huge to most..LMAO...but for me between 173- 185 is where i remained a size 8..(okay well my thighs remained a 10 over 179 LMAO).....anyhoo...i i wonder how long it will take to get what 100lbs smaller..LMAO..i swear i will be 270 by the time i deliever if i keep growing at this rate...SIKE okay no really i would rather crawl up in a cave and give birth there if i seriously let myself get that big...but if i dont get my lazy tail up out of the bed and stop eating fast i will be there without even trying LMAO......

okay sooooooooooo my clarity comes from knowing exactly what i must do, but ummm i need to make the decision and take action to DO IT...lol...anyhoo today is a new day...so we shall see...

okay so also...i am CLEAR on why coffee is bad for you to have while preg...i asked for half decaf and half caffiene and my head feels like its going to explode, and i promise i havent even drunk HALF of it yet....UGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH i need water....which i am drinking now so thats good... 

oh yeah and my relative and i got that whole issue straightened out..she realized she was being way to senstive...and to not take me not 'calling HER" so literally...i dont call anyone lately...unless you just had a baby or are preggo and then we might communicate more often...but seriously, i need for people to get over themselves and realize i am a WIFE, a MOTHER, and I WORK FULL TIME...plus i have other hobbies and activities (well i suppose you can call watching tv and eating my new hobby lmao) SO I DONT HAVE TIME....you will have to probably remember to call me, before i get around to calling you...AND yes text messaging is my favorite way to converse....it doesnt entail long conversations...i can get to the point...BUT if you want to gripe, or have concerns CALL ME, because if I had them I would call you...i would much rather prefer you to contact me to discuss then holding some bogus feelings for half a year to only bring them up later when they seem soooooooo irrelevant....good grief....  anyhoo life is good, and will always be, no matter what comes in my way (or our way) if its taken with stride it because a simple resolvable matter...Yippee...

i hope this freaking weight does the same thing.....i hope it resolves completely when Keana comes out LOL!!!!!!!! wouldnt that just be perfect...well seeing that my uterus is techinically not in my thighs, i suppose i will have to run it off too....OH WELL!

okay seriously...i have had a long day...its after midnight and i have been cleaning our hardwood floors in the kitchen, cleaning out the pantry, and cleaning out the refrigerater....I AM TIRED...the only reason why i came up stairs was because my hubby said Palin's daughter is really pregnant now so I had to come read the article LMAO...okay anyhoo, so i have spent almost the entire day downstairs right?...watching tv, grilling, cooking, and cleaning...well since it was a low key kind of day....AND if anyone needs to really reach me they know to call the house...okay so why did i just go to check my facebook account and saw that my coworker and his girlfriend got engaged! I was soooo excited so I wanted to send them a quick text congratulating them...i know its late but i know he stays up late and they just got back from out of town..anyhoo when i go to pick up my phone i see that i have like 5 texts from a family member wanting to know why i am not talking to them...WTF???????????? are you kidding me??? it said, oh you have been short with me lately, oh we havent talked i know you are mad, but why...seriously...get over yourself please...I AM PREGNANT! i have lots of things going on in these last few months like ummmm well creating life!...so if you havent been "in to me" what in the heck makes you think i am about to be following behind you trying to "catch up"...seriously....

this particular person just so happens to be one of the first people i texted about my pregnancy....and guess what NO RESPONSE...yet her significant other called like 20 min later to congratulate us...I ACTUALLY HAD TO CALL HER A WEEK LATER....and she threw in oh yeah, btw, congrats...uhh okay....and so guess what that was April, I have not spoken with her SINCE...its now September 1, are you kidding me?  the only communication we have had from april until now was once months back she sent me a text of a naked man???????? i was like wtf is this? she never responded...THEN she called this weekend saying she was in the neighborhood and wanted to stop by...well hell we werent available and i texted her to say sorry we missed her....SO WHY do i get a kazillion texts today about "we need to talk"....OMG the drama...see this is why i just "do me" so i can avoid the drama....because in all actuallity the text told me what was really on her mind...there was no, how is your preg...it was more about her own reasons of why she wants to be in my life right now....omg, seriously?  well i cant wait to talk this one out... i hate for people to look at you like you did something wrong and THEY dont see their own responsibility in the situation...seriously? YOU HAVE GOT TO BE KIDDING ME!  I cant even get into all the mess that is really tied up in this....uggghhhh..and of course hubby is like chill dont even get mad because its not good for the baby...which i am not really mad, just more like, how did this turn into my issue?  why do i have to "talk a situation out" when really there is nothing to discuss....we werent that close before, why should we be now? you didnt even care about my freaking pregnancy, why should i worry about your feelings about not speaking to me all this time..if you want to talk CALL...not text or just roll by my house, JUST CALL...uggghhh...anyhoo i am tired now....i need some sleep...actually i need to finish what i was doing, and then go to sleep.... but seriously, selfish people need to get over themselves...hell that wasnt even the first selfish issue i had this weekend...well it wasnt me personally hubby had a selfish person issue...i swear people are so unbelieveable yet sooooo predictable!  oh and btw- i never got to send my congratulatory text because i got off track..crap...i guess i will tell him tomorrow!

i am kinda upset because i just began reading some of the other preggie blogs out there and everyone talks about how big their baby is....size, lbs etc... AND I DONT KNOW WHAT KEANA IS LOOKING LIKE IN THERE! The tech never told me anything about her size other than, oh she is fine, UHHHH, and i just thought i was retarded for asking her, well can you tell me more, but i realize i had the right...BUT NO ONE EVER TOLD ME ANYTHING...i hope once this new doc obtains our records she can tell me how big she was at the time in there...good grief...was it so hard to tell me something so standard...i am sad now..dang... i cant wait until september 9th when i go back!...i wonder what my doc thought about the long email i sent her friday with my concerns LMAO....i started reading mess about incompetent cervixes and it got me all freaked out....i sooooooooo promise i am going to stop reading on complications and just stick to what ever the docs tell me is going on...i freak myself out way to easily LMAO....i am just glad everything is going well with us! 

mommy loves you Keana...oh and daddy and i just figured out how we will arrange your room...to ensure you get use to your crib we are also going to be sleeping in the room with you LOL...so we will switch out...some nights you will be in there with us then other nights in your own bed....i dont think daddy will care for being in that queen bed for too many nights in a row...he enjoys our foam king bed tooo much...LOL  i am just glad the bed fits in the room with all your other furniture....you will even still have room for  a nice little play area..i didnt realize your room was so big LOL...but i have NO IDEA what i will do with your bathroom yet... your Umi will be staying in your room some nights too and i am sure she is not trying to take showers in a tub overrun by baby decor LOL..i will figure something out...