My midwife informed me today that she is leaving the obgyn practice I was going to...CRUD!!!!!!!  I am soooo not staying there because I was ONLY there for her....I have NEVER seen any of the doctors there...only her..So I am going to bounce...the worse part of it is she is leaving my delivery area period....WAAAAAAHHHHH........I really really really wanted her to deliver my baby....I liked her soooo much...but i have scheduled a visit with another practice closer by that i was originally referred to in the first place AND my midwife knows of this particular doctor because of her frequency at the hospital we will be delivering at... Well hopefully i will still be able to have the type of delivery i want---natural and  intimate.  (SIGH)...my midwife said its not necessary that i have a midwife in the room to deliver my baby so i suppose i can still accomplish it....this practice is getting a new midwife on the 25th SO we shall see how that goes too..Well I will hope for the best..but every since my appointment this morning I have been down about this....UGGGHHHH I will feel much better after I establish a rapport with the new practice and doc.... Well Keana hang on in there with mommy....we are going to get you out one way or another! LOL

BTW- the midwife didnt even have any comment about my weight gain this month LOL..thank goodness..i know the most important thing was her leaving so she didnt have to dwell on it...another 10 or 11lbs!!!!!! WTH am i eating LOL...wait i know everything...and STILL no huge preggie tummy...UGGHHH....but trust Keana will be sliding right on out of these big ole hips i got now LOL.... Her heartbeat was sooooooo strong today...it was beautiful...over 150....and she was finally on my right side instead of the left...she has always chilled on the left....i am glad she is getting up and around in there LMAO!!!!!!!  Mommy loves you! 

well i think this has been a sad weekend for the entertainment industry...i was very disturbed and distraught when i heard about Bernie Mac's passing yesterday...but as a took a break from the internet to read to Keana (Alone Is No Fun by Wayne Carley....one of my books from my childhood) I was surfing on the net and saw that Issac Hayes passed away today...Goodness...how sad for the entertainment industry this weekend...I don't know any of these men personally BUT their talents all effected me in some way...mainly through laughter...Bernie..everytime he opened his mouth! LOL and Issac as Chef on South Park....his soulful voice was also soothing to listen too also...WOW...very sad...I feel for their families and hope that they get through their grief....As I bring a new life into this world, I can't help but to think about all of those lives that have gone before her arrival...ummm she will never know, but who would have loved her soooooo much....especially my daddy...man i can just see his face now..My baby girl is having a baby girl LOL....7/8/08 marked 11 years of his passing...But i have plenty of pics and stories to share so hopefully Keana will be able to know a little bit about him, even if she doesnt get to meet him in the flesh...okay so these deaths kinda made me down for the moment..but i know we all have purpose and once our purpose is served and God is ready for one of us to go "home" thats final, we must do what we have to do....and let go.   I made Keane promise me that he will live forever so I am not worried about my husband...he pinky sweared me he would be here forever so he can't renig!!!! and as for my mommy she already promised me as a little little girl that she would live forever too! so she has to keep her promise too!... uggh i hate talking or thinking about death so I am going to have to end this post NOW...

Okay so Miss Lauryn Iman Montgomery came to visit us yesterday....2 weeks and 3 days old...and precious as can be!!!!!!!!! too cute...Tai and J did a great job LOL...  She is sooooo tiny..i had a ball siting with her...feeding her..as soon as that bottle went into her month her hands came up eyes closed and her toes stood straight out and parted...like ummmummm good...LMAO...just too cute and tiny...i can't wait to see her grow up..I need to go to babies r us this week and pick up that cute lil ladybug halloween costume for her....awwww...makes me sooo excited for Keana's visit to the world! omg i dont know what i will do if Keana is that small...LOL...If she does come out that tiny I am sure it wont be for long LOL...Keane and I were watching Women's Volleyball (Olympics) this morning and we saw a girl that was 6'7...OMG what if my baby is a giant LMAO....well okay maybe she won't be that tall...but what if she is like 6 feet...she will have NO choice but to be good in golf, tennis, basketball, track, volleyball or something LMAO....and of course she will be beautiful (LOL) and so she could possible go into modeling...but not sure if daddy is having that...he is not feeling the trips to milan or NY...LOL...sounds like MY DADDY...he was soooo not for the boarding school in London NOR modeling in Europe...so Keana mommy was only allowed to be small time...then i lost interest...I wonder if my mom still kept my appearance in Essence in that Philip Morris Campaign add...i need to see if she still has my portfolio so i can show her....anyhoo i am too excited to have my lil one in 3 to 4 months...she has been moving up a storm today...guess it was all that fun in my tummy she got today...cotton candy, snow cone, popcorn, etc LOL...i think i will be sick tomorrow LOL...but tonight I am good!

Okay so I know preggers minds are bad right...but mine has been awful..just rereading my entry above makes me see how ALL OVER my mind has become...and then just the mindless stuff i have been doing...like i was on my way to publix but actually drove out the way to target...just because i wasnt paying attention...or how i was trying to fix a plate yesterday and spilled Jalepeno juice all over the counter...dont even know how because i dont remember actually lifting it or anything...MY MIND IS JUST BAD...i better go over everything i do over and over again....especially my work...speaking of work...well nevermind...lets just say I LOVE MY JOB :) and leave it at that...

Okay so i finally got Keana's closet organized...she has got too many freaking clothes already...i really need to start purchasing necessity stuff...LOL...i mean she has got 0-3 months on LOCK LOL...then 3-6 and 6-9 is not too bad either....i better quit while i am ahead...i know people like to buy clothes...but all the time and effort i put into my baby registry...hopefully people will take a look at it LMAO....actually i kinda think i did that registry for me....it helps me see all the things i need to get for her...gosh...its a lot....who knew how much "stuff" babies need...or more like what parents think they may need Ijust cant wait until she gets here..it will be so much fun...i guess i need to start planning my maternity leave soon... I guess i better stop saying i need to do things and just get on the ball and do it!!!!!!! maybe tomorrow...now its almost tomorrow so i better go to sleep...well first i need to catch this singles and doubles tournament...I LOVE the olympics...My husband will have to change this Reno 911 show soon...Keana your daddy has the craziest sense of humor...seriously....LMAO..he is just plain ole goofy...well you know he is the crazy voice always yelling at you and making crazy sounds at mommy's belly...yep i know i know thats your daddy! LOL gotta love him!...okay anyhoo so know we are watching football....the chargers are kicking the cowboys tails...i guess their second strings are better...i doubt they put in the "real folks"...its just preseason....okay side note...(so random) why were people trying to sell their falcon season tickets at the festivities today...LMAO...hilarious..poor falcons.... i am glad Keane is finally a Tennessee Titans this year WOOOHOOOO go Vince Young! I gotta get a #10 jersey...i guess we will be at least making one more trip to Nashville so we can catch a game...i need to check the schedule to see which one I need my mom to give us tickets too... look at PacMan Jones...okay i need to focus my attention to this game...i might not actually control my own fantasy team, but i do contribute to it...i like to know whats going on so one day Keane will let me run my own team LMAO Keana you will probably come out knowing more about football then you ever wanted to know...daddy will mold you into a sports fanatic...especially football and golf! mommy gotcha on the tennis and girlie stuff..anyhoo time to chill...okay nite nite... 

Okay so I have no problem, swimming and playing tennis what so ever...I have been playing my butt off...okay so why am i still gaining so much weight UGGGHHH...its not like its just in my belly its ALL OVER UGGGGHHHH.....for the last two days I finally thought my belly was going to stay put (it started to poke) BUT i woke up this morning, and it is smaller AGAIN...SO YOU KNOW WHAT that just tells me that freaking 5 more lbs just went somewhere else...THIS IS NOT FUN...Well being pregnant is GREAT, but the weight gain is not...LOL...I just want to know where the weight is going....I know my midwife said to stop getting on the scale until my appt, but i am so obsessive with my weight LOL...Seriously though, The scale has now gotten to a number that I have never seen before LMAO...its freaking me out... of course hubby is like Cool the baby needs it!.....???????? UHHHH the baby should only be about a 1 pound...so where is the other 30lbs coming from LMAO...Seriously, its my fault because I have enjoyed whatever my craving yearns for, so I get it...but dang, I thought I ate like this before baby...Maybe I just worked out more LOL...and I guess I did think twice before I had some of this stuff....Dag on it.... Oh well I just dont want to get preeclampsia or gestational diabetes or any other complications...If the baby is cool, and my body can take this weight gain then COOL...but seriously, something has to give.... Besides my thighs and hips...that is where hubby says the weight as gone...just great, like I needed anymore weight there.

You know what else is crazy...i can still comfortably lay on my tummy...but Keana goes crazy...well not really, but I feel her kicking more...LOL...and Hubby screams bloody murder when i do that...LOL well not really, but he does scold me..."dont lay on my baby...get up that is not comfortable for her" LMAO..he is a trip...anyhoo I have found conflicting things about whether it is okay or not...But I try not to lay that way too often...But that is my comfy position to surf the net...or type in my blog LOL..anyhoo...

oh yea, so i thought i had made my furniture and car seat and stroller decisions right? WRONG..okay so like I won a $100 gift card from babies r us from my visit friday YIPEEE..so I was all set to go buy this expensive a** set I wanted to get her...( Btw- both my mommy and hubby said the baby is definitely a good luck baby LOL...Hubby said she has already started off in the green LMAO)...anyhoo I went to go check out the crib at the other babies r us....in perimeter AND OF COURSE, i see something NEW....I love it though...It is soooooo much more ME....its not a convertible one though...So Keana cant grow with it...Although Hubby feels that by 2 or 3 I am going to want her to have a princess type bed anyway or at least be ready to do something new with her room ....LMAO...and then we can just use that crib for a new baby.... I am soooo considering that...even thought its MORE than I wanted to spend on a nonconvertible one...I just love it so much! LOL...

Okay so the car seat and stroller...I was all set on the Chicco after not liking the movement of the Peg and the height right? WRONG, i was just at a retarded store...the guy was too stupid to let me know that THE BRAKE WAS ON when i was trying to turn it, AND that you could ADJUST the handles to meet MY height needs...WTF..seriously....I am soooooo glad I went back to another store to check it out...AND i found out the Peg car seat has extra precautions to make it safer!. Like the extended flap and stuff... anyhoo its back to the drawing board...because those two sets are kinda the same other than the flap thing...the weight and length is about the same...for the car seats YES...now the stroller diff..the Chicco is heavier but it also goes up to 50lbs...the Peg is ligher by like 5 lbs but only goes to 45lbs...but seriously am I going to be pushing my big ole toddler in it? LOL...Also, I really wanted a colorful set..but now I changed my mind... I saw the color I wanted in the babies r us....and I think the car seat would be fine in it, but I dont care for the stroller in all those damn bubbles...LOL...I know me, I will get so tired of looking at it...I actually like the Moka now...which hubby thought was too plain....LOL...imagine...MY HUBBY Mr. Low Maintenance, I dont care about anything, said something was PLAIN LOL...He would rather have the green bubbles...ummmm i see a compromise on the horizon! LOL

Anyhoo, I am just excited that I already have $100 not out of my own pocket to spend LOL...I need to go through her clothes I bought to also see what can go back...LOL i really went over board...and i realize i could have got better deals...especially those damn socks i bought....I paid $15 for 3 or 6 pair of socks and hubby said I dont even spend that on his grown feet LOL....and i bought i dont know like 6 pairs!!!!!!! WTH was I thinking? who knows...just shopping crazy!

By the way, did I ever say I am not looking forward to doing HAIR???? OMG, what am i going to do with all that hair she will have....Luckily if she follows suit like mommy and daddy she will be bald until at least 1 LMAO!!!!!! Sorry mommy's lil baby...I love ya, but I am okay with you having a little bald head until 1...Believe me you will have plenty of years to enjoy long thick hair....Mommy has, and now she just balls her up in a ponytail!...its too freaking hot to wear it down... WHY did I decide to straighten it during the hottest week of the SUMMER...UGGGGHHHH DUMB DUMB DUMB